OK...Ok...ok...ummm. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE...Don't kill me.

I have just barely been able to be here, my computer went on the broke vacation since about mid-summer. I plan to get right on track, but suring my computer troubles I kinda made a decision about my writing.

I want you all to know, that I love you all. Your reviews are what keeps me going, and they make me feel all awesome inside. I got around 70 reviews now, and only about...5 chapters. I love you all so so so so so much. YOU ARE AWESOME. I would like you to know I love this story. It is one of my very first ones, and I will NEVER give it up NEVER EVER EVER EVER. Shortly after I came up with this idea I found fanfic. A couple of months later I signed up. A couple of months later I put this story up. I published this story March 21. It is now September 29. And I only have 5 chapters. I feel like I completely ignored this story and only gave it some time every once and awhile. And I know know know that it deserved more, and I will give it more.

But...

PLEASE DONT KILL ME...

I...I'm not gonna do it now.

I am temporarely putting this story on hold.

It's not that I don't like writing for this story, it's just that right now I am writing for my other stories. I read The Mediator a VERY LONG TIME AGO, and came up with the plot for this story.

But then I started reading other things, I began to write other things, and now I have four stories up.

I'll admit that this story seems to be the most popular, but I can''t force myself to write when I want to write other things...Then my work is all crappy and icky.

I know where I want to go with this story and I know how it will I don't necesarily know how to get their yet. YET. This hold is TEMPORARY. I will NOT abandon my story, I promise you. Let me define my hold thing:

HOLD: Not updating regurarely, not concentrating fully on it, putting it to the back of my mind until inspiration finds me.

I promise this is not forever, and heck, if you review and tell me that you will keep reading and watch out for the next chapter of Growing Love, I might feel guilty enough to update. Then again, a review of hate and anger is probably what I deserve. Its easy to convince me of something, so if you really want me to update, then...*sigh*.

Kind words might help and encouragement, because I dont get that from friends and family, cause I dont let them read my work, cause I want true thoughts, not them going easy on me...ya know?

So, I'm very very very very very sorry guys, I promise this is not permanent. Please review what you think and if you're angry, super angry, understanding or other. Also put the word BUTTERFLY right before your review so I know if you read my whole post please!

Love love,

Sour Candy

P.S: I hope to lift this hold soon! ;)