28Author note: This is my first fan fiction so please be nice. I love NCIS.
Disclaimer: I do NOT own NCIS.(If I did Tony and Ziva would be together by now.)
Ziva's P.O.V.
It's about 4:00 am and I really don't even know why I'm here. The elevator doors open and I step out onto the floor where the squad room is. This is truly the only place I have ever felt at home. NCIS. I love is here but I do not know if I truly deserve to be here after what has happened in the past few months. Here I feel as though I am loved and cared about here, not like in Israel, my childhood home, where I felt like cold, hard killer. No, this place is different maybe because of Gibbs being the father I never had, or Abby and McGee being like the brother and sister I lost or Jenny being like a mother figure to me, Ducky being like a grandfather that you can always turn to and then there's Tony. I do not believe that I will ever admit this out loud but I'm in loveand it's making me weak. I hate being weak. That is the one thing Mossad drills into you the most. Weakness equals Death. So being in love has made me weaker than I have ever been before. Weaker than I was in Somalia. And the fact that I am in love with Anthony DiNozzo makes me not only weak, but insane. Number 1: Because I know he will never return my feelings. Number 2; because even if he did return my feelings, he is still a gamer, or is it player. He is never with one person for too long. And Number 3: I am not sure that I am worthy of having him. I have been at my desk thinking about this for the past few months but not until this morning have I been able to except the fact that I'm in love.
Then a voice comes from behind me. "Really Zee-vah, do tell who your in love with." I knew that voice all to well. It was the voice that was in my dreams, and his voice was in my worst nightmares. But in those he was always saving me. I have never needed saving before. But that was before him.
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