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Rose POV

I sat on Sisley's couch watching cartoons with Luca, I was in shock, I had just lost Christian. I called Adrian balling and of course he came running. He brought 4 Guardians to help pack my stuff. Adrian was at the Guardian field office settling the logistics to swap me and Anthony now instead of later.

There's no reason to stay here he hates me, he told me to leave, ugh! I was running so many thoughtz through my head. Yeva told me to follow my heart and I did. I love Christian and needed to be with him. But the only way to do that as a Guardian is to guard someone else. Maybe I already got my one shot at love and that is it for me. I loved the most amazing man and he loved me back. That's more than some people get their whole lives. Maybe Dimitri was it for me and I needed to just realize this.

I need to stop moping I had my shot. I am a Guardian who should never put love before anything else. I followed my heart. I went after the guy I thought I could actually love after Dimitri and it didn't work out. Also in my heart is being a Guardian, its part of my being, part of my soul. I need to stop all this relationship nonsense and just be happy with the status quo, I was alive and living my dream.

Not sure if he could hear or feel me, but I sent my loving thoughts to my fallen Russian God. I love you Dimitri, I will be strong for you and when it's my time I will join you. I wonder if he could really hear me. What was I thinking being with a Moroi anyways? Ugh I wonder if I could get a lobotomy, then I wouldn't have to have these miserable thoughts running through my head.

Sisley sat on the couch next to me and hands me a pint of mocha fudge ice cream. "Here this always helps me." She smiled at me. I wonder why I like this ice cream I hate coffee, but mocha fudge was my favorite, weird.

Luca always helpful tries to cheer me up. "Rose Christian is my best friend do you want me to talk to him so he's not mad no more?" He looks at me with concern all over his cute little Adrian face.

"Thanks Luca, but don't worry it'll be OK." I hug him, I was going to miss him and Sisley so much.

"Sisley what am I going to do without you two?" I fought back stinging tears.

"Rose come on you are my best friend you can't get rid of me. As soon as Tatiana goes off to her Royal cow pasture to die I'll come see you at Court. Adrian promised he'd fly me anytime I wanted to come see you. Rose he cares for you so much he'll do anything for you. We all love you Rose, we are all here for you." She hugged me.

"Thanks Sisley, I love you guys too, I'm going to miss you, but come soon OK?" She nodded I think she had tears in her throat like me and had a hard time speaking, she nodded instead.

Anthony and Adrian both came home at the same time. "Rose the Guardians are taking your stuff to the airport to load the plan, we need to go. I'll report with the Ozera's tomorrow morning and it will be official, Bruno's covering for today so I can spend the rest of the day with Sisley and Luca." I nod feeling a little nauseous, but from stress and finality of the situation, not Strigois. 12 hours ago my life was on track, now not so much, my head was spinning.

"Come on my love we need to go. Don't worry Tasha and her family are meeting us at the airport to say goodbye." He pulled me into a hug and whispered in my ear. "I'm here for you Rose, it's OK you can lean on me." The irony of this situation is that Christian said that me about Adrian, talk about doing a 180.

We loaded into the car, the drive was silent and arduous. I held the present Christian gave me last night with a note for him. I was not sure if he was coming with Tasha and everyone to say goodbye, but either way he was getting this back if not in person then I'll have one of them return it to him.

Flashback to last night

In-between one of our hot sex sessions we were resting in each others arms and Christian got up to get something. It was in an ornate box that looked very old. He got back in bed and grabbed my hands. "Remember when you said I could give you something." Uh oh here we go with his ridiculous gifts.

He hands me the box. "This was my Mom's she always said I was to give this the women I love and that's you." He has a sweet smile on his face remembering her words; it was nice to see him talk about some nice memories of his parents.

I open the box, it's a beautiful necklace, earrings, and bracelet set it was diamonds and sapphires. He picked up the necklace and put it on me. I had taken off Adrian's Nazar wanting nothing that reminded me of him anywhere near my amazing night with Pyro. It was a beautiful the necklace, it had a large square diamond and two smaller sapphires on either side; it was like Christian's two eyes looking right at me. I am guessing that is why his Dad gave it to his Mom; he had the same eyes as Tasha and Christian. The earrings and bracelet were not the exact pattern, but it all coordinated elegantly

"Christian it's so beautiful, but do you remember when I said 'as long as it's not too ridiculous' I'll accept the gift? Well this is too much and it was your Mom's, I am appreciative, but I can not take it." I gave him apologetic eyes making sure I did not hurt his feelings.

"Rose I insist I want you to have this. Please Rose for me, please take it and promise me you'll wear it, please." He gave me those damn eyes. I couldn't resist him.

