9A/N: I decided to cut the a/n short ok so here's the deal if I get ten reviews I will make this a mulit chapter story, but that depends on you guys. This is about Sesshoumaru realizing something too late. Anyways I've had thirteen visitors and one review, thank you to the one reviewer.
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Sesshoumaru heard his cell phone ringing insistently he thought about turning it on vibrate and when he pulled out the phone he saw the caller id spelled out the name of Rin. He had been trying so hard to help her out of the trap she had put herself in. Rin had hurt him when she ran back to that man when she had broke his heart. As if that could ever happen he was the prince of ice and incapable of falling in love. It was a weakness he knew that when he watched his father jump infront of a bullet for his half brother's mother. That was the day that Sesshoumaru decided he would never fall in love because he would never be victim to such a terrible emotion. He looked at the phone once more and pressed a finger to the end button until the phone shut off. The essay had been troubling him and he was having a hard time getting it finished, lies, he had a hard time starting it. He was starring at the blank document on his computer screen he hadn't typed a single word besides his name. 'What does this have to do with college?' he thought looking at the topic he had been given.
Why is love important in someone's life? How dedicated would you be? Sesshoumaru tapped his fingertips against the desk as he tried to figure out something that he had pushed back so long ago at age seven how could you decide to have no emotions and where would you find the dedication to actually make them disappear. If they asked him how to take something tragic and turn it into a seemingly heartless man he could tell them how to do that. But he hadn't known a love that hadn't hurt him in a long time. Sesshoumaru heard the nagging ringing of his house phone as he looked over to the door of his room. He stood up and looked in the hallway no one was home. Izayoi must have left earlier to the family company, Inuyasha had probably went with Kagome on something pointless like a date. 'I like when the house is quiet like this...if only the phone weren't ringing.' he thought walking down the stairs the royal blue paint of his living room was fresh and brilliantly pigmented. Sesshoumaru looked at the cradle where the phone should have been but it wasn't there. He walked around more following the annoying sound and found the small black phone.
"This is the Taisho residence." the words left his lips dryly of course stripped of any emotion.
"Sesshoumaru!" he heard the voice of a female crying struggling to say a word. Sesshoumaru felt a surge of worry spread throughout his body.
"What happened, Rin?" he asked he could hear the crying and another person grabbed the phone.
"It's Inuyasha...We can't get into Rin's house and she called us screaming for help...we tried calling her back but someone must have pulled the phone from the cord." Inuyasha said Sesshoumaru froze he could hear the crying in the background it was Kagome they had left when they got the phone call. The phone call that he must have been getting the one that he had shut his phone off because of. Sesshoumaru dropped the phone to the floor and ran up his stairs in a hurry he could feel his heart pumping painfully as he reached his desk where he grabbed his phone shoved on a pair of sneakers and ran out the house that the Taisho's lived in.
As Sesshoumaru ran down the street he held the on button down on his phone he heard the small powering on song and looked down at it. He looked down at the screen that said welcome which quickly changed to his home screen. 1 New Message. 'Fuck...what if...' he thought and pressed open. Pass Code Please. The phone's screen displayed insistently asking him for the pass code which he was trying to punch in with his thumb as he ran. '1682' he thought to himself as he punched it in correctly this time he could hear her voice.
Sesshoumaru, I'm sorry that I hurt you. I know you must see that I'm a really weak girl. Thank you for protecting me for so long. I never intended to hurt you. You are such an amazing person and I would never deserve someone that is as good as you that's why I had to push you away from me. I know that I would never escape him and I would never stop running to him because my fear of him hurting those that I care for. Everyone that I love I end up hurting or losing and it's always my fault. My parents, my brother, and my baby. I don't want to lose you ever I don't want you to die and have it be my fault. It's really selfish of me isn't it though I don't want to carry the guilt. I have a good feeling this will all end tonight, maybe even as early as this afternoon. Whatever you do happen to hear, please don't come after me don't try to protect me please don't try to save me. Who the fuck are you talking to you fucking slut! I'm sorry, Sesshoumaru. I love you. Goodbye.
Her voice was gone the words ringing in his ears he ran faster he could feel his eyes watering he hadn't cried for nearly twelve years the day his father died. He was just around the block. He could hear sirens, he could see Kagome crying hysterically on the porch. Two police officers holding them back from running to into the house There was a man on a megaphone.
"The house is surrounded come out with your hands up" he could hear it say Sesshoumaru ran up to the fence and pushed pass a few officers who were now chasing him one of them was blocking the door Sesshoumaru tackled him.
"It's not safe there is an armed man in there!" the officer yelled from the floor Sesshoumaru
"That doesn't matter, I'll die if I have too" Sesshoumaru said the worry the desire to protect her was so strong in his veins as he ran up the stairs. 'Is this what you felt father?' he thought two gun shots rang through the air and Sesshoumaru opened the door to Rin's bedroom, his eyes widened in shock, the tears that he had been fighting falling passed his unwilling eyes.