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Shopping With the Pixie


"Come on Bella." Alice said for the tenth time. She was trying to get me out of the dressing room that I was currently hold up in. She had taken my jeans and t-shirt and would not let me get them back until I tried on everything that she had given me. But I was not going to leave this room in this outfit. I didn't know why she did this to me. It wasn't like I would ever wear this once I was changed.

"Alice you are never going to see me in this outfit so you can just scratch it off your list. I am taking it off now and trying on the last one so that we can leave this store already."

"That is where you are wrong Bella. I have already seen you in it."

"Well then there you go. I am taking it off now."

"But it isn't the same thing Bella. I want to see it in actuality. Please."

"Sorry Alice, it's already off." I told her as I threw it over the top of the stall.

"You are so childish sometimes Bella. Would it really have hurt you to just open the door and let us see what it looked like on you." You could completely hear the pout in her voice. I wondered how long it would take me to get her to stop taking me shopping once I was changed.

"You know what Alice, you say things like that as if you don't already know the answer." I said as I pulled the last dress over my head. "But I know that you do. I know you have seen the answer already and that we shouldn't even be having this conversation because you are not going to like when I win."

"And what, pray tell, makes you think that you will win?"

"Because I have a secret weapon that is even stronger than my stubbornness."

"And what in the world is stronger than that?" She said with a laugh.

"Edward." I said matter-of-factly.

We both laughed as I turned to make sure that the dress was covering everything properly. I gasped as I looked at myself in the mirror. The dress was beautiful. It was a pretty dusty rose color and it came to my knees. The top was multi-layered and the skirt was slightly flowy. I liked how it looked on me.

"What's the matter, Bella? Did you fall? did you rip something? Are you hurt? Would you please answer me?"

"I would if you would give me a chance." I said with a slight chuckle. I knew it was insane for her to actually think that any of those things had happened. She would have heard any of them and then she would be in here making sure I really was alright.

I opened the door and walked out slowly.

"You look beautiful, Bella." Edward said as he stood from his chair not too far from my dressing room door. "I still think you look best in blue, however, that color does look quite good on you."

I was trying not to blush as he walked up to me and took me into his arms. He leaned down and kissed my cheek before turning me around slowly.

"That is a very nice dress, Bella. So should we just get the lot?" Alice said as she walked past me into the dressing room to grab the clothes.

"Nice try there, Alice." I said quickly "You promised not to go overboard today. I have absolutely no reason to leave this city with more than one dress." That was slightly true. I had no real chance of finding my wedding dress in the first pass through and even if I did find it in one of these shops. It would be held on to until the day before the wedding. That would give it the absolute slimmest chance of Edward stumbling on to it.

"I said no such thing and how dare you try to limit my purchases to only one dress." Alice said in an outrage.

"I am not limiting your anything. I am just refusing to accept anything other than my prom dress from this shopping experience."

"Bella, just you wait. I have time to break you." She then said with an evil glint in her eyes.

"You will be doing nothing of the kind." Edward said protectively from behind me.

"You stay out of this Edward. This is between me and my sister. You are lucky that she even let you come along. If I had it my way you would be home and we would be having a lovely shopping weekend without you."

I couldn't really help the long and loud laugh that erupted from me. I was just lucky that Edward was holding on to me as my knees were starting to shake and I was getting light headed.

"That was such a good one, Alice." I said once I could speak again. "And in what planet do you live on that you actually think that I would enjoy shopping with an overactive pixie more without my wonderful fiancée?"

"That was mean, Bella." Alice said with a pout of her lips.

I hadn't meant it like that and now she looked so sad. I instantly felt bad for what I had said. I was about to move from Edward's arms and go over and apologize to Alice when Edward tightened his grip on me ever so slightly.

"Don't fall for it Bella. She is playing against the only weakness she can at the moment, your giving heart." Edward whispered into my ear. That just couldn't be, Alice wouldn't do that to me, would she?

"Alice I am sorry." I said from Edward's arms. She looked up at me through her lashes.