"OK on one condition if we aren't together you let me return it, it's the only way I could accept it." I tried to look forceful, but since I was lying naked with him I don't know if I pulled it off. Hopefully it won't be an issue and we'll always be together, but if I learned anything from life you don't count on anything or anyone.

"OK" He was fine with this; I can only hope it was because his hope was as mine, that we will always be together from now on.

I put it all back in the box so it wouldn't interfere with our fun. When we got dressed later that night (or I should say morning) I put it in my room.

End Flashback

I told Anthony not to pack Christian's gift so I could give it back to him or Tasha. We pull into the airport parking lot and I see the big family SUV. I had butterflies, I wanted to see him, but I was not sure if I could handle it right now. I was so torn. But he didn't come.

We all got out of the cars and walked over by the plane. Everyone was there even Boxer, well everyone, but Pyro. Part of me hoped he would come, hug me and tell me it was going to be alright. By him not coming this is his way of telling me he doesn't want to see me. I walk over to Tasha first and hand her the box, she understood immediately and nods, I was thankful I didn't have to explain, I didn't think I could get out the words.

I hated goodbyes; I made it quick since we were all tear shrieked. Boxer and Talia were the worst I held in my sobs the best I could, but some escaped. I think Adrian felt my uneasiness and put his hand on the small of my back as if to coax me to the plane. I looked at him and nod. I tell Talia I'll see her soon when she starts school. As I am walking up the plane steps I turn and wave to them. My throat is burning and is so tight; I am fighting so many tears that want release.

I turn my back to a chapter of my life I will never forget. I follow Adrian to the plane and the stewardess thankfully shuts the door, I didn't think I could take much more.

Adrian pulls me back behind a curtain to one of the private couches and holds me while I cry. I don't dare look at my former family through the windows, the plane takes off and it's over. I take a deep breath, settle into Adrian's arms and fall asleep. I found myself on our beach in a hammock, he held me the whole time. Not speaking, but rubbing little reassuring circles to calm me. It was sweet and innocent and just what I needed. As good as it felt it was the wrong pair of arms holding me.

Christian POV

The Guardian's finished packing all of Rose's stuff and took it out to a car. Tasha came in my room. She had an apologetic look on her face. "Christian I know you probably don't want to talk, but you know I am here for you if you need anything."

I nod to her; I don't really have any words in me.

"We are all going to the airport to say goodbye to Rose, are you coming?" This caught me off guard.

"She's leaving now?" Tasha just nods. I guess I shouldn't be shocked I am the idiot that told her to leave. She has to hate me. I can't see her, I can't take seeing her leave with him and I know she's mad. I just can't do it. I need to preserve the memories of last night, anymore bad ones like this morning will tarnish the good thoughts I have of her.

"No" I look at Tasha with somber eyes. I can tell she wants to say so much, but she bites her tongue and just nods in understanding.

I hear the family leave, I am lying on my bed listening the songs that played last night. I was holding my Mom's wedding ring, it matched the set I gave Rose last night. This ring was for her as well, but our relationship never got far enough to give it to her. No matter what happens this ring will be Rose's, I can never give it to another woman. Maybe if I have a son he will have better luck with it. Maybe his love life won't be so screwed up and he can give it to the women he loves and it will work out, unlike Rose and me. Ugh why am I thinking all this random shit.

I sat and sulked running everything through my head, holding onto her ring. I loved her, I had to stop her, I'll beg her, catch the plane on fire, whatever it takes, I have to swallow my pride and convince her stay. I grab my keys and run to my car. I drive like a bad at out of hell to the airport praying I don't get pulled over. I pull up to my family's car just as they all got in. Tasha got out and came over.

She saw the ring box on the seat, looked at me and gave me a sad look. "She's gone, her plane just left." She pointed to the air.

"How was she?" Tasha just gave me a knowing look; we communicated like this a lot, without words. By her look I knew Rose was not good. Tasha handed me the gift I gave Rose last night, "She wanted me to give this to you." She gives me a sympathetic look and walks back to the car.

I open up the box and I see a note.

Christian,

I can't keep this it was your Mom's. I never meant to disrespect them. I am sorry, but I did what I felt was the best solution for both of us, so we could be together.

I will never forget my time as your Guardian.

Love,

Rose

It was very formal and very final. She was gone and this note proved it was over for her. I sat in my car watching the planes come and go thinking about how I got here. My phone brought me out of my resolve. It was Tasha, she was worried, I told her I was on my way home.

Rose POV

I was exhausted and slept the whole flight in Adrian's arms. I knew it was not the best idea, but I needed some comfort. We went to his apartment it was a nice, but only one bedroom. My room would not be ready until tomorrow. Adrian said he'd sleep on the couch.

"Adrian I trust you, just sleep in the bed with me. We are both so tired we couldn't do anything even if we wanted to." He shrugged, got washed up, striped down to his boxers and got in bed.

