Choices

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A/N This is sequel to Different Beginnings even though this was written first. It can be read in either order. Although this season post season 3, this is assuming Season 1 and 2 didn't quite follow canon; due to a previous relationship. Enjoy!

Warnings; Sexual situations/sex; mentions miscarriage/the death of a child.

Spoilers: Out of Mind/Into the Fire/CoTG/Stargate The Movie.

Chapter 1

Sam was sat in her car, outside Jack's house. She had spent the last hour debating whether to knock on his door or not. She couldn't get past the thought that she almost lost him against Hathor! That he had almost been taken as a host by the Goa'uld! The hug she received from Jack, after Hathor nearly killed him, told her that he still felt the same way; that he still loved her. Sam climbed out of her car walking up to the porch and knocked on his door.

"Carter" Jack said when he saw his 2IC on his porch.

"Could I talk to you please, Jack?" She asked him. Jack was surprised to hear her calling him Jack, it was the first time in two years, since their first meeting at the SGC.

"Jack?" He questioned. "Come in," Jack said opening the door a little wider so that Sam could come in. "Would you like a beer, Carter?" He asked her. He stuck to Carter just in case she changed her mind.

"Yes please, sir," Sam said. Noticing how uncomfortable Jack looked, she hoped it would give her some Dutch courage. Jack walked into the kitchen, and grabbed two beers out the fridge before coming back and passing one to Carter.

"So Carter...What did you want to talk about?" Jack asked sitting back in his favourite arm chair.

"Sir, I wanted to make sure that you were all right?" She said, chickening out.

"I am fine, Carter, Janet gave me a full bill of health" he told her, but she already knew that. Considering she was by his side throughout most of his post mission medical, he was surprised that Doc Fraiser didn't say anything.

"I know that sir, I just..." Sam started before petering off, and standing up, she couldn't do this. "Sorry to disturb you sir, I shouldn't have come." She said heading towards the door, but before she could reach it, Jack grabbed her arm and pulled her back to him.

"Sam..." Jack said, cupping Sam's chin and lifting her head so she would look him in eyes. They found themselves gazing into each other's eyes and Jack could see exactly what she wanted to say, they never did need words.

"I know... Sam" Jack said gently, pulling Sam into a hug.

"I almost lost you Jack" Sam sobbed gently into his chest.

"But you didn't Sam, I am still here. You can't get rid of me that easily"

"I could have and you would have never known how I feel about you" Sam murmured.

"Sam... You know me better than anyone, still do and trust me I know. I feel the same, when they told me that you had died, my heart broke. You know I am not good with words, but I do love you, I have never stopped Sam!"

"I love you too, Jack" Sam said with her million mega-watt smile. Jack bent his head down and touched her lips with his own. Sam parted her lips allowing Jack to deepen the kiss as her arms snaked around his neck; she clung to him. It was so much more than what either of them remembered, Sam was glad that Jack held her so tightly, because her knees gave way, the kiss was so much more than she remembered and she fely Jack pull away from her, emotionally before he physically pulled away from her.

"I shouldn't have done that" Jack said backing away from her.

"Jack... Please don't," she cried out grabbing on to his shirt.

"Carter... I..." Jack shook his head, remembering the venom in her voice when she told him that she didn't love him anymore.

"Jack... I want this... I want you"

"Sam... I have already hurt you beyond words twice and I can't do it again. I can't risk your career, I don't care about mine but I won't do that to you" Jack told her.

"What about what I want, Jack?" She asked him, not wanting to let him back away from her.

"Sam... Don't." Jack groaned.

"Jack... I want you and that won't change you know, it hasn't after 7 years Jack. You know where I will be if you change your mind" Sam said giving him one last gentle kiss; before stepping away from him; and walking towards the door she closed it behind her. Sam climbed into her Volvo hoping that he would stop her, but he never did.