14Here's the newest chapter it was honestly a hard chapter for me to write, to take such emotion and heart was in ways a little too much for me. So I hope that you all really think about this one and i want to hear what you all think.
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The next week things had taken a turn for the worse. Edward, Sr. fell ill and was taken to the hospital. Doctors said it was Spanish Influenza; that it was killing so many people in the world and then the restrictions of having groups of people together, staying in doors and taking caution… March came and he worsened with illness. Soon after Elizabeth had fallen ill and I felt sure that Edward would lose his parents to this cruel illness…
It was sometime after twilight when I had gone to my room to prepare for dinner. I heard a crash in the study and rushed downstairs to find Edward on the floor passed out. I began to panic, yelling and calling for Dr. Stewart immediately. His father had passed away and his mother was barely hanging onto life.
How could the fates be so cruel to destroy everything I had cared for, my love Edward lying in this awful bed hanging onto dear life. Every day and night I lay upon his bedside, never moving an inch staying close to him. I did not care if I got sick, I would die with Edward no matter what… I told him every night those same words…
"You listen to me Edward Anthony Masen; you are not going to die on me… I cannot live on without you… We're supposed to wed in only a month and here you lie fighting for your life. Oh dear Lord please save my Edward… I would die without him and swear I ask for nothing more."
Every time the words I said to him crossed my mind, I would feel the tears begin to well in my eyes but I would remain strong for Edward… The next few days had not looked well, Elizabeth was fading away quickly and I said my final goodbyes to her… It was near 5pm when Charlie had come to Edward's room begging me to clean up and sleep for a little bit and return around twilight…
Eventually I listened to him but kept feeling uneasy and knew something was wrong. I rushed towards Edward's room… Walking ever so vigorously in a panic… Than something had happened to me, I felt a sharp pain rip through my heart and I screamed in agony, over and over again…
Yelling his name and the tears flowing from my face, hysterically crying the pain growing worse… I could feel myself dying and thus everything had turned to darkness…
I had awakened sometime later on in the evening as darkness was all around. I could faintly hear arguing outside my door…
"What in God's name do you mean she's dying Nathaniel? She's perfectly healthy."
"Charles, I have nothing to say… We have done every test known to see what's wrong but they all say she's dying."
"How is this even possible Nathaniel? She was fine hours ago, how could she have known he's dead?"
Nathaniel looked to Charles and he could see the distress, a pleading father… He sighed and simply responded as he could.
"Charles there are things in this world that can not be explained, the bond between your daughter and Edward, it's something that only the fates control, their souls are as one… His death affects her in ways that science can not even fathom. How these two souls are simply meant to exist together, without one the other has no will to live on…
"Nathaniel, I'm begging you please save my Isabella from this." I could hear the sadness and desperation in my father's voice. So it was true… My Edward had died and now I shall do the same. I could not bare to live on anymore, so I await death to take me from this world…
Nathaniel let out another deepened breath " I wish I could Charles, but this is beyond the realm of what medicine can do for your daughter, this matters of love not medicine" and with that he returned to the his work.
Charles could not bare to see his daughter leave this world, she was all that he had left…. "God I beg of thee, please spare my daughter this hurt, let her be."
Time seemed to fade in and out. I had heard someone coming towards my door, opening it slowly and peeking at me was a man I would later come to know as Dr. Cullen. He was beautiful like my Edward but with pale blond hair and his eyes… they were the color of butterscotch.
He came closer to my bedside…For some reason he looked pained in a way, like he had done something terrible… He gently took my hand into his and spoke in a low tone.
"Dearest Isabella, I'm Dr. Cullen. I treated you beloved Edward and he would not want you to give up without a must not give up on life itself. You're young and your heart will heal from the loss; it will take some time but life will become easier."
I could not listen to his words, without Edward I had no reason to live and I could feel the tears falling from my face. My breathing had become slower and jagged.
" Dr. Cullen I know you mean well, but life for me is over. Without Edward there is no living life…The one person I care for is dead and I'm still here. You have no clue how much my heart aches, my soul-mate is gone… Death seems pretty good about right now."
I heard him sigh under his breath, still not looking directly into my eyes and he spoke in a sad tone, "I know it seems like a good thing to do, but you have to fight Isabella for your father and your loved ones. Does that mean anything to you?"
I began to cry harder and I could hardly get the words out. "No, please stop trying to convince me to live life… You don't understand… My Edward is dead and I'll be damned if I have to suffer this pain everyday of my life. You have absolutely no clue to as what love is, do you Dr. Cullen?"
Finally Dr. Cullen looked into my eyes and answered, "Yes… I do know the feeling of love but dying for it is not the answer. Think of the lives you could help and people who need you."
"I'm sorry Dr. Cullen… This is my choice to die. I could feel Edward when he died, it was sharp agonizing pain in my heart and I knew then…" my voice trailing off. I reached to my wedding charm and pulled it off, and I placed it in Dr. Cullen's hand, his facial expressions went from shocked to sadness. Before the darkness took over I said these words, "Take this charm, and promise to give it to the one you love!" I fell into the darkness…
Here I lie in this bed not knowing how many hours have passed since I had lost consciousness; I can only hear what's being said around me… I don't know if Charlie is still here in the hospital inevitably waiting for my death but I know he can't bear to lose his only daughter…
It's my sacrifice to die, without love life is meaningless… I only wait for my death, hoping it shall set me free to find him once more… Still lying in this bed waiting for it to happen, I could hear someone in my room… The voice was velvety and musical at the same time. I had been sure it was Dr. Cullen as there was something familiar about it. And like that…it was gone. I could no longer breathe… I heard my heart slowing and I gasped one more breath before dying and whispered, "Edward."