58Summary: Set during the time Edward leaves Bella during New Moon, thanks to a few strange dreams and a new friend Bella's life takes an unexpected turn. Fueled by anger she decides to take a path less traveled, only to find danger is slowly creeping up on the horizon. However, with her new best friend at her side and a determination she didn't know she had, she will rise to the occasion. Now if only she knew how to control her anger and keep her sudden changes out of the public eye, she'd be set.
poorasdirt: Hey ppl! This is my first story, oddly enough I can't say I'm a big fan of Twilight. I never really got into the books and have only watched New Moon the Movie straight through so there is going to be a lot of holes in this I'm sure. However, my sister is a big fan and I originally wrote this as something for her. Truthfully I can't stand Bella, I think she's a rather weak character and is way to love sick for my tastes, so in a way this is me making a Bella I personally can stand. Feel free to bash me all you want since my little sis likes this story and it's really for her, I just feel like sharing it. I'm very good at taking insults as compliments anyway so NAH :P
Disclaimer: What's there to say, I don't own Twilight the series obviously (some chick I can never remember does), I also don't own the song It Doesn't Matter Anymore, someone much better at lyrical poetry owns that and I'm grateful they made it. Uh, I suppose the onlything I do own is all the OCs mentioned in this story and perhaps the plot line. Otherwise I give credit to all the other brilliant people out there that have let me use their works in a non-profit source of creative writing.
ENJOY!
Isabella Marie Swan lay on her bed after another day of school and work. Charlie, her father, was at La Push visiting his friend Billy. This left her home alone in the house. She did all her homework already and was trying to figure out what to do to distract her from her thoughts. If she was distracted she wouldn't think of why she was so miserable. The truth of the matter was she had been numb since her eighteenth birthday that September. It was that day on her birthday that her reason for living left and her world came crashing down. The Cullen family had left Forks Washington, and she had no clue as to where they had gone. This was especially disheartening because her love Edward happened to be part of that family. But he didn't just leave like a normal boyfriend, since he was in fact a vampire, when he left he left no trace of him behind. She didn't understand, he was her true love and he left her to this pain and suffering.
Sitting up she pulled the forgotten scrapbook her mother had sent her and began to flip through the book. She saw her scrawl handwriting where her pictures of him had been and something inside her shifted but she couldn't tell exactly what it was. Sighing once more she went down stairs and started to clean. She had nothing better to do and it was all she could think of to keep her mind off of the potential call he might give her. A letter, a call, something to tell her that he still loved her like she loved him; she needed him more than she needed anything in her life before. However, she wasn't going to leave Forks and all the memories she had of the Cullen coven behind, since she still had her father in the town. She was numb all over but she was determined to try to be normal, at least seem it when she was breaking on the inside. She had been numb since her eighteenth birthday and even Christmas hadn't helped, now with New Years coming up just at the end of the week, she didn't know what she'd do. So as she finished cleaning the house she walked up to her room to finally go to sleep.
She found herself standing on a dirt path in the woods. Looking around she could see she was in a clearing surrounded by cliffs and off to her left was the ocean. The path went off into the woods, she couldn't get to the shore from her current location, and she had the need to walk somewhere. Deciding to simply follow the path, she bit back the memory of Edward leading her to the path by her house. So lifting up her chin she started on her way.
There you go and baby, here I am
Well, you left me here to sit and cry
Golly gee, what have you done to me?
But I guess it doesn't matter anymore
She paused at the voice drifting on the wind. It was a female singing but it was faint so she continued on the path hoping to find the singer. As she walked she had noticed that the singing got clearer and louder.
Do you remember baby, last September
How you held me tight, each and every night
Oh, baby, how you drove me crazy
Well, I guess it doesn't matter anymore
She smiled sadly at the words on the wind. She could relate to them so well. She knew she honestly wouldn't be in this state if she wasn't such a klutz. If she hadn't gotten hurt on her birthday, then the Cullens wouldn't have left her.
There, ain't no use in me a-cryin'
'Cause I've done of everything and I'm sick of tryin'
I've thrown away my nights
Wasted all my days over you
She nodded to the words, knowing that was exactly what she was doing but she didn't know what else to do. The day Edward left her whole world came crashing down. She was happy then but now she just felt numb and hollow on the inside. She didn't even know if she wanted to move on or if she should wait longer for Edward.
Now you go your way, baby and I'll go mine
Now and forever till the end of time
And I'll find someone new and baby, we'll say we're through
And you won't matter anymore
She frowned, thinking over the words. In a way, that was exactly what Edward had told her, that she'd never see him ever again. She wondered if he would find someone new. He said that his kind was easily distracted and time can heal all wounds for humans. She heard that before but she wasn't truly convinced since she seen some people wallow for a very long time over something. She was stuck as well, she wouldn't say she was moping but to someone else it might seem that way.
