A/N I have written 5 fics for Grey's Anatomy and this was my second, it is also my favourite and my most successful.

Meredith sees Derek for the first time, this update gives a little bit of insight to their relationship. Enjoy!

The first of the guests started arriving at 8 o clock, everyone was surprised to learn that Derek was returning to town, it had been 9 years since he left town and he hadn't been back once. He introduced everyone to Addison; luckily his sisters were there, he was even thankful for Nancy being around, since she was the only one of his sisters that really got on well with Addison. Every once in a while he looked around the room, hoping that Meredith had come, slightly relieved but mainly disappointed. It was about 9:30 when Meredith arrived with her husband. Meredith was dreading this party, she didn't know why, but she hadn't wanted to come, she would rather on this day, just sit at home with a bottle of tequila and get this day over with, but there was a pull to come here tonight, almost like it was her destiny.

The first person that Meredith saw was Kathleen, who she was relieved about, maybe she could get could out of her why there was a party tonight. Meredith was wearing a off the shoulder black dress, which moulded too every curve

"Hey Meredith, you look gorgeous hun" Kathleen said,

"Thank you, you look good too" Mer said, giving her a hug.

"Hi Russell" Kathleen says politely, trying to hide the distain in her voice.

"Hello" Russell says formally.

"Meredith, I need to talk to you" Kathleen said, leading Meredith away from her husband over to the other side of the room.

"What is it…?" Meredith said trailing off when she heard his voice, she froze. She whipped her head around to the direction she heard his voice. Across the room green met blue.

Derek could see Kathleen greeting someone, is wasn't sure who it was, he thought it was a friend of her's that he hadn't met, he started to make his way across the room, that was when he saw her, just then Addison came up to him to tell him that she was going outside with Nancy.

"Okay" Derek said simply, wanting to get closer to Meredith. He notices her whip his head around to his direction.

Meredith couldn't believe he was here, he took her breath away. She had a thousand thoughts running through her head.

"I'm sorry, Mer I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't" Kathleen says, seeing the look on her face. "Meredith…breathe"

"I'm breathing, I think. It not your fault Kath, I just surprised to see him that all" Meredith says. Meredith leaves Kathleen and walks over to her husband and gives him a light kiss, just has Derek walks over to them. He sees her giving her husband a kiss; he tries to ignore the knife that goes through his heart.

"Hello Meredith" Derek says, wanting to reach out and touch her.

"Hello Derek, this is my husband Russell" Meredith says introducing them; she ignores the hurt look in Derek's eyes. They shakes hands, she can see that they are sizing each other up.

Russell can see how Derek looks at his wife, and he doesn't like it. He is aware of their past, Meredith has told him what happened, but he also knows how much Meredith still loves him. He can see it written on her face, no matter what happened between them; he doesn't want to see her hurting anymore.

"Shall we go and get drink" Meredith says to her husband, trying to ignore the fact that Derek can't keep his eyes of her.

"Nice to see you again Derek, welcome home. You'll have to introduce me to your wife" Meredith says to him, emphasizing the word wife. She and Russell walk off to go and get their drinks, Meredith can feel his eyes on her, secretly she loves the fact that she still gets to him.

Kathleen watches Derek; she notices that he can't keep his eyes of her, she walks over to him,

"Derek, you need to stop watching her before anyone especially your wife notices" Kathleen says to him quietly so no one could hear her.

"I can't help it, I love her so much Kath, its killing me" Derek tells her honestly.

"I know you do Derek, and she loves you, but you both can't do this any more, it not fair to Addison and Russell, and it not fair to the two of you. You made your choice Derek don't make it any harder for her, than you already have" Kathleen says, walking away, leaving Derek with his thoughts.

Meredith makes her way outside to get some fresh air; she felt that Russell was crowding her, she told him to talk to Robert, Kathleen's husband. She finally felt that she could breathe; the house was feeling more claustrophobic by the second. She stopped at the edge of the Shepherd estate, away from everyone. She looked out over the beach lost in her own thoughts that she didn't even notice Derek walking up behind her

"It's hard, isn't it?" Derek said to her, watching her stiffen up,

"Yes" she simply said.

"I know I am so sorry Meredith" he tells her.

She turns and looks at him "don't Derek I mean it" Meredith says harshly,

"Don't what? He asks.

"Don't stand there telling me you're sorry, you are the one that ended it, not me. I loved you so damn much; I was going to leave Russell for you. Six years I wasted on you" she could see how much her words was hurting him, but she didn't care "you chose her Derek, you left me, you have no right telling me you're hurting. You made your choice, now live with it. Stay away from me, I don't want to see you, hear from you, you wanted me out of your life, now you've got it" Meredith spat at him, has she walked away.

Those words cut him to the core, he wanted to run after her, but he knew that he couldn't. He wanted to tell her that she didn't choose Addison over her, but he couldn't. Meredith couldn't believe she had just said that to him, it didn't feel like she wasted all those years, she just wanted to hurt him. She went to enter the house, when she heard Nancy calling her name; she turned around, seeing Nancy walking towards her with a tall redhead, who she guessed was Addison.

"Hi Meredith" Nancy said

"Nancy, how are you?" Meredith said politely.

"Meredith, this is Addison Shepherd" Nancy introduced her to the redhead, paying close attention to Meredith reaction, having seen the interaction between her and Derek a few moments before.

"Addison, I'm Meredith Johnston" Mer said holding her head out, just has Derek walked onto the patio. When he saw Meredith and Addison talking he got a little worried. He walked up to them, worried what was being said.

"Derek, I was just saying hello to Meredith, I assume you two know each other" Addison said to him,

"Oh they do" Nancy said quietly, both Meredith and Derek heard her luckily Addison did not.

"Well, it was nice meeting you Addison, I'm gonna go and find my husband" Meredith said, walking back into the house. She found Russell still talking to Robert, she told Russell that she was going home, that to stay and to enjoy himself; she wanted some time to herself.

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