Hello all. I decided to do a new fanfiction and this one came to me when I was listening to a song so I hope you all enjoy it. The song I am referring to is called Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri. So if you haven't heard it, LISTEN TO IT! Amazing stuff there.
Disclaimer: If I owned Naruto well lets just say it would be a kids show =]
Jar Of Hearts
I didn't believe it. Not when Sakura told me, not when Kiba came running to tell me…not even when Kakashi personally came to my doorstep and told me to my face. I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want this to be real. It just couldn't be real, that's what I kept telling myself. That's what I believed. There was just no way after this long that anything could change. Not at all.
I turned around to see Konohamaru running towards me excitedly. I groaned already knowing what was going to come out of his mouth next. But it wasn't true, so why was Konohamaru even coming to tell me this?
This was a lie.
"What are you talking about?" I questioned him keeping my usual smile on my face.
"He's back. He's at the entrance gate and everything. Come on! He's being questioned by ANBU and everything and they're going to take him to Tsunade! Hurry up before they do!" Konohamaru shouted excitedly grabbing my wrist and running towards the main gate.
I was so close to wrenching my wrist free but to see Konohamaru's happiness just latched onto me, so I had no choice but to be drug through the streets of Konoha to the main gate. I already saw the commotion before we even got there and I only imagined how we were really going to even get close enough to see him.
It seemed as if the entire village came out to come see his return. Hilarious to think that these same people were the ones that gathered around to ridicule me and tease me, and yet they all come to see this rogue ninja come back as if he was rising from the dead. It was ridiculous honestly. I didn't quite understand and I could only imagine how Sasuke felt with all the prying eyes on him.
I was suddenly shoved to the front and I saw the chakra suppressing handcuffs being put on Sasuke as he didn't even struggle with what was being done to him. Our eyes locked for a single moment and he looked at me with no emotion whatsoever. I felt so much rage at that moment that I hadn't felt since the day he left and for some odd reason I was now face to face with him, our noses almost touching.
There was so much I wanted to say tot his man in front of me. I wanted to ask him how he could leave me behind after everything that occurred between us before he left. I wanted to ask him how he could come back smug as if nothing had ever happened between us. I wanted to kick and scream and cry because it just wasn't fair for him to come back when I had just gotten used to him being away.
"Naruto," and then he just had to say it. Softly, almost above a whisper he just had to say my name. In those three syllables I snapped and before I knew what I was doing my hand came up and slapped him straight across the face. There was an angry red mark from where my hand connected with his face and his head was turned to the side, his face impassive as usual. The crowd reacted by not saying anything as I continued to glare at him, seething.
He lifted his head to look at me again, twisting his head around to get his hair out of his eyes. I continued to glare at him as he did this single motion and wanted nothing more than to wipe that stoic look off of his face. I wanted him to feel something…ANYTHING. How could he be feeling nothing when inside I didn't even know what emotion was raging?
The ANBU grabbed his arms and led him through the crowd as he took his eyes away from me and walked with his head forward and held high. A few people looked at me as I stared on at him walking steadily ahead of me. Feeling a tug on my sleeve I looked to the side and saw Konohamaru staring at me wide-eyed.
"Did I miss something?" he questioned me as people continued to stare at me and clear out of the area.
"I…I gotta go," I answered him as I jumped onto the roof of one building and started to make my way towards Hokage Mountain. I knew I would have to suppress my chakra in order to hear the conversation and more than likely Tsunade would be able to feel me…but I had to know what the hell was going on in that meeting.
"Uchiha Sasuke in my office willingly. It must be Christmas," Tsunade stated as the ANBU sat him down in a chair across from her. Sasuke did not say anything to her but merely looked around the now unfamiliar room to him.
"What are you doing back in Konoha? You're a rogue ninja. You can be imprisoned for leaving this nation. There are people in this village that want you dead. Are you okay with that?" she questioned him. Sasuke scoffed locking eyes with the Hokage and smirked.
"You think any of that really scares me? You're talking to a person who trained with Orochimaru for years and successfully killed the bastard, a person who killed his own brother after finding out that the only reason he became an orphan at such a young age was because this very nation ordering the hit. You're talking to a person who really couldn't give a fuck about anything else if they tried. I'm here for one reason…and one reason only," Sasuke said evenly to her.
"May I ask Uchiha, what is that reason,"
There was a thud from the side of the room as I fell from the side and into the window. The ANBU were at it instantly holding me firmly as Tsunade looked over and saw that I was obviously spying on their conversation.
"Speak of the devil. Look at that," Tsunade said bored obviously already knowing that I was there. Sasuke looked at me with his stoic face and I wanted nothing more than to slap him as many times as it took for some emotion to come onto his face.
"Release him," Tsunade told the ANBU, who obeyed her command and let me into her office.
"You…are a…bastard!" I growled out at Sasuke who didn't even raise an eyebrow to me.
"I had a father and was born in wedlock…so I would hope that comment isn't being directed at me," Sasuke answered me evenly. I growled and lunged towards him grabbing his collar in my hands. I knew the ANBU were going to restrain me but Tsunade called them off obviously waiting to see what I was going to do.
"What is your deal?" I asked him angrily. Sasuke continued to look me in the eyes and smirked slightly.
"I want you back,"
"Who the fuck do you think you are?"
"STOP BEING FUCKING SMART WITH ME JACK-ASS!" I shouted directly in his face. He narrowed his eyes then looking away from me in disgust.
"I would hope that you had become civilized and knew how to speak like a normal person by now,"
That was the last straw. The next thing that ended up happening was my fist connected with his jaw, which ended up with him having a bloody lip. The next ended up with his nose broken and that's when I was restrained by the ANBU. Sasuke glared daggers at me as I breathed heavily wanting nothing more than to keep punching his face in.
"You LEAVE and think that you can just come back and everything is going to exactly the same? ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED?"
"NARUTO! Stop it this instant!" Tsunade shouted at me. I struggled against the people holding me and groaned knowing I wasn't getting out of the hold anytime soon.
"Uchiha, you are going to be placed under house arrest for a period of 5 months. You will be monitored by ANBU at all times, you may only be on your complex. You are allowed one visitor at a time and that is all,"
"WHAT? HE LEFT! HE KILLED PEOPLE FROM KONOHA! DID YOU FORGET THAT? HE TRAINED WITH OROCHIMARU! WHAT THE FUCK?"
"And Naruto, you will check in on him 3 times a week to make sure that everything is going fine,"
"You will deliver me a detailed report at the end of every week as proof that you have went and examined everything,"
"WHY DO I HAVE TO DO IT?"
"You are just as qualified as any of my ANBU on duty. Why not you?" Tsunade said glancing over at me. I didn't say anything to her and looked back at Sasuke who was sitting there calmly with nothing at all to say and no objections to what she said.
"I can't believe this," I mumble under my breath.
"Well believe it. If anything, this will help this situation going on,"
"He's a traitor to Konoha…he should be in prison, not