There ain't no use in me a-cryin'
'Cause I've done of everything and now I'm sick of tryin'
I've thrown away my nights
Wasted all my days over you
Now you go your way, baby and I'll go mine
Now and forever till the end of time
And I'll find someone new and baby, we'll say we're through
And you won't matter anymore
And you won't matter anymore
And you won't matter anymore
And you won't matter anymore
That was right; she didn't matter anymore, at least not to Edward Cullen. She couldn't believe he actually did that to her. She had a horrible birthday, not that that was anything different, but he could have been a bit more sympathetic. Had she ever mattered to him? Was she just a fascination he had, just the scent he longed for and the mystery of not being able to read her thoughts? She wanted to be with him forever but was she some novelty that he so easily placed back on the shelf when he was through with her?
Stopping abruptly, as the song started again on the wind, she looked at where she was going for the first time. By now she was well down the path and she could no longer see where she started through the thick underbrush of the forest. Instead of looking back she turned to look at what was ahead of her. She took more assured steps towards the end of the path than she had been taking. For some reason as the song played idly in the background on the wind she felt more and more confident with herself. After what seemed like hours she hit a snag in her walk through the forest.
She knew she was dreaming, but the snag just solidified she was unconscious, since she ended up at a crossroad. The path she was on split into three different paths now. One path veered off towards the right and seemed to swing around heading back to the cliff, the sky above the path was cast in the light of a new moon. The second path led straight ahead, continuing through the forest and seemed to be well groomed and lit with the light of twilight. The third and final path led to the left, this path was less well marked than the other two and ventured through a highly over grown field with grass almost as tall as her shoulders. She couldn't see very well but the field seemed to go back into another part of the forest that seemed different than the forest she was currently in. That forest was a little less friendly, a little less familiar, but appealing all on its own. However the last path and the forest it led to was happily bathed in the rays of the sun.
Stumped she stood there looking between her three choices. She couldn't tell which path she wanted to take, she had to think, had to sit back and watch before making her choice. She had all the time in the world at the moment, she could ponder this a bit before continuing on, rather than making a rash decision right off the bat. So standing there she took in the three paths in great detail.
The first path towards the cliff and the ocean was well trimmed. It was even paved with marble stones; in fact the whole forest seemed to be carved of beautiful white marble. However she noticed there wasn't any life what so ever down the path. No matter how long she stood and watched she couldn't see if there was anything living. She even could see from her vantage point where the path led to the dead end of the cliff. She also noted while the trees were made of marble there were no bushes, there was no grass, and the dirt seemed to be made out of glistening diamond dust that barely seemed to glow in the light of just the stars.
Turning to the second path she looked down it carefully. She could see the trees on this path were healthy and strong, there were bushes along the path that was well taken care of like a hiking trail in the woods. There were a few rocks along the path and she could see where there were a few bumps and dips in the dirt. It wasn't a path she could take without tripping a bit every now and then, from her well known klutziness. However, she couldn't really see any animals, just a few tracks that look like dog tracks but they were too big for it to be a dog. She figured that they were wolf tracks then, zigzagging about the trail but she didn't see a wolf in sight. Otherwise it was a really nice path to take, a bit perilous but the woods seemed very familiar, and she would almost welcome the company of the wolf that seemed to dwell there. At least to her there was life under the twilight sky and she could live with that even if she had to walk in the semidarkness for a while.
The third path however was neither familiar nor really appealing to her at the moment. From what she could see at the beginning of the path it was gravel and even, but she couldn't tell much after that since it went through a field. The field was covered with tall thick grass that would make following the path difficult and hid many pitfalls along the way, she was sure. However, it had its own appeal as well, for beyond the path was a forest that was teeming with life. She could see squirrels, birds, and other animals darting through the branches. Even the field held life, with an occasional rabbit appearing from the grass for a few seconds before darting back in when it spotted her. It was also cast under the clear summer sky that held a few white puffy clouds that were changing shape every now and then, appearing as different things she could recognize. In a way the last path reminded her of the saying "You should always take the road less traveled" but she still felt uncertain about this path as her choice.
Looking at her choices over once more and trying to decide which one she should take, she was suddenly startled by a sharp beeping over the music on the wind.
And cut! Yes I left y'all hanging but never fear there will be another chapter, just as soon as I finish editing it a little. I already have a few chapters writen since like I said it was for my sis who probably is way ahead of everyone in this story. I'm also aware it probably starts out a bit confusing but hopefully you'll understand in a few chapters.
REVIEW! It will tell me more about your thoughts on this thing at the very least.