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Chapter thirty-six:

Unfold me, I am small and needy

Edward's POV

I sat in the couch. Wondering what the fuck just happened.

I mean, she forgave me right? I mean the sex was fucking amazing but something told me this was just revenge or something. I groaned and pulled my hair and decided I should just leave, go somewhere give her some time. I was used, there's no other explanation for it.

Instead of leaving I sat there, looking at the wall. "why are you looking at the wall?" I turned to face Bella. She was leaning against the wall, her hair nicely brushed and wet. "just thinking" I said a little too coldly "you know, about how my fiancé just fucking used me to make me feel more shitty" I placed my hands in my hair and pulled on it a little "I mean" I shook my head "forget it" I stood up and walked passed her and up the stairs. Maybe a nice shower will make me relax.

Bella's POV

He simply walked passed me and said nothing.

I guess I deserved it. but still. I mean I did what I had to do, even if it did hurt him more or made him feel shittier. I heard a phone ringing and I walked around searching for it. it stopped ringing when I found it. "Kimberly? Who the fuck is that" I mumbled to myself. "Bella, have you seen my phone and my freaking shampoo?" I turned around to see edward in his towel, looking aggravated and annoyed "um your shampoo is under the sink on the left side" he nodded and was about to turn around when I decided to speak

"Who's Kimberly?!" he froze. He turned around and watched me curiously "Kimberly? Oh! She works with me, why?" I shrugged "yeah, am I suppose to believe this? That she works with you?" he groaned "Bella" he said "for the last fucking time. she fucking works with me, the only person I used for fucking release was Jennifer. That's it" I laughed dryly "yeah! Cause my cheating fiancé is so honest with me! how can I believe you!?" I yelled. "you know what. I'm fucking leaving!" he turned around and stormed out into the bathroom slamming the door loudly.

"fine! Fucking leave I don't fucking care!" I yelled. I walked into the kitchen and started making me some coffee. I paced around wondering why this shit was fucking happening. Why I became something I never wanted to be. I took out a cup and walked over to the fridge to grab the milk and warm it up as well. Once it was warm and done I poured it onto my cup and added a little bit of sugar and sat down on the kitchen table.

I sighed and pulled on my hair. I wasn't sure what I was doing anymore. different emotions were taking over and I sure as hell didn't want to become sick again. I heard footsteps walking down the stairs and there was edward.

With two luggage's in his hands.

He isn't leaving…is he? I mean we just had a small fight that's all…I didn't mean any of it I kept telling myself. "I'll see you when you learn to trust me again" he said as he looked over to me, his eyes were red and puffy, full of sadness and regret. "Edward, really" I sat up and walked over to him "we just had a fight that's all. Please" I pleaded "don't leave me" he sighed and dropped his things, he turned over to me and leaned into kiss me. I kissed him back but this was different. It was as if he was saying goodbye to me, I can feel it. then I felt his tears, I knew this was goodbye.

But for how long?

"I'm sorry" he whispered "I can't do this. If we have to start over for you to believe me" he took in a deep breath before he continued "if we have to start over then I will." I looked down at his ring finger to find it empty "the ring?" I whispered. He sighed again and kissed me on my forehead "I'll put it back on when things get back to normal. You" he said, his voice cracking a little "don't have to wear it…anymore. not until this goes back to normal" he kissed me again and I still felt that feeling that he was telling me he loved me but this was goodbye.

He pulled away and grabbed his things. And walked out the door. It was dark out now, and I didn't even realize it. he walked over to his car and popped open the trunk and placed in his things. He walked back into the house and brought more things out. "this isn't really goodbye is it?" I asked pleading with him as tears filled my eyes. "tell me you'll come back!" he ignored me for a while as he got his things together. my knees gave out and I fell to the floor, tears falling down my face.

Edward leaned forward into his car. His shoulders shaking a little "Edward! you can't leave me!" I yelled as the sobs and tears came freely "Please" I pleaded "I need you.." I whispered. I could see Alice's car coming and I knew this was going to be a hard night for me. instantly edward was in front of me, taking my face in his hands and kissing me deeply. I tangled my hands in his hair as we continued to kiss. Both our tears mixing in together. "I love you" he whispered as he kissed me again "So much" I held back my sobs as I planted kisses all over his face "I love you too" I said "so much, please" I pleaded as I held onto his tightly "don't leave me" he held me tighter not wanting to let go as I let the sobs escape. Alice was holding a sleeping jari as she and jasper stared at us. "I'll be back. I just…need some alone time to get my act together" there was pure honestly in his voice which made it hurt even more. "I promise" he said as he pulled away to look at me

His eyes red and puffy but full of love. "I will come back" he kissed both my cheeks "I just need for us to start over that's all. Regain the trust we once had. We still have the love but without trust their cant be a relationship" I nodded as he kissed my forehead.

I hated that he was right

"I'll miss you" I said "Every moment, every second you are gone. I'll miss you" he closed his eyes and sighed, letting two single tears fall. I wiped them away and kissed him before he stood up and walked to his car. He stopped in his tracks and walked over to alice, taking jari in his arms. he rocked her side to side as he whispered something to her. I could hear his sobs as he kissed her forehead and handed her back to alice. he walked away and got into his car, pulling away from the drive way.

I watched as he drove off. The tears falling quickly down my face.

He was leaving me. and now, as I stare at the empty road I knew one thing….

He was gone….