damn. :| i really, really feel so bad for remus in this chapter.

AND YES! i'm back! :D hello, people. sorry for the long wait. :( anyway, i might be updating TWOACH tomorrow. :) i've had so much on my plate these days! No. 1: GLEE (not the show, but really Glee); No. 2: VOICE LESSONS; No. 3: DANCE LESSONS.

Anybody else into the arts? ;;)

soooo. reviews are very much appreciated. i won't elaborate much on this chapter because i'm feeling lazy. :P If you have any questions, though... just post me a review and i'll answer it in the next chappie! :D

oh, and for CaraGrace: yes, they do get married. originally, they don't, of course. she dies (The Dark Side of The Moon!). :( but since this is an alternative ending, i'm making it happy, and i'm actually defying the real story of HP, unlike what i did in TDSOTM, which was to REALLY follow the HP plot. ;) hope that helps!

plus, i am really very sorry for not updating in about... FOREVER. :| but, hey! heeeeeere's chapter 17! :D


17. SCREAM

Jolie stood in front of the door of Dumbledore's office, time turner in her hand. She was already back in her own time, and she didn't rush. She just stood there, pondering at the last thing she heard Remus say. Well, the older Remus, for that matter.

She's my wife.

She didn't know whether to be insanely shocked that she and Remus actually did go that far, or to be incredibly joyous that she really does marry the man the loves. Nonetheless, she felt both. After all, love is simple—but complicated at the same time.

Tucking the time turner in her shirt, she looked at the big clock on the arch of the wall. It was around four in the afternoon, and she started walking back to the Gryffindor common room.

"Have you guys seen Jolie?" Remus asked his friends, obviously anxious. He was holding a small velvet box in his hand.

Lily smiled a bit. "She's just around. I'm sure she'll be here any moment. You don't have to worry."

James stared at Remus and he couldn't help in chuckle inwardly. It really was a funny sight to see Remus deep in thought, turning a velvet box in his hand, pacing in the common room, and occasionally looking at the window, or sitting down on a chair. But it wasn't only that that made him laugh. He was actually really happy for his friend and sister.

"Quit sniggering, Prongs," Remus leaned on an armchair. "You're making me feel worse."

"Oh, cool down, Moony," Sirius yawned as he stretched freely on the couch.

"What if she says no?" Remus frowned.

"Does she have any reason to say no?" Sirius raised an eyebrow, teasing. "She can't say no to you, Moony."

Lily twitched uncomfortably in her seat. She and James glanced at each other. Unfortunately, Remus caught their actions. He frowned. "What's going on?" he asked.

"What do you mean?" Lily asked in a slightly higher, unnatural voice.

"It's like you're both hiding something."

James popped a Pumpkin Pasty in his mouth, shook his head and shrugged. "No," he spoke while chewing.

"You are," Remus' eyes narrowed. "James, you always do that when you have a secret."

"Do what?" James asked defensively.

"Eating while people grill you with questions," Remus pocketed the velvet box. "What's going on?"

"Nothing, Moony," Lily rolled her eyes, "Jeez."

Remus sighed, very much upset. But James and Lily's secrecy wasn't the only thing that made him feel this way. There were three other things that bugged him as well. First, there was the fact that it was already late afternoon, and he still hasn't proposed to Jolie. Second, he hadn't seen Jolie almost the entire afternoon. He didn't know how to ask her, and it made things worse for him. And third, Jolie had been acting different these days. Very different.

"I just…" Remus stretched like Sirius, "I just hope she says yes."

There was a moment of silence before they heard a small creak from the door. They turned their heads towards the direction of the sound and saw Jolie entering the common room.

"Jo!" They all greeted her in unison. She smiled at them.

Sirius looked at his wrist. He wasn't wearing a watch. "Oh, look at the time. I better get going," then he faked a yawn. "I'm beat."

James beat around the bush as well. "I'm gonna go with Sirius. I'm pretty tired, too. I mean with all the Quidditch practice and all…" he trailed off.

Jolie snorted. "You don't have Quidditch training till next week."

"We like to keep in shape!" James defended, showing off his muscles on his arms.

"Whatever," Jolie closed the door. "Lily?"

"I'll just… go," Lily giggled.