"You know that I only do it because I want you to look good though, right, Bella?"

"Yes Alice." I said sadly with a slight huff.

Alice obviously took this as me caving because she instantly brightened and bounced on the balls of her feet. "Then I can get the lot?" She said excitedly.

"No, Alice!" I shouted at her. I cannot believe that she actually tried to play that guilt trip with me. How dare she try to make me feel bad for not letting her waste money on me. "And I cannot believe that you would do that to me." I said to her as I started back into the changing room so that I could put my jeans and t-shirt back on.

"Bella," Alice pouted from outside my door. "You know you liked the clothes."

"Alice, why are we here?" I asked to prove my point.

"To shop for prom dresses." She answered instantly.

"And how many dresses can you wear at one dance?"

She didn't answer me at first further proving my point. But I also knew that this was working and we were putting on a great show for Edward. He would never suspect that the wedding dress shop was a ploy and this was a way for me to cave then.

"Alice, will you please answer my question?" I asked her as I walked back out of the dressing room with the one dress.

"One." She said very sadly and softly.

"Thank you." I said as I handed her the dress and kissed her cheek. "Edward can you please put the rest back. I don't really trust our sister here at the moment."

"It would be my pleasure." He said as he walked past me and kissed my forehead.

I smiled as I watched him go. I then pulled a pad of paper and a pencil out of my small purse and wrote Alice a quick note.

Did it work, does he suspect?

Alice's smile graced her face and she shook her head no. I was glad and quickly put the paper away as we left the fitting room. Alice walked up to the counter and paid for my dress. She then led us out of the mall as a whole. I was actually quite shocked. I didn't expect her to cave so completely. I was starting to get worried that she was changing up on me and Edward was going to suspect.

"Where are we going?" I asked as she didn't walk towards the parking lot.

"There is a little shopping string around here that I wanted to check out. I wanted to know if it has anything worth looking at before we leave and I lose my chance."

"So why didn't we go straight there instead of to the mall?" Edward asked her. I thought it was funny how sometimes he was able to say exactly what I was thinking. We were so in tune with each other.

"Because I know how Bella gets about prices." Alice said matter-of-factly as she rolled her eyes at Edward's question. "And fancy boutiques are bound to be more expensive than the mall. So I thought that I would ease her mind by getting her dress there. However, I am sure that I will find mine here somewhere."

"That was very nice of you, Alice." I think? I thought to myself. I think I needed to calm down a little bit or I was bound to give something away soon. And I couldn't let this all get ruined by my own stupidity.


I had to admit that it was a little weird that Alice had actually let Bella get away with just the one dress. She was up to something, I knew her well enough to know that. I just couldn't figure out what it was and I hated it when she blocked me.

As we continued to walk down the street to the shops Alice was talking about I was beginning to hear a very familiar voice. I started to search for her to see where she was to see if that would help me to figure out what she was thinking about. Then she started to daydream about something I had been dreaming about for a while now.

Bella was walking down a silk laden aisle as she walked toward me. She held her head high and walked straight with Jasper walking beside her. From my vantage point I followed her line of sight and was now looking at myself. I was overcome with love and unimaginable joy. The eyes I was looking through moved again and settled on Carlisle, who was standing with a book in his hand. He looked up at that moment and mouthed 'I Love You.". I was overcome with love again, but this time it was a more passionate love. The eyes looked back to Bella and swept up her beautiful dress to land on the elation on her beautiful face. Bella's eyes then moved to focus with the ones looking at her. She smiled wide and then mouthed 'Thank You'. I was then washed with pride and excitement as Bella passed by - to take the hand of the me in the vision - I was hit with the thought that she looked quite lovely even with the newborn eyes.

For a moment I thought that the vision was coming from Alice. But when I looked over at her I saw that she was having an animated conversation with Bella about the prom. It clicked then. Esme was envisioning my wedding to Bella. But why would she think that it would happen during Bella's first year as a vampire. That would be far too much to do and I am sure that Bella would find the time hard enough without the added stress. Yet how could I pick up her thoughts while in Seattle?

