Hey guys! Here is a totally random drabble fic that I did when I was bored!

Disclaimer: I don't own any tmnt characters!

Happy Place

Leo's POV:

I was sad. Why? I don't know. Did I show it? Hell no! I just kept on thinking about my happy place. Where was it?

I don't know how long I was sitting on the coach in deep thought. I looked over to where Donnie was, fixing the toaster after Mikey accidently set it on fire. AGAIN!

Sometime's I wish that I was Donnie. So calm and happy, having a place were only he could go to, his lab. Having no worries, except for when Mikey gets too near to the toaster. Being able to focus on his inventions and not have to worry about anything or anybody else. He would be in his happy place.

Then there is Mikey. So happy all the time, being able to find light in the darkest of places. I sometimes wish I was Mikey too. No responsibility, no worries. Having his happy place too, on the coach, either watching tv or playing video games to reading his comics.

Last there is Raph. Most would think nobody would want to be Raph, but I did. He yearned to have the freedom that Raph had. Sure he was hot headed but he can always leave the lair, without question, to blow off some steam. That included being with Casey and beating in heads. Still he was free and he would be in his happy place too.

And then their was me, Leo. The 'fearless' leader, the responsible 'big brother'. Everyone thinks my happy place would be in the Dojo or in meditation in my room. They are wrong. They only see the me that Splinter wants the strong responsible leader. That isn't the real me. Ever since I was 8, when Splinter first told me I would be leader, the true me was sealed away in the back of my head. I became what he wanted, the leader. Because of that I not only lost myself, but also lost my best friend, Raph. Sure we are still brothers now, but before we were inseparable. That all changed when I lost myself.

Now they had forgotten the real me, and think the real me is the 'leader' me. I haven't. I still remember, when I would laugh at all of Mikey's jokes, help Donnie with is inventions or just hang out with Raph. I miss it. I could probably turn back, but if I do, Splinter will be disappointed. Even so, It would be nice. To go and blow off steam with Raph and Casey, help Donnie instead of bothering him, just sitting and playing a video game with Mikey, but I can't.

Every spare moment, I have to be in the dojo, practicing, training and becoming stronger. Learning to become a better leader. Pleasing my sensei. Meditating. Strengthening my mind and body. Losing myself more and more.

My brother's may think that the dojo is my happy place but in reality, it is my prison.

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