35My first Morganvill Fan fiction.
Disclaimer: I dont own Moragnville or the characters. All rights go to . Song to Kelly Clarkson. And I Do NOT own Youtube.
Beautiful Disaster
(Claire's P.O.V.)
"Uh" I said rolling over in bed. Lately I've been having trouble sleeping. Maybe it was because Eve and Michael were out of town. Yeah that's probably it. Wait, but why would I have trouble sleeping when I know I have Shane here. That's probably because your boyfriend has been acting really weird around you lately. Damn me for contradicting and talking to myself. I looked at my clock and groaned as I saw that it read 3:00 am. I'm never getting back to sleep now so I might as well listen to the radio. I reached over and turned on the radio to some random station. "Here's the new hit from Kelly Clarkson: Beautiful Disaster." The announcer said in a very perky voice considering the this sound somewhat interesting. I snuggled back into bed as I listened to the song and thought about the lyrics as they played.
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme, I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
If I tried to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right, it just ain't right
[Chorus]
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster
His magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight, hold on tight
[Chorus]
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy, hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of a miracle
Waiting so long
So long
He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end, he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
[Chorus]
Oh 'cause I don't know
Don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
Oh oh...beautiful
Oh oh...beautiful disaster
Tears started to form in my eyes. This reminded me so much of Shane and me. How I thought that I would risk everything to get him out of that cage. Or how he had risked everything getting me out of trouble so many times before. This song reminded me of how much I loved him. Just then I heard fast footsteps coming down the hallway. I sat up in time to hear Shane knocking at my door. Okay maybe it was more like pounding at my door, but still. I sat up, reaching over to turn on the light and then went to unlock the door. When I opened the door I saw Shane standing in front of me with no shirt and a pair of long pants on. He, of course, could be mistaken for a model.
"Sorry if I woke you but, are you okay?" He asked his voice full of concern and love.
"You didn't wake me Shane, and I'm fine, why?" I asked wondering why he was up at three in the morning.
"I though I heard something. Why are you up at three o'clock in the morning? Don't you have school tomorrow?" He asked, his face had confusion written on it.
"No, I don't have school tomorrow; it's the beginning of Christmas break. I get a month off." I said wanting so badly to ask him to stay the night but knowing I shouldn't.
"That's awesome. Now I get to spend more time with my Jail Bait." He said smiling.
"Yup. Hey Shane do you wanna spend the night." I asked in a steady yet ready for disappointment voice.
"Yeah, all you had to do was ask." He said as I opened the door more and moved out of the way to let him in.
He looked at what I was wearing for the first time tonight. I was wearing one of the shirts he had discarded in my room a few days ago over my bra and boyshorts.
"Jail bait, you stole one of my shirts." I put on an innocent look and opened my mouth to protest but he cut me off.
"I think it looks better on you that way." He said with a mischievous smile.
We walked over to the bed where we both sat down. He automatically pulled me onto his lap. I laid my head on his chest and snuggled into him, loving the warmth of his body.
He put a hand under my chin so I had to look up at him. He had a frown on his face as his index fingers traced one of the tear streaks that had made a path down my cheek.
"Why were you crying?" He asked in a sincere but gentle voice.
When I didn't answer he automatically jumped to the worst conclusions.
"Claire, are you okay? Did somebody hurt you? Just tell me Claire and I'll ..." I cut him off before he could say more.
"Shane, I'm perfectly fine. No one hurt me. I way just cry at this beautiful song that I heard on the radio that sort of reminded me of us. There. End of story." I said moving off his lap to get my laptop so I could pull up Youtube, to show him the song.
"Oh. Sorry Jail Bait. I just got worried. You know how much I don't like seeing you cry. Wait, what are you doing?" He asked
I could feel his eyes watching my every move. I typed in the song and as I waited I turned to him.
"Shane why have you been acting so... distant lately and don't try and deny it you really have been?" I asked wanting to get it out in the open but at the same time was holding my breath for his answer.
"Claire, I know I have been and I'm sorry but I was worried that any day now you could change your mind and dump me. I would understand if you wanted to because I'm defiantly not good enough for you and I know it." He stated not meeting my eyes.
He was still sitting on the edge of the bed while I was in the middle. While the computer loaded I crawled over to him and kneeled next to him. I put on of my hand on his cheek turning it so he would look at me.
"Shane, I'm not going to dump you, I love you. Enfaces on the love part. And you are good enough for me no matter what anyone else says. I'm your and I don't want that to change." I said looking deep into his eyes.
"I love you and I'm your, Claire always have been always will be." He said as he leaned in and kissed me. The kiss was warm and damp. It made me tingle all the way down to my toes. I was now sitting on his lap again, with my arms around his neck and my fingers in his hair. He had one hand cupping my face and the other on the inside of my shirt, at the small of my back. When we finally broke apart he rested his forehead against mine, as we tried to catch our breath.
"So maybe before things get a little too out of hand, we listen to that song, Jail Bait." He said moving over so he way sitting on my bed, leaning against the headboard with his legs laying straight out.
I lied down next to him. He put the computer on his lap so we could both see the lyrics as they appeared on the screen.
When the song was over I had almost fallen into a dream like state but before I fell asleep I could hear him whisper.
"Sweet dreams, Jail bait. I love you."
We might not be perfect but we are a Beautiful Disaster.
Beautiful Disaster, Nah it's much more than that.
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