I then realized that I had led the girls to a wedding gown shop. Bella was looking at me quizzically and Alice was jumping with joy.

I looked past Bella into the window were I saw the back of Esme's head. She was looking at the same dress that was just in the fantasy. I smiled wide and pulled Bella into the store. Alice followed along and became even happier when she noticed Esme was in the store.

"What are you doing here, Esme?" I asked her before either of the girls could say anything.

Esme spun around quickly and held a hand to her chest. "My goodness you scared me." She said as her unnecessary breathing returned to normal. 'What in the world are they doing here?' She said in her head before speaking again. "I didn't think you would be in the area and I was just looking around. I am sure that Rosalie will be wanting a wedding again soon and I thought I would try to get a head start in the looking department. 'And it would never hurt to look for Bella. After all they are engaged now. Not that they have told us when that wedding will be. I know how she is and likes to have at least a dozen dresses to chose from. I also thought I would check out this store before we left the area. You never know. There could have been a hidden jewel here. 'Lord knows it wouldn't be the only hidden jewel that we found here.'" She said as her eye drifted back to the dress she was just envisioning on Bella.

It really had not escaped my attention that she was babbling all of this like Alice does with her new dress catalogs. I was sure she was hiding something but I couldn't figure out what or why. And her thoughts weren't giving anything away either so I let the feeling go and turned to Alice. "Didn't we still need to get your prom dress?" I asked her.

"Yes, but, while we are here why not have some fun." She then pulled Bella from my grasp and took her to the back of the store.

I stared after them and was only pulled out of my musings of indignation when Esme spoke again. "How long have you been around here?" She asked already knowing the answer.

"Long enough to see a very beautiful newborn Bella in the gown that is still in your hands." I said. I saw no point in lying and Esme deserved nothing but the truth.

"You thought so, too?" She said with a sly smile on her face.

"She would look exquisite in a paper bag - but that dress was stunning on her - In your vision that is."

"So maybe we should have her try it on and see if I was even close. We can always have it tailored later. Not that you have set a date yet or are even looking yet but you still never know. Things always figure themselves out in their own time. Especially where you and Bella are concerned." 'Wouldn't you say?' She said with a smile.

"I am actually quite amazed that Alice even let me in this store. Isn't there supposed to be some kind of omen or something that says that I can't see the dress before she hit's the aisle?" I asked with a chuckle.

"I will take care of Alice lets just go see how close I was." Esme said as she took my arm with her free hand and pulled me towards the girls.

Bella was standing by the wall, trying to make herself invisible - and failing miserably, while Alice looked through an assortment of two piece dresses. Her thoughts showed that she was not really into this kind of wedding dress but she was trying for something different with Bella. I walked up to Bella and wrapped my arms around her. She smiled up at me and fell into my embrace. I hugged her for a moment then I bent down to whisper in her ear. Hoping that Alice was too preoccupied with still choosing dresses to pay attention to us.

"Will you come with me please?" She looked up at me and nodded.

I took her hand and led her to the dressing room where Esme was already waiting for us. She looked at Bella then held out the dress to her without a word. Bella looked up at me quizzically and I smiled down at her reassuringly. She smiled and walked to Esme grabbing her hand instead of the dress. I smiled as two of the most important women in my life walked behind the curtain and I went to sit and wait for them.

They were in the room for a while without saying a word. The only sounds coming from behind the curtain was the sound of cloth running over skin. I tried not to dwell on those sounds. They would only get me into trouble at the current moment. I was pulled out of my thoughts of Esme's vision of Bella in the dress when I heard her gasp and could smell the salty sweetness of Bella's tears. I got up and went to the curtain. I was frozen. Did I just go in and see what was wrong? Do I ask her and hope she will tell me the truth. Not that she would lie, per se, but she often edits too much in a hope of sparing my feelings. I so do not deserve this woman.

