My First FF. Eh, I don't think I'm very good but whatever. This is one I wrote in spare time before exams and its over 40 pages long. Uploading it in "chapters" though because I'm too lazy to type it all out at once. Lol ^ -.

~ Belle

"Sakura, help me!" Naruto yelled. "I'm all out of chakra!"

I was helpless, staring at the limp body swung over the shoulder of one of Orochimaru's men. It was the one I loved, whose hugs warmed my body and kind words warmed my heart.

I was fixated.

Complying with my teammate's request, I leapt off the huge tree branch I had been standing on, and dove with all my strength at the man holding the body. I was tackled from above, a fist striking my back and sending me rocketing down, nearly a hundred feet, to the hard forest floor below.

"SAKURA!" Naruto yelled again. I lifted my head to look at him.

"G-g-go…" I said quietly. He looked at me from his hiding place, mouthed "I'll save you," and disappeared in a cloud of smoke.

I felt breath in my hair. My eyes closed.

"Haruno Sakura." Orochimaru purred, the breathing stopped and I felt a foot drive into my side.

My piercing scream echoed through the forest; I felt my consciousness slipping.

"Take her." Orochimaru said over his shoulder to another man, who slung me up roughly into his arms. "Another great team falls!" He said more loudly, as if willing a challenger to approach. "No one can save you now." I drifted, and then it all went black.

I came to slowly, coming around to my surroundings at a sluggish rate. They must have drugged me so they could save my life. I couldn't have survived that fall.

The back of my head was pressed to the space between someone's shoulder blades. I noticed some of my hair in my eyes; I looked down and saw my arms bound to someone else's. I was sitting down, and my legs were stretched out in front of me. I tried to force my chakra into the ropes in hopes they would loosen and I could escape, but it was no use.

"Pointless…" a voice drawled. "Chakra shields."

Of course. I stared into my lap.

"Where are the others?"

"Gone…" my voice cracked on the single syllable.

"Good. At least we have some hope then."

"Yeah…" I sighed.

*****
2 Days Later…

I hadn't spoken in two days. I hadn't moved in two days. And most importantly, he hadn't spoken to me in two days.

We hadn't eaten, but we were alive, excess chakra, reduced stamina.

It was dark on the night of the second day.

I was beyond tired. I couldn't get much rest while I was being detained in a sitting position. He shifted and I moaned quietly in pain as my ribs protested.

"… sorry."

I blushed. "No, it's okay… sorry for making noise."

Another moment later, a small curl of smoke appeared at my feet. Orochimaru appeared within it. He laughed quietly.

"I have a proposition for you two…"

"What is it?" My fellow captive asked, suspicious.

Touching his foot to mine we all blurred, and soon we were in a room that was dimly lit, and although I couldn't make out the identity of those seated along the north wall, I could make out the image of several people. Orochimaru pulled us to a standing position, us remaining back to back, held together by our bonds. A katana was pressed to my back; I could feel the blade pointed upwards to the ropes. Orochimaru twisted it menacingly.

"One of you lives, and goes free," "he hissed, "so long as the other dies!"

The katana's smooth side slid quickly up my back, slicing all bonds and I felt my arm being grabbed and I was swung around.

"Haruno Sakura…"

I regained my balance quickly.

"…and Hatake Kakashi."

I met his eyes and shook my head vigorously. He narrowed his one visible eye and I saw Orochimaru's face over Kakashi's shoulder, his eyes narrowed into slits and he smiled evilly.

"Begin."

"Sakura…" he began.

"No." My fists were clenched and my body was shaking.

He blurred from my line of sight and disappeared. I stayed where I was and waited.

The blur came in front of me then, a two-fisted dose of chakra came straight to my face, I felt the burn immediately as I fell, sliding with high speed across the concrete floor, my head slamming into the cement wall, stopping the movement. My eyes closed.

"Fight back." A voice as cold as ice said quietly.

I lifted my head and looked at Kakashi. He had his headband raised and I could see his Sharingan eye. He had the strangest expression on his face. There was some emotion in his face I couldn't read, but before I could identify it, it was gone.

I slowly got to my feet and took a few steps forward. I breathed out slowly and brokenly; I was in pain.

I raised my head to look at him.

"You didn't even try."

"… No, I didn't." I said quietly.

"Fight back." He repeated.

"I can't." I whispered.

"Why not?" he growled. "Have you no desire to be free?"

"No," I whispered again. "I want you to be free."

His head dropped a little, he was so longer looking at me. His hair created a shadow on his face.

One syllable. "Why."

"I-" my voice broke, and I felt the water behind my eyes. "I- … I love you."

He was visibly shaking now, and he suddenly clenched his hands into fists. He blurred from my sight and his voice came from close behind me.

"I don't love you."

Hurt, mixed with the pain of rejection, washed over me like a physical pain. I reached for the kunai attached to my thigh. My middle finger went into the loop and the rest of my fingers looped around the middle of it.

I hesitated a second before forcing chakra down to my legs as a single tear sought escape down my right cheek, dripping off my chin and landing on the cement floor. I gripped the kunai with all my strength and yelled, swinging my arm around, kunai aiming for his neck. I felt nothing and opened my eyes; he was several feet away.

I lunged at him, kunai raised, and as soon as the tip of the blade touched his chest, he "poofed" into a cloud of smoke.

A doppelganger.

I spun around; he was facing me.

"Why?" I asked softly. "Why can't you love me?"

He inhaled sharply, looking me straight in the eye.

"I could never love someone like you."

My breathing hitched and broke; another tear fell down my cheek. It did not escape his notice. My kunai, that before had been raised towards him, now fell loose in my hand. I relaxed my stance into a standing position, all the will to fight now gone. I wanted to be far away. The resolve formed in my mind. My heart was breaking, my tears were streaming, and my chest was in physical pain. I gripped the kunai and held it backwards.

"Sakura!" His non-sharingan eye widened as he watched my actions. His sharingan eye spun wildly; I looked down.

I raised the kunai a bit away from me, my substantial strength more useful than momentum.

"Sakura no!" he yelled as he took a step toward me.

I tightened my grip and stabbed backwards, piercing the blade into my stomach and turning it and slicing upwards, creating an almost 3 inch gash. It hurt less than my chest.

I sank to my knees, a small gasp escaping me.

He was kneeling in front of me then, his right hand on my shoulder, his left hand on my knee. I refused to meet his eyes, my bangs falling down to hide my face.

He quickly pried my fingers off the kunai, and yanked it out of me, tossing it several feet away. He pressed my hand to my wound, holding it there with his. Blood almost immediately started seeping through my fingers. He pressed a little harder.

"Hold on Sakura, it's going to be okay." He said in a consoling tone. "Just whatever you do don't—"

"No…" I sobbed brokenly, trying to lift my hand away from my body. "I want this." I was shaking. "You don't want me."

"Sakura…" he looked at me sadly, as if there was something I didn't know.

I started to cry, widening my fingers under his and letting the blood seep through, hoping death would come sooner. I never wanted to see him again.

"Well Kakashi, it looks like you've about won. Finish her."

So it would be Kakashi that killed me. Rejection pain was still strong, and I began to sob brokenly.

Orochimaru took a few steps more. "She's finished. I'm waiting."

I knew I was finished, and I was starting to feel woozy because of the blood loss. Dizziness overtook me and I let off one last choked sob and I closed my eyes.

"Kakashi-kun…" I breathed out my last breath and everything went black. The last sensation I felt was falling forwards.

So that's about it whad'ya think?