I went in the bathroom I looked horrible. I took a very hot shower I had to relax my aching body. Stress can make you so sore which is weird, the way I felt it's like I worked out for hours. Adrian was already asleep I crawled in bed as far away from him as possible. For over a month I slept every night with Christian and I missed his warm arms holding me. I fell asleep and was pulled right away to our beach, our hammock, in Adrian's arms. Once again we didn't talk he just held me knowing I needed time and comfort.

I woke up early and went for a run around Court, missing my doggy very much. I saw Eddie jogging and he practically tackled me when he saw me. "Lissa told me, but I wasn't sure until I saw you. Rose I am so happy you are here." He pulled me into a bone crushing hug. At least Eddie thought I made the right decision. I told him I'd see him later at Lissa's and we agreed to work out together each morning.

I found Adrian up making me breakfast. We ate and then he took me over to my guest room. It was down the hall from his, he explained after the wedding in less than a month we would all move into the Queen's mansion. Lissa was working on my room and was going to surprise me just like I asked. All my stuff was in my room. Adrian helped me unpack the basics, there was no point fully unpacking since I would be moving in less than a month.

Mia came by to help and brought us lunch. I felt very welcome, but this was not my home yet so it still felt weird. Mia was seeing Rocco and I was thrilled for her. He comes to Court at least once a month with his charge so they will see each other quite often. Adrian liked this news, but kept his comments to himself. He always saw Rocco as competition and his competition was dropping fast. I know he hoped I would be with him and have our little Dhamps.

I noticed Adrian didn't drink or smoke at all since I'd seen him. He said it was because I was here and he didn't need as many vices with me around. Well at least I was going to be able to save his liver and lungs and hopefully his life from Strigoi.

Mia and I headed to Lissa's apartment; Adrian excused himself saying he had some business to attend to. Amazing he doesn't even want to be around her.

As we are walking in I see a very hot Dhampir leaving. "Ambrose is that you?"

"Yes hi Rose you remember?" He had a big smile, he was gorgeous.

"You're leaving?" I was curious as to what was going on.

"Yes I was just giving the princess a pregnancy massage." Hmmmm I wonder if he was massaging anything else. So looks like 'Queen Bitch' isn't just handing down her thrown, but also her lover to Lissa. Amazing.

"Oh good, I am sure carrying twins can be a lot and she needs to relax" He nods looking very innocent, I am sure being discreet is one of his specialties.

We say our goodbyes. He winks and tells me to come by for a massage on the house sometime. Yeah right I just had amazing sex with my sexy fire man; I'll be good for awhile. Thinking about him makes my throat thick with tears, my eyes are stinging, I push them back. I shake those thoughts away and call out for Lissa.

She starts squealing in a glass breaking pitch. "OMG Rose you're here. I am so excited." She hugs me very tight and I can feel a much bigger baby bump.

I can't help it, I put my hand on her stomach. She puts her hand lovingly over mine. "Keep you hand here you can fell them. Sure enough two little tiny feet kicked me." She smiled and I saw some of the old Lissa in her eyes, I got tears in my eyes. We were having a moment for the first time in a long time. This is why I am here.

Lissa was still medicated, but I could tell me coming was helping her already. I was here just one day and her and Adrian were already so much better. This is my life, I am a Dhampir, they come first. I had to remember this, what my purpose was and what I was here to do.

We had dinner, Adrian joined us, he was on his way to getting drunk. "What happened you were fine?"

"You left" He winked at me and poured himself another drink. Jeez what was I going to do with him?

Lissa went on and on about the house, the décor, the twins, etc. I was more interested in Moroi fighting with offensive magic, but not my fight and not my problem. I would just smile, nod and agree, making my self look very interested in what she had to say. I did find out that Lissa was having two girls, but they were not settled on names. She was going to name all their kids with names that started with an A, after Andre. Which I thought was a nice tribute. Thinking of him made me sad. If he were alive he could have protected Lissa and I would have been her Guardian and this whole mess would not have happened. Sigh

I settled into my routine at Court, spending lots of time with Lissa, Mia, Adrian, and Eddie. Everyone was better, Mia's improvement I was not taking credit for, I had to give that one Rocco.

I was excited to go back to St. Vlad's. Adrian and I were the only ones going. I was staying one night and getting Talia settled in. Adrian was setting up the Court Field office since part of our deal was that we would be going there often.

The night before we left for St. Vlad's my nightmares returned, I missed my own personal dream catcher.

Maybe he would be with his sister at the academy. Even if he doesn't want me anymore at least I'll get to see him and say a proper goodbye.

This was a tough chapter to write, sorry if it was hard to read. I think I should have two more chapters and then an epilogue, then I am done with this story. Reviews are always appreciated : )