In a snap, Sirius, James and Lily were all gone. "What in the world…?" Jolie put her hands on her hips. She and Remus were alone. He hadn't spoken.

Instead, he stood up from his chair, pulled Jolie towards him and kissed her quickly. "I haven't seen you the whole day," he complained.

"It's my birthday," Jolie answered, "I wanted to do something for myself."

"Well, as long as it made you happy."

Jolie lowered her eyes momentarily then smiled. She remembered again. "It did. Yeah, it made me happy. Real happy."

Still holding Jolie's hand Remus put one hand in his pocket. There was a moment of silence before he spoke. "Are you happy being with me?" Remus asked, a little out of place.

"What kind of question is that?" Jolie linked her arm to his, "Of course I am. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. I love you, thank you for being a part of my life."

Remus looked at her. He clutched the velvet box in his pocket, but he didn't take it out. He took a deep breath. "I love you, too, Jolie Daniels Potter. So, so much. You have no idea." Remus held her hands.

There was a moment of silence. He could see Jolie's expression. She was wide-eyed, breathing deeply, but not saying anything. It could have been a look of anticipation, or fear, or shock. Whichever it was, it made Remus more nervous.

"Will you marry me?"

Jolie's expression didn't change.

There was silence. Cold, hard silence.

"Jo," Remus frowned, "say something…"

Jolie took her hands from his, and she clutched at his clothes. She clutched at them so hard, she could have ripped them off.

Remus still stood there, confused.

Jolie looked down at the floor. Instinctively, Remus did too, and suddenly, he saw why Jolie could not even speak.

She was standing in a pool of her own blood, which was trailing down from underneath her skirt to the floor.

Jolie broke down into tears hysterically.

"Jo?" Remus frowned and looked at her. "What's going on?" his tone was dripping with urgency.

She didn't answer. She let go of Remus' clothes, but wrapped her hands around her stomach and she slowly let herself down on the floor. Her skirt was drenched in blood.

Lily came out of the dormitory and rushed down to the common room. "Jo!" she screeched.

Jolie looked at Lily with a painful look as Lily's face was etched with shock. "Oh my God!"

James and Sirius seemed to have heard Lily—suddenly, they too turned up in the common room.

"James!" Jolie finally spoke, but she did so with difficulty.

James and Lily looked shocked, but they seemed to know what was going on. Remus and Sirius, however, did not.

Remus had no idea what was happening exactly, but he knew this wasn't something good. He picked Jolie up from the floor and carried her, rushing to the Hospital Wing.

Lily went with them.

James followed, but he was stopped by Sirius. "What's going on?" Sirius asked in a threatening voice.

The best friends stared at each other, James did not want to reveal Jolie's secret, but at the same time, he didn't see any reason to keep it. James pushed his glasses up his nose and bit his lip. He shook his head. Then he started going to the Hospital Wing, Sirius behind him.

"Mr. Black, Mr. Lupin and Mr. Potter, I'm going to have to ask you to leave," Madam Pomfrey told them urgently.

"I'm not going anywhere!" Remus protested. Jolie sat on a bed, panting in pain. Lily was beside her, hissing nervously in her ear.

Madam Pomfrey shut the doors of the Hospital Wing closed.

Remus turned to face James. "You know something," he gritted his teeth. "WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER?" He shouted.

James grabbed fistfuls of his hairs. "I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER!" He shouted back. James honestly didn't know.

Suddenly, a scream came from inside the Hospital Wing. James, Sirius and Remus jerked in shock. But suddenly, Sirius knew something. He recognized that scream.

"Jolie's pregnant, isn't she?" Sirius hissed. James didn't answer.

There was another scream.

"Oh my God…" Remus sat on the floor, losing strength, and he put a hand on his forehead. Then, suddenly, it all made sense to him. Everything made sense. He remembered that night… and it was only one time, just once.

Sirius faced the door. "There's something wrong with the baby," he muttered. "She shouldn't be bleeding—"

"I'll never be able to forgive myself," Remus muttered through gritted teeth.

A third scream came from inside, and now, Remus was finally lost for words.


okay. now, i really feel bad for dear Remus. :/ btw, it's a stillborn. oops, did i spoil it for you? =))