Chapter 3

"Hey!" Alys said, excited when I arrived at her house.

I nodded to her, being uncharacteristically quiet.

"What's wrong? What happened?" She asked, moving me into the house.

She steered me into the living room and onto one of the couches. I sat on it silently, not moving. I could feel her worried stare. After around a minute I sighed and faced her.

"My place… Is now completely trashed… She did it… I don't know how… Can I stay her for a… little bit?" I told her slowly, replaying the image in my head.

"You know you can stay here all you want. No one cares if you live here or not… actually I think they'd like it! I would! Then we could actually be sisters! You know, mostly." Alys told me grinning.

I looked at her for a second before laughing. She looked clueless about what had happened.

"You looked so… so… oh man! I can't even think of a word!" I told her, trying to balance my laughter.

"Well. Now that I finally got you talking, care to tell me what happened?" She asked me, calming my mood instantly.

"Well… I was going to my house, dancing on the way there… when I got there… well… the door was completely off it's hinges. I walk inside, cautious of everything. My living room is almost ripped apart… There is red paint on the wall. It says 'stay away from my sons or you're next'. I move towards my room, hoping that they didn't do anything to it. I walk inside. Nothing's been touched. I pack my few precious possessions and my clothes. I move out of the room then walk out of the house. I don't look back. There is no reason to.

"I walk to Alyse's house. Thought's cram into my mind. Things are moving through my head too fast. I know who trashed it though… It is Her. My, so called, mother. Yuzuha Hitachiin."

I didn't know that I was still talking. I never knew when I stopped. All I can remember is being lost in my memory. At some moment, the memory disappeared. At some time there was peacefulness that can only be achieved in actual sleep. At some point, I stopped responding. In a moment, I stopped breathing. When that happened, I stopped trying. When that happened, I almost died.


I woke in a hospital bed. An IV was attached to my wrist. There was a breathing tube shoved in my throat. I didn't realize where I was at first. I struggled to move. I struggled to get the tubes and wires off of me. I wanted to get out of the room. Out of the blinding whiteness.

Someone flew into the room, calling for others. I felt my arms, legs, and anything else they could grab, being held down. I heard my voice screaming as I thrashed. Why wouldn't they let me go? Couldn't they tell I didn't want to be here? Not in a hospital. I'd almost died the last time.

They messed up. I had stopped living. Stopped breathing. The monitor flat toned and I was stuck in a comatose like state. I didn't want it to happen again. I couldn't just wait for it to happen again.

I moved with more purpose now. I managed to rip myself out of their holds and get the tubes and wires out of me. I moved up against the headboards scratching peoples hands if they got to close.

"Let me IN!" Someone screamed almost right outside the door.

"We're having trouble with her right now. You may not see her." A calmer voice said.

"No shit, Sherlock! If you'd of let me in earlier, then you'd never be having that problem!" Alys' voice yelled, just outside of the door.

I stood on all fours and moved off the bed, jumping gracefully to the floor. I passed through the arms and legs trying to catch me without letting them touch me. I opened the door quickly and bounded out, pushing down the doctor in front of my door.

"N-Nitrea?" Alys asked softly.

She was scared. I could smell it on her. A tear escaped my eye before I ran out of the hospital, salty water falling down my cheeks. I heard her gasp at the one she saw as I ran.

I was still on four legs, moving quickly away. I ran to the forest where no one would see me, and stopped a few yards in. I laid down on the icy ground by a large Momiji tree (1). Quite sobs escaped my lips as clouds blocked the moon and stars over head.

The winter months always brought on snow. This winter was no different as the soft white flakes fell from the sky. They landed on me as I shivered, curling my body into a ball, trying to keep warm.

It didn't help, and I didn't move as exhaustion took over my body. I surrendered to my dreams, knowing full and well that the next day was only Wednesday.


I woke with snow covering most of my body, still by the Momiji. I sighed and stood, only now realizing that I was still in the clothes that I wore to school yesterday. I smiled and began to walk to school, my inner clock telling me that it was 5 in the morning.

I was not stupid, and knew how I looked. I could tell people were watching me, trying to judge whether or not I was someone going to rob them. I rolled my eyes and kept walking through the thick white snow that littered the ground. I wore no shoes on my feet, but I didn't care. I couldn't feel the cold, I was numb to it. It's not like someone like me was able to get frostbite.

I felt around in my pocket for a moment before pulling my MP3 out. I put the headphones in my ears and turned the music up louder than I ever had before. I saw and heard no one. No one was near me and I couldn't feel their eyes on me. At least that's what I wanted to believe.

The first song started up, painting my world a multitude of colors. I hummed along as peace flooded through me, making me feel happy, though the song was the opposite.

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide, beyond believing
To know why hope dies
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown

And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we called home
Passing the graves of the unknown

As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
And the reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
Love gone for so long

This day's ending is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all I hold

And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life less words
Carry on

But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over

There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer

And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life less words
Carry on

But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning

Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains

And this war's not over
There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer all
Yes his love will conquer all

Yesterday I died, tomorrows bleeding
Fall into your sunlight

The song faded out leaving my senses abruptly. Knowledge flooded back as I saw I was almost at school. I could see it now that the music wasn't blocking my senses. Everyone who was already there stared at me. I couldn't see them, or hear them. The next song was playing through my ears, reverberating through my body. I just walked into the school barefoot, mindlessly walking to class.


1: a Momiji tree is a Japanese Maple tree. Native to Japan.

I am sooo sorry that I didn't have this out sooner. I know when I said I would have it out but truthfully I forgot that I even had a story on here until some one reviewed it. Another thing is that I didn't have any ideas for a song until just now.

Ritsuka: Yeah. She didn't. She got the song from a video that Winrii did called '[Loveless] Shattered'

Soubi: She wishes she owned the song, but sadly she doesn't. Its called Shattered by Trading Yesterday

Ritsuka: She also doesn't own us or any of the Ouran characters. Her characters are hers though.

I really love the song and if Winrii is reading this then you should know that your videos are soo amazing and that I like 'the Destiny Islands Show'! It amuses me very much! :D

If there's anything that confuses you in the story, leave a review or PM me and I'll either change it or explain it.

Please review and I might update faster! *hinthint nudgenudge winkwink*