What if I Hadn't?

It has been a month since Pain attacked Konoha.

It has been a month since Naruto-kun saved all of us.

It has been a month since….since I told Naruto-kun how I felt about him.

We haven't spoken about it…actually I haven't seen him in a month, but I have heard of what he has done since I told him my feelings.

He thwarted Sasuke's plan to kill the Kages. He knocked some sense into the Uchiha boy, and brought him back into Sakura's awaiting arms. He exposed Danzo for the traitor that he is, and prevented him from being Hokage. He had done so many things as of late that it really is no surprise I have not seen him.

Just as fast as word spread about what Naruto did for the village, what I did for Naruto also spread like wildfire.

"Did you hear of what the Hyuga Heiress did?"

"Hinata? Oh what did she do?"

"She saved Naruto!"

I have heard those whispered conversations everywhere I walked, but they did not bother me. Some of those people would gather their courage and ask me a simple question.

"Why did you save him?"

I could say that he was the reason I wake up every morning and try my best at whatever I do. I could tell them that he made me want to change into someone more confident, strong, and deserving of him. I could admit to them that I love him, and would do anything for him, even if that meant sacrificing my own life. But instead, I choose to give them a simple answer to their simple question.

"What if I hadn't?"

People would go into intense thought, and they would soon realize that most of them, if not all of them, would be dead right now. They would say their thanks and leave. I thought it was weird. I had done nothing to be thanked for. I did what I did for purely selfish reasons. I wanted him to live more than I wanted to live myself.

My own answer got me thinking. What if I hadn't? If I survived, I would have been disgusted at myself for being so weak as to not help the person I love most. I wouldn't be able to look at myself. I couldn't imagine the pain I would feel. The numbness of loss would be too much for me.

Then I would realize, I had. I went into the battlefield. I told him how I felt, and I faced Pain knowing death was my fate. I don't regret it at all, and it amuses me when people continue to ask me the same question. My answer to them would always remain the same…

"What if I hadn't?"

So I decided to do a one-shot based on how Hinata felt about what she did in Ch. 437 *NaruHina fangirl squeal* I tried to show how she doesn't regret what she did even though her and Naruto haven't talked about it (which I hope they do soon in the manga!). Also it shows why they haven't talked yet (I totally believe that this is what is going to happen. Naruto is going to bring Sasuke back. They are going to expose Danzo. Then they will fight the Akatsuki. After all that is done, Naruto will finally go look for Hinata, and talk to her about Ch. 437) So pretty much it is going to be awhile before that happens...it isn't called a Patient Love for nothing)

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Lexar