I had finally resolved that I would just ask her when Esme spoke to me softly in her thoughts. 'Just give her a minute, Edward. She is just a little overwhelmed.' I could hear the smile even in her thoughts. I slowly backed up and waited for the curtain to be pulled back to reveal my beautiful Bella.

When the curtain finally did move Esme was the one I saw. She walked up to me with a loving smile on her face as she placed her hand over my eyes. I went to move and she grabbed my upper arm tightly.

"Let's do this at least a little right." She said as she steered me away from the fitting room. When she took her hand away I looked at her in wonder. Why would she ask me if I wanted to see Bella in the dress if she wasn't going to let me. Just as I was going to say as much I was frozen in place by Bella coming around the corner very slowly. I knew there was a huge smile on my face as I watched her move so carefully. If I knew her at all I knew that she would be doing this for a couple of reasons.

First, she would not want to trip on the long dress and fall. Second, she would not want to risk ripping or ruining the dress as it was sure to be expensive. Third, only knowing Bella, I was sure she didn't want to get my opinion of the dress before she was confident in her stance and appearance. Which was rather fine with me at the moment as I couldn't speak now if I tried. She looked absolutely heavenly.

She finally made it to the small step up platform that was surrounded by mirrors so that you could see the dress from all angles. When she was satisfied that it was laying against her flesh as best she could get it she looked me in the eyes through the mirror. I smiled widely as I slowly walked to her.

"You look like the angel I have always known you to be." I said to her as I picked up her hand and kissed it.

She blushed a deep shade of red and smiled wide. It only made me love her even more. I couldn't say how long we just stood there and stared into each other's eyes. We were unfortunately rudely ripped apart by Alice's screech of excitement as she finally noticed the rest of us.

"Oh. My. God! You look absolutely amazing in that dress. You have got to get it." She said excitedly before she even noticed that I was standing right next to Bella. "Edward!" She screeched again. "How dare you look upon the bride in her dress."

"Alice," I said as Esme tried to shush her. "We haven't even talked about when we will be having a wedding. You know that. Why would she get a dress for something that may not even be happening for months or years. Would you calm down please. We were just playing around."

"Edward is right." Esme said to Alice who she now had wrapped in her arms. "I asked Bella to try it on because I wanted to see if it was a nice style for her. It was just something to do. And now we know for whenever we need the information." She winked at me and I smiled back.

"But Esme," Alice said as she pouted. Esme quickly placed a hand over her mouth. It often amazed me how easy it was for Alice and Esme to fall into the typical mother/daughter role. She looked at her sternly to make sure that she was getting her point across.

"Alice, you have got to calm down. There is plenty of time. Edward and Bella do not even have a wedding date yet. Let them have their fun."

"Okay." Alice said. 'But this will not be forgotten Edward. I will remember how you tried to get around me and when We finally do go wedding dress shopping you will have no idea until it is too late. Take the time now to admire her. Because you will never see her like that again until she is walking down the aisle.'

I smiled widely at her. I really did not care what she thought she was pulling over on me. Because I would always have this lovely vision burned in my memory to fall back on. So she could make all the threats she wanted. I leaned down to Bella and kissed her a little deeper than normal before pulling back to let her breathe. She was flush when I pulled back but she had a large smile on her face.

'Stop teasing the poor girl.' Esme scolded me.

I smiled as I wrapped my arms around Bella. "You look absolutely beautiful. But I think that you should change so that we can finish our shopping. Didn't you remember a last minute gift you wanted to get."

"Yes, thank you Edward. I will be just a moment. Esme would you please come and help me?"

"Of course, dear. It would be my pleasure." Esme said as she helped Bella down from the small platform. I smiled at her as she left.

Alice then made her way to me as I watched them go back into the fitting room.

"So, Edward, if you were to chose a date right now when would it be?" She asked me conspiratorially.

"Whenever Bella felt the she was ready for it. I have gotten what I want out of it she has agreed to bind herself to me in God's eyes."

"God's eyes, huh. I thought you didn't believe in God. Why the sudden change of heart?"

"Because there is only one way that I could get such a perfect angel, and that is if a higher power sent her to me."

"I am glad that you finally realize that you were always meant for each other. It sure has taken a lot to get that through your thick skull."

"That is what Bella says, too." I said with a chuckle. "In all seriousness though, Alice, I am just beyond thrilled that things worked out. It all could have turned out so much worse. As I told Bella in Volterra. I will never criticize Romeo again as I found myself following in his exact foot steps."

"But it doesn't really matter now. For Bella will be one of us soon enough and you will never have to worry about a breakable Bella again. Then we can have some real fun. Just think Edward…" She finished her thought in her head. But it wasn't a thought or a conversation she tried to continue. It was a full blown fantasy that I was more than happy that she allowed me to share with her.

'Bella was smiling as she ran through the forest. Her gorgeous mahogany hair trailing behind her. She kept spinning around and running backwards as she would reach for me. I was just steps behind her. I would reach for her and she would turn back around and go faster yet. I was laughing just as much as she was. I put on an extra burst of speed and grabbed her around the waist. We went tumbling through the forest, both of us still laughing merrily. She then looked me in the eyes, and just as we were about to kiss the fantasy went away.

'Like that did you?' Alice asked with her tinkling laugh running through my head. I couldn't help but to groan as she cut it off at the best part. 'You know that this is exactly what you have been waiting for. So stop being a push over now and make a decision. "And answer the question." She said as she smiled at me again.

I smiled back at her as I answered the first thing that came to mind. "You know that I would love to have the wedding as soon as possible, Alice. But …" I was cut off as Alice started to interrupt me.

"There are no buts Edward. I asked when you wanted the wedding. I did not ask when you thought it would be "proper" to have said wedding. I now have all the information I need from you."

I was just about to reply to that when Bella and Esme came back out with the dress over Esme's arm. I walked up to Bella and kissed her cheek as she wrapper her arms around me. She then let go and turned to Esme.

"Thank you so much, Esme. We will see you tomorrow when we get home." She then gave Esme a hug.

"It was completely my pleasure, Bella. And I cannot wait until we are wedding shopping for you for real. Not that you need to rush that. You have plenty of time, my dear." Esme then gave her another hug and we all went to leave.

'I will see you all when you get home, Edward. Take care and be safe please.' Esme said as we parted ways at the door to the store.

"Aren't I always?" I said to her too low for Bella to hear. I heard Esme's chuckle as she kept walking towards her car.

"Now, on to get my dress." Alice said as she led the way down the sidewalk.


It was quite fun to watch Alice actually shop for herself. It was definitely a different experience. She would flit back and forth from the changing room like if she didn't know already what would actually fit her and look good on her. Not that everything didn't look amazing on her. But you know Alice.

After about an hour in the little boutique I decided I had had enough of watching her. Not to mention that Edward and I had something we still needed to accomplish. So I told Alice that we would see her back at the hotel later.

"What are you talking about?" She said as she came out of the changing room in a bra and boy shorts. I had to hide my giggle as Edward quickly turned around so as not to see his sister in her underwear.

"I am sorry, Alice." I said apologetically. "But Edward and I have something that we need to get done. I would tell you but… I rather like having the few secrets that I am able to hold on to."

"Bella, you will pay for this and I am sure that I will see what ever it is you are blowing me off for. I will know. I always know. Don't think that you are able to get around me. You are not that clever. Edward can't even get around me."

"So you know." Edward said sarcastically as he rolled his eyes at Alice. "You are being very dramatic, Alice." He said as she glared at him. "We have a few things we would like to do, just the two of us. We will see you back at the hotel." He then cut off as he looked at her. I could tell by the look on his face that she was saying something to him. "Fine then, we will see you back at home tomorrow afternoon." He said exasperatedly.

"See you later Bella." Alice said as she went back into the dressing room.

We then left the boutique and went back to the mall. "Okay, so how do we find the perfect Mother's Day gift for Esme without Alice finding out?" I asked as Edward held the door open for me.

"Do you have any ideas on what you would like to get her?" Edward asked me as we walked past the first few clothing stores.

"Not really. I know that I don't want to get her clothing. I can't afford to get her jewelry. And I don't know enough about her garden to get her something for that. I am sure anything I came up with for that she would already have. Not to mention the fact that I want to make sure that the present represents me and Esme. But we really have not spent too much time together for me to really know her."

"You definitely have a starting point though. At least you are able to shorten the list by knowing what you do not want it to be. We just have to come up with same things you do want to get her." Edward said with a smile. He then pulled me closer to hm as he whispered in my ear. "And you should really know by now that money is no object. What is mine is yours after all as you are my fiancé?."

"But I am not your wife yet, Edward. I do not want to spend your money on Esme's gift. I want to spend my money on it."

"Bella, money is money. Who cares from who's wallet it comes from if the end result is the same."

He had me there, and he knew it. Damn quick thinking vampire. I hated it when he was able to get me like that. I decided to just ignore the question and go back to trying to find the perfect gift for Esme. Edward was not stupid though. I saw out of the corner of my eye when his crooked grin crossed his face, as he knew he had me.

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It took quite some time, but we were finally able to come up with the perfect present for Esme. I was sure that she would love it as it had met all of my given criteria. We had finally made it back to the hotel and I was more than happy for that fact. I was so tired that I told Edward that I wanted to take a nap before we went to go and get me some dinner.

We put down the bags from my dress and the present on the writing table on the corner of the room and I went to change so that I was more comfortable while I took my nap. Once I was ready to get into bed I opened the door and let Edward know that I was ready to lay down. He came into the room to lay with me while he hummed my lullaby.

It didn't really take me long to fall asleep, as I said I was tired from all the mall walking I had done for most of the day. I was not surprised when I woke up and saw out the window that it was quite dark outside. Not that that really meant anything in this part of the country. But I was surprised that I was alone in the room. I took a moment to see if I could locate Edward in the main room.

I then got up and walked to the door. It was still slightly a jar and I could see Edward pacing back and forth and pinching the bridge of his nose. That was never a good thing. His eyes were closed and he was talking in low whispers. But I could hear him now that I was closer to the open door.

He stopped pacing and started to run his hands through his disheveled hair. As I looked up at it I could see that he had done that quite a few times already. He must have been on the phone for a while and not liking what he was hearing. I hoped that it wasn't anything too terrible. I also hoped that what ever it was it could just wait just a few weeks more. Then I would be a vampire too and I could help with whatever problems the family now faced.

I was then brought to the thought that maybe it was because of me anyway. If it was than I owed it to the family to help take care of it. I was the one that turned everything upside down on them. I was the one that pursued them until I found out every little thing I could about them. I am the one that drove Edward away with my clumsy, human, danger-magnet abilities.

Edward then said something that got my attention back onto him and his current conversation.

"Are you sure this time. The visions haven't really been all that informational before… Yes, Alice… I know, Alice… I just need to be sure. You know that I would do absolutely anything to make sure that Bella is safe. Why couldn't they just wait a little longer. There is no reason for them to send someone already. We haven't even been gone that long."

He was quiet then for a little while longer. He then sighed heavily as he agreed with Alice yet again.

"I really did not want to have to deal with any of this until she was changed. I will not let this change anything though. Everything it already set. We have made our decisions and I will not let this force her hand to make any crucial changes. Bella will get this last few weeks." He listened to Alice for a few more minutes then he said his good byes and hung up.

He then spun around too quickly for me. I was hoping that he would bee too distracted and that I would at least be able to get back to the bed. But maybe this would be better. I am sure that he would not be happy that I was eaves dropping on his conversation. But I would use this to get my information. I knew all this time that those visions were something terrible to come.

Edward's eyes widened as he saw that I was standing in the doorway of the bedroom. He had obviously been completely focused on that phone call. Especially if he had not heard my heart when it started to beat a path into my throat. I looked him straight in the eyes as he opened his mouth to speak. But nothing came out.

I decided that I would be the one to break the silence. I took a step into the main room and sat down on the chair facing where Edward was still standing, frozen in place, yet not taking his eyes off of me.

"Edward, I think that it is time that you tell me about these visions that Alice has been having. I think it is time that the truth was said." I said as calmly as I could.

He looked at me for a moment longer. As if he was stuck in a trance. Then he closed his eyes and shook his head slightly. It isn't like that would really work for him. It isn't like that vampire mind of his could lose or misplace something. He wasn't shaking his thoughts loose, he was just trying to buy himself time. I would give it to him after all I wanted my answers and I was now going to get them. I think he could see in my eyes that I was not going to be put off any longer.

However, when he next opened his mouth he did not say the words I wanted to hear.

"Bella, it is late and we should go and get you some dinner."

I was speechless. I couldn't believe that he was actually going to disregard my question just like that. That he was going to act as if I hadn't just heard that conversation. Granted, he may have had no idea as to how much of it I had heard, but I would remedy that.

"Edward, I will go with you because I am getting hungry. However, we will talk about this when we get back because you cannot keep shutting me out. Is this how it is always going to be? Are you always going to keep secrets from me when you think that I am unable to handle the information? Because you should know by now that I can take a lot more than I look like I can."

Edward never once moved as I then got up and walked into the bathroom. I was sure that he was still trying to come up with a way to stop me from finding out this information. I kept running through the part of the conversation that I had overheard. From what I could get out of that information, the visions were not very clear.

Yet, what did that really mean when you took into account that Alice had been getting these visions for about a month now; so there had to be something that they could piece together to tell me. You could also tell by what and how he was saying that he was afraid about the timeframe. Therefore, whatever was about to go down was probably going to be happening in the next week or two. That meant that graduation was now, possibly, an impossibility.

I finished up in the bathroom and walked back out to the main room. Edward was now sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. I walked up to him and ran my hands thru his hair. He looked up at me and placed his hands on my hips. I could still see that total sadness and longing in his eyes. We just looked into each other's eyes for a moment. I really did feel bad for the fact that I was going to have to push him on this. But he had to learn now that I am never going to be the week link again. That situation with James is never going to happen again.

"Do you know what you want to eat for dinner, Bella?" He asked me as he continued to just stare into my eyes.

"No, we can just walk down the street and see what we can find."

"Okay." He answered back as he got up from the couch and took my hand in his.

We took that elevator down to the lobby then crossed it slowly to the front doors. It did not go unnoticed when all the women in the lobby looked past me and to the stunning man that walked with his hand firmly placed in mine. It also did not escape me that for the first time in a while he looked as if there was something truly wrong. I knew that this was all eating him up inside and that was really the only reason why I was willing to allow him this extra time.

In the back of my mind I knew that he had had plenty of time to bring this up. I had already brought it up a couple times myself even as recently as a few hours ago. Each time he lied to me to get me to drop the whole thing. But this would not be like those times because I was now going to assert myself to show that I would not be stopped from getting my information. Even if I had to call Alice myself I would know what was after me this time.

We ended up walking around until we found a little bistro that I ordered a Roast Beef and Swiss sandwich with a bag of chips and a juice. I knew that if I had bought a soda it would help me to stay awake for when we got back to the room. But I wasn't feeling tired and I didn't want the extra caffeine in my system to make me overreact even more.

I was already trying very hard to keep in mind that Edward was only doing this to protect me. But hasn't he learned yet to not leave me out of decisions that have to do with my future. I have to be involved. He cannot make all the decisions for me. I was not going to be his child, after all, I was going to be his wife. He needed to start breaking that habit of trying to make all my choices for me since he found me unqualified to make the right ones.

And now my mind was running rampant on me. I knew the truth, deep down I knew that he loved me more than anything he had ever loved. That was a very blinding aspect for him. He had never had anything like this before so he didn't know how to cope with changes like this. Not that there was really a hand book or something to help with problems like this, but if there was, I am sure that the Cullens would have it.

When we got back to the hotel I realized that we were both still lost in our own little worlds. We hadn't really talked, other than when he would ask what I wanted to eat and where, and he still had that far off look in his eyes. Edward was most definitely running on autopilot at the moment.

I felt bad, but I obviously was going to have to push him about this or risk never knowing what is going on in time. He had said that he was not going to let what was happening change the decisions that we had finally made. Did that mean that what ever was coming was going to come before my change? Was it coming before graduation? I needed then answers now.

"Edward, please. I know how you feel about all this I really do and I am not trying to push you to cause you more pain and anguish. I just really need to know. I need it to at least look as if I am in charge of my own fate. You should really know that about me by now. So, please, just tell me what Alice has been seeing."

Edward was quite for a long time. He had walked right past the couch that I was now sitting on and went to stare out the window. With the minimal lights we had on - just a lamp by the couch I was sitting on - I could see his reflection in the glass of the window. Even from my position across the room I could see that hurt and sadness in his eyes. After a long while he finally turned around and spoke to me.

"Bella, you know that I love you. You know that I would do absolutely anything for you. You also know that I absolutely hate when I find something that I cannot give you. I am sorry but I cannot give you what you want here. I can't tell you what you want to hear."

I was about to protest before he put a hand up. When I stopped my words Edward ran a hand through his hair and then shot across the room to sit next to me. He ran his hands thru my hair, across my face, and down my arms. He stopped when his fingers laced with mine. He looked deep into my eyes and I really could see clearly to his beautiful soul. He was hurting so much with his - so thought - inability to protect me. But I had to show him that that was not the case.

He had always been my protection. Even back when he wanted to kill me and take my blood for himself. He still had that voice in the back of his head that told him that he couldn't do it because he had to keep me safe. He had always been and would always be my shield against all that would come to damage me. He started to speak again and I listened intently. Hoping that he would finally cave and just tell me what was out there this time.

"Bella, I want to tell you, at least, a piece of me does. I believe that I have known you long enough to know what you have been thinking. I hope you realize that I honestly have not done this because I find you undeserving of the information. I know that you need it. I know that you are very inquisitive and you like to have all of your basis covered."

"But there is just not enough information at the moment and I cannot take the chance … I am just not sure about what is coming. Yes, we have information but not enough. I promise that I will tell you when it becomes clearer."

"Edward, I know that you know that I overheard your conversation with Alice earlier today. I know that you have enough information to tell me something. You know that if you continue to keep me in the dark my mind is just going to keep running away with all of the terrible things I see in my mind. For such a bad actress I seem to have a very good imagination. So I will tell you this only once because it is getting late and I am actually more tired than I originally thought I was."

"I am going to go to bed, however, in the morning you are going to tell me what you know. And if you cannot do that then we will go home and the family will tell me. But you should know by now that they do not feel the same way you do about these types of things."

"What do you mean Bella?" He asked me with a wide eyed and worried expression.

"I simply mean that they will tell me simply because they feel it involves me so I should know. They have never had to treat me the way you do. Not to say that they do not love me because I am sure that they do. But they do not protect my feelings the way you do. They know that I am strong and, even if I should freak out initially, I will get past the shock and I will be able to help come up with something to get us past this."

I paused for a moment before I added matter-of-factly. "That is the only goal Edward, Always has been, to move forward with you. That is all there will ever be for me."

"Bella," Edward said softly as he placed his forehead to mine. "I so do not deserve you, but I love you more than life and I am so grateful that you feel the same for me."

"I truly do Edward. Now I think that it is time to go to bed. Because, no matter how you choose for me to be told, because I will let it be your decision, we still have to get home in time to put Esme's gift together."

"She will really love that gift Bella. You truly are a wonderful woman and I love you now and forever." He said again as he picked me up and took me to the bedroom. He pulled the covers back and lay us both down in the bed before pulling the blankets back over us.

I lay awake for longer than I thought I would once I was finally laying with Edward again. Only being able to fall asleep once Edward started to hum my lullaby.