Bella. Bella. Bella. I heard. I felt something shaking my shoulders. My eyes slowly cracked open slightly and focused on the faces around me. I was groggy and disoriented, but I could make out everything around me.
"Bella." A bird sang in my ear. "Wake up. Come on. Open your eyes a little more. Come on. She's waking up." The bird chirped, farther away from me.
"We see that, Alice." A sarcastic voice told her. My mind cleared up. Water fell on me, and I sprang up off of the couch I was lying on.
"What?" I shouted. I looked around me.
"Bella, calm down." I was panting. Carlisle's calming words soothed me.
"I'm okay. I'm okay." Everybody's face was worried, and sad. "How long was I out?"
"About three hours. We called Tanya and told her that we were going to come, but we couldn't." Edward explained to me.
"What? Why?" I asked.
"Bella, you're condition is too serious. Now we know how dangerous it could be."
"You promised you wouldn't tell Tanya about what was going on." I shouted.
"I didn't, I – We just told her we couldn't go."
"Does Renesmee know?" I asked.
"She does? Well, we can't hide it from her; she would figure it out anyway. She's so intelligent."
"Actually, she did figure it out on her own."
"Oh, wow. Call Tanya. I still want to see her." I told him.
"That might not be a good idea…"
"Call her now." I demanded.
"Okay. Okay." I picked up the phone and handed it to Edward – well, it was more of a shove into his chest.
He dialed Tanya's number super fast. "Hello, Tanya."
Edward! How are you? Tanya asked.
"Good, good, thanks for asking."
So, why did you call?
"Well, remember when we said we couldn't come visit you?"
"We can actually come."
Wonderful, Edward! I can't wait to see you again!
"Yes, yes, I'm excited, also."
Why did you postpone it before?
"Oh, nothing important." I looked at him and mouthed 'Nothing important?'
Edward covered the phone at the bottom, and whispered, "We aren't telling her, remember? If I say it's not important, then she won't care."
Oh, okay. I hope everything worked out. When will you be coming over?
"How about tonight?"
Sure. That's great.
"Okay. We'll see you then." He hung up the phone and smiled.
"We are going to leave now, right?" I asked.
"Yes. I'll get Renesmee, and you just sit down on the couch." He pushed on my shoulders to make me sit.
"Okay." I whispered. "Carlisle?"
"Yes?" He answered.
"Honestly, Bella, that's not something I can answer." I nodded.
Edward ran into the room with Renesmee at his arm. Renesmee ran up to me.
She touched my cheek, and her thoughts were colored with worry. Her bug eyes were worried, also.
"I'm alright. Don't worry, we'll fix everything, I promise." But I couldn't really promise. I didn't know how this was going to end. I can't make promises that I can't keep.
"I just remembered something." I suddenly burst out. All heads were turned in my direction. "We can't leave until Jacob gets back. If he comes back and we're gone, what will he think? He might think we were hurt, or in trouble, or even that we abandoned him."
"Good point." Rosalie said. "When is Jacob getting back?" She asked with a scowl, she still loathed him.
"Tonight, I'm sure." Edward said. "I'll call Tanya back."
"No. I will." I told him, and grabbed the phone.
Hello? Kate answered.
"Hello, Kate." I greeted her.
Oh, hi, Bella. She sounded surprised. Couldn't she tell it was me by my voice? Or did my voice change?
"Listen, we might come a little late in the night. We have to wait for Jacob to get back, so he doesn't get worried."
She laughed. Don't worry about the time, you don't sleep, I don't sleep. None of us sleep – well, besides Renesmee. Is that all you called for?
Oh, well, how is your control going?
"Thirst or powers?" I asked.
Both, I guess.
"My thirst is fine, very controllable, and my powers as well. I have gotten better at opening my shield."
Fantastic. You are one powerful vampire.
I laughed warily. "Thanks, so are you. Well, I'll see you soon. Bye for now."
Bye. I put the phone down, and exhaled a huge breath.
"What's wrong?" Esme asked. So kind.
"Now, whenever I hear, or say, the word vampire, it makes me feel …" I couldn't find the right word to explain. It just made me feel strange, or left out, but those words don't even describe the feeling.
"We understand." Esme said, nodding.
"Excuse me?" She asked.
"How would you understand? How could you ever understand? It's eating me alive inside!" I was losing my mind. I have to calm myself down, but I just can't find a way to.
"Mother!" Renesmee shouted, and froze me in my rampage.
"Renesmee?" I asked, shocked. My eyes were wide open, and I lost my train of thought. She's never spoke that loud.
"Calm down. You promised that everything would be fixed, now you have to promise yourself, and keep telling yourself the same thing over and over again – I will be okay. This will all end soon. Maybe I don't necessarily believe it myself, but at least I'm trying. You have to, also." Her delicate eyebrows were turned down toward her eyes.
My mouth was open, and my lips were moving, but I couldn't seem to get any words out. I blinked rapidly. She had never spoken this much, or this fiercely. It seems that everybody's changing, and I don't know why.
Emmett was the first to break the unbearable silence. "Wow, Renesmee!" He shouted smiling. "That's the most I've ever heard from you." Renesmee's hands were balled up into fists. I finally spoke.
"I'm sorry, Renesmee. It's just a lot to think about." My voice was cracking.
"Don't apologize. I want to see you fighting it, not sitting back and complaining." She breathed deeply, and closed her mouth. I believe she got out everything she needed to say. I didn't say anything, because I didn't want her angry at me again, I just nodded my head.
So, this must have been what Charlie went through whenever my hormones went out of control, but did Renesmee even have hormones? She must have them; she's part human, after all. Her and Edward were making eye contact, she must be telling him something, but when she and him caught me looking, they looked away from each other.
"What?" I asked. They knew what I was asking about.
"Nothing." Edward said. I decided to let it go for now, I have too big of an emotional tornado raging inside me. Secrets are the last thing that I need.
"Hey, everybody." A husky voice said through an open door frame. We all looked at Jacob. "What did I miss?"
(AN: Hey. Sorry about it being such a long time. I've been really tired, family's been over, and my internet hasn't been working. :FACT: Where it says "Everybody's changing and I don't know why," I took that from a song that I was listening to at that moment. : b There was a review that said I should make my summary a little more interesting, any ideas? If you have any ideas, please inform me.)