She found Jacob in the living room. He was sitting on the couch, clearly waiting for her. His eyes were uncommonly dark. Her breath hitched.
They stared at each other for a while. Finally he said, "Ness?"
She came into the room. He spoke to her, but his eyes never left Leah's. "Would you mind maybe going to your Grandpa's house for a bit? If you don't want to, you don't have to, of course." His eyes left Leah's to smile at her. She could have gagged.
Renesmee smiled and leaned down. "Whatever you like, my Jacob," she said, before placing a kiss on his lips. Leah knew Renesmee put on a show for her benefit. How can I ever thank you, she thought dryly.
When Renesmee left, Jacob turned to her again. He offered a Leah a seat, but she stayed standing.
"I guess… I guess you know, by now."
He nodded, his mouth pressed into a tight line.
"I kind of wanted to be the first one to tell you."
"It helps if you don't tell anyone else, first."
They stared. Finally Jacob said, "You're sure its mine?"
Leah glared. "Well, I've narrowed it down to you and the five other men I fucked around that time. Yes I'm fucking sure it's yours, Jacob!"
"The last time we were together was-"
"A month and a half ago."
"And you're only figuring it out now?"
"I've had sickness for a while, now. Excuse me for not immediately jumping to pregnancy, you see for a long time I was under the impression that my uterus was defective and that I couldn't have children!"
For the first time since she had entered, he got emotion in his features. "What the fuck, Leah? You get pregnant, when everyone thinks that's not possible, and then when it comes down to it, you tell everybody and their aunt, everybody except me, the damn father! What the fuck is that?!"
"What the fuck is that? What the fuck is that? I'll tell you what it fucking is, Jacob, alright! It's me being the most scared I've ever been in my life. Do you understand that? Leah fucking Clearwater, who isn't afraid of bugs or heights or saying what she thinks or vampires or anything, is fucking terrified. Do you understand that, Jacob? I've never been more scared in my life, no matter how I come off to others." She was fighting back tears now, because there was no way she was going to let herself cry in front of him. "I'm going to be raising this baby alone. I'm still living in my mother's house. And there are all these feelings! I want to cry and scream and laugh and swear and hit things and give up and persevere and confront my demons and run away from them, I'm happy and sad and angry and submissive, all at the same time. I don't know what the hell to do with myself! I've got Emily hugging me and the pack talking about babysitting and Sam is giving me advice and my mother is talking about cribs and baby toys and Seth is talking about being an uncle and that's all fine and dandy, but the whole time I'm thinking about how my baby won't even have a father! And your fucking stupid girlfriend's mother just completely chewed me out and all I want to do right now is phase and run far, far away but I can't, because I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant, and I'm scared, and everybody is too busy dealing with how they feel about my miracle pregnancy to wonder about how I feel about it!" And with that, Leah dissolved into tears, turned around, and ran out of the cottage.
Jacob caught up to her quickly. He stopped her and wrapped his arms around her and she caved into him because she loved him, and she needed him, and she was scared and she wanted comfort, and he smoothed her hair and whispered in her ear and he calmed her down enough to direct her to a rock and sit her down there.
"Are you alright?" He asked her gently. She nodded, embarrassed at her breakdown. He tucked her hair behind her ear.
"Leah… Leah, it's alright. I just wish you had of told me first, is all.
"Listen to me. I understand that you're scared. I'm scared. I'm terrified, and I'm not even the one who's pregnant! But this is a good thing. Think of all the times you told me how much you wished you could have children. Think of how great of a mother you'll be. Think of how much our child is going to adore you. I understand this isn't the situation you imagined this to be happening in, but its happening. And Leah, I'll be there for every step of the way. How could you ever think that I wouldn't be? I'm not just going to leave you completely alone with a baby, Leah, and that you think I would hurts."
She looked down, ashamed.
"This is a good thing, Leah. I promise. And don't worry about other people. Don't worry about Emily, or Sam, or Bella. You never did before."
She smiled slightly. "These mood swings are crazy."
"Leah, your mood swings before were crazy. I believe the proper word for these is lethal."
She glared, and Jacob laughed. "Besides, it's got us talking again. I've missed my Beta. Granted, you're not going to be my Beta anymore, are you?"
She shook her head. "Carlisle said I can't phase anymore. It'll kill the baby."
He nodded. "That's a shame. I'll miss you bossing me around and complaining constantly."
She snorted. "I just want to know who's going to keep you in line."
He wrapped an arm around her. "I've missed this, Leah. I've missed you."
"No you haven't."
"Sure I have." Suddenly he stopped. "Jesus Christ, Leah. I'm gonna be a dad."
"You're just coming to this realization now?"
He hit her lightly. "Seriously, Leah. I don't know how to be a dad."
"Neither do I, don't worry."
"Now is not the time to joke!"
"You just gave me a big pep talk. Can't you give yourself one?"
He sighed, rubbing his face with his hand.
"You know who could help you, Jake?"
He looked at her. Then he smiled.
"I guess you want to tell him then?"
She shook her head. "That's your job. But I'll be there, too."
Jacob sighed. "Let's go, Leah. He'll have heard by now, anyway."
She snorted. "He probably heard me yelling at Bella. I'm sure the whole town heard that."
He grinned. "Let's go, mommy."
"That is going to have to stop, right now."