A/N: You all have no idea how freaking sorry I am! I hate to make excuses, but there's been a lot of… crap to put it lightly, going on in my life. And with school, online courses, afterschool activities, and then add on the personal problems that I've been facing, it equals very little time to focus on the story. And I apologize so profusely. Just imagine me bowing repeated or something. Anyway, this has been a long time in the making, and edited so many times that the original storyline has changed by now. I'm also way behind in the series, so I don't know much of the current happening with Lyoko. But please enjoy.

This is a SEQUEL! Please read "Learning to Love" first, or you will not understand what it going on. Thank you.

Disclaimer: I do not own. Never have, never will.

Learning to Live:: Chapter One: There's Still Hope

Beep... Beep... Beep...

It was amazing how I could stand to be in this room at all. The repetition of a heart monitor, the horrible off-white color that threatened to blind me, and the pale face of the one I love, lifeless. There was an impending doom that I couldn't shake as I studied my beloved: her ghostly pale face, framed by her dark, limp hair; her chest barely rising and falling to assure me there was still life within her being.

Beep... Beep... Beep...

The blinds were drawn, so only the awful artificial light reached her face. It seemed to only worsen my fears. In the artificial light, especially, she seemed more like a ghost than the girl I grew to love. Her face had the expression of discomfort and sadness frozen in place, yet the expression didn't make her look any less beautiful. It was almost painful for me to look at her, but I suppose this whole thing is turning me slightly masochistic. And it wasn't just looking at her that caused me turmoil, but the thoughts that ran through my head...

What if she never woke up again...

Nothing scared me more than that fact that she may never open her eyes, never smile, never live again. A coma, that's the state she was pushed into, the fate she placed upon herself, because of her want to protect us. To protect me. The thought almost sickened me. And as icing on the cake, if she did wake up, she might not even remember us. I couldn't help but bitterly think that it might be for the best. At the same time, it tore me apart inside. I couldn't live without her, I just couldn't. It would destroy me inside. How masochistic would it be, to love someone who wouldn't even know my name? Yet, how sadistic it would be for me to want her to remember all the pain. If she forgot... she'd forget everything- the pain of her past, the alone-ness that she suffered for years, her hate for XANA, her love for me...

My breath caught it my throat, as I shook my head, to clear that last thought. 'You can't allow yourself to think that way yet. You can't loose your hope yet.' a slightly logical side of me commented. A darker side decided to add its two-cents as well, 'That hope could very well destroy you though. If you hope too much, you'll be shattered when you find out she doesn't even know your name.'

I had to calm myself, and think of something completely different, before I felt myself relax. That thought had terrified me ever since I'd heard that it was possible. As a matter of fact, ever since that day... I've been terrified. That day... the day she tried to kill herself.

Fear had pulsed through my veins, making my whole body numb with adrenaline, forgetting the pain cause by the XANA attack. Nothing could break my sheer determination to protect the one I loved. It was after she found me hurt in the forest, and I knew-and the others did too-that she would do something drastic. It was a twisted way of something like honor to her.

I shoved people out of my way as I went through the halls, almost as if on autopilot, the only thought going through my head was 'Not. Her.'.

The door sprung open, the force of my flight causing it to bash against the wall, but that wasn't what made my heart flat-line.

The smell of blood was thick in the air, and Rain's near lifeless body was tainted with crimson. The bleeding hadn't stopped, but she was down for the count.

"Call 911." I remember stating, as calmly as possible, as I rushed to her side to gather her in my arms. I flinched as I studied the damage to herself.

I didn't bother listening to Yumi's hysterics over the phone as she screamed at them to hurry. I was already sprinting out the door again, and to the front of the school, where, in the distance, I heard the sirens.

There was still a chance.

A shiver trembled through my body as I remember the helpless feeling. It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair for her to have so much on her shoulders, so many counting on her. It just wasn't fair! And as much as I wanted to scream that, as much as I wanted to pound my frustrations out on a wall, I knew it would do no good. There was nothing I could do to change the past. All I could do was rely on hope to get me through another day.

I came to the hospital every day, spending all of my free time there. No one tried to stop me, not even the nurses anymore. They knew that even though they kicked me out, I'd find a way back in, just to watch my beloved Rain's pale face in... slumber. I slightly cringed at the thought. I'd tried to fool myself into the 'fact' she was just sleeping, but that never worked.

The XANA attacks are less frequent and weaker, and we know it's Rain's tie to him. We still weren't going to let her die, as was apparent, even if it eliminated XANA. We would find any alternative we could to make it possible for her to live, and him to vanish. First, however, we wanted her to wake up. It's been almost two months since her attempt, and the doctors say there's been no change. Now whether that's a good thing or bad thing, that's up to interpretation.

"Odd?" A nurse poked her head into the room, "The doctors want you to go home and get some rest, okay? Could you do us that favor sweetie? We'll make sure nothing happens to Rain, and we'll call you if anything changes." she promised.

I looked up, and I could see the worry clear on her face. I glanced quickly into a nearby mirror, and I could immediately tell why. There were dark circles enclosing my eyes, and I could tell my skin had become lighter, from my lack of sunshine. I turned back and gave her a half-smile, not bothering to examine myself more.

"I believe I could do you that one favor. Just this time though."

She nodded and smiled, "While worrying about her health, don't forget your own, okay?"

"Easier said than done." I muttered to myself.

"Just try kiddo." she ushered me out the door, and towards the exit. "No one wants to see you hurt. I'm sure she wouldn't want you to be affected like this."

Though her words were meant to help, I couldn't help but flinch. Dejectedly, I finished the walk to the exit, and left, feeling like I left a piece of my heart there with her. Everyone had noticed a change in me ever since Rain's hospitalization. Even I could see it in myself.

That night, as I fell into an uneasy sleep, I wondered if things would ever be the same...

X.x.x.X

"Ring..." the shout of a phone awoke me from my sleep. I scrambled to answer it in my half-awake state.

"Hello?!" I'm sure my frantic manner was clear in my voice, but I didn't care. If it was the hospital, I had to know… but I feared that the news they would bring would hurt me more then I already was.

"Odd Della-Robia?" a familiar voice rang out, and my heart beat sped up.

"Yes, this is he."

"Rain's vitals have improved and we believe she may wake up very soon. I thought you might like to be here when she does."

My eyes widened, and I was on my feet, stumbling to pull on shoes. "I'll be there soon. Thank you very much!"

"No problem." I could hear a small smile in her voice. "Goodbye, Odd."

"I'll see you soon." I hung up the phone, and quickly rushed out the door. I must have looked ridiculous since my hair was surely sticking up at odd angles, and I was in sweats and a baggy shirt. But I could not waste time thinking about my appearance.

I arrived at the hospital in record time, the nurses all giving me nods as I rushed past them. I skidded to a stop in front of her room, and hesitated as my hand touched the door. This was it. It was the moment I would find out if she remembered me. If she remembered anything. I felt my heart accelerate as I opened the door.

The usual doctor stood beside the bed. She looked up at me, and gave a tired smile, before beckoning me over to her side. Rain still lay motionless, but there was movement beneath her eyelids.

After a few moments, her eyelids fluttered open, and she gasped as if waking from a horrible dream. It took a while for them to focus, but soon her eyes began scanning the room. Her gaze lingered on the doctor for a moment, and then on me.

My heart beat faster as I saw her soft cerulean eyes, slightly clouded in confusion. "Where…" she couldn't seem to find her voice. The doctor handed her some water, which she took with a grateful look. It was downed quickly and she tried to speak again. "Where… am I?"

"The hospital, sweetie. Can you tell me what you remember? What is your last memory?"

"I…" she blinked, furrowing her eyebrows in thought. "I remember, being in a hospital once before… because I passed out… while singing. I… I'm a singer. REK." She nodded to herself, reassuring herself that it was true. "It had to be a couple years prior to now… How old am I?"

"You're sixteen." The doctor replied.

"Mm… I had to be around thirteen. I remember I wasn't in school at the time. I was earning money to go to a boarding school so that I could be more than self-taught. I don't remember my parents, but I remember singing…"

My heart plummeted as she spoke. We hadn't met until she was fourteen, during her first year at Kadic. She didn't remember. She chose that moment to look at me, and our eyes connected for a moment. Her eyes did not register confusion, but she didn't proclaim my identity like she would have.

"I should get going." I nodded to the doctor. "I hope you feel better Miss Kamera."

My feet felt like lead as I walked at the door. As soon as it closed, I felt a tear slip from my eye. I leaned my back against a wall and slip down, burying my head in my knees. My body wanted to reject the knowledge so badly. I shook trying to keep the tears that wanted to fall from cascading down.

My world had shattered. The girl I loved more than anything in the world didn't even know my name. She was the only one who had the power to make me cry, and cry I did. Another person sat beside me, and I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Maybe it's better this way, Odd." Yumi's voice whispered to me, a hint of sadness playing on the tone. "She doesn't remember her parents, so she doesn't know of XANA and all the other things that hurt her so much. And who knows, maybe with time, you can make her fall in love with you again. There's still hope."

A/N: First off, I'd like to say not everything is as it seems. A lot more will be explained in the next chapter, which will be in Rain's point of view. Please review to tell me how it is. I know this should have been out years ago, and I apologize again. Any of my old readers, thank you for returning to read. I really didn't mean to take this long. I love you all! Please don't hate me. And if you do, review and tell me that you hate me. Or that you love me. Either way, I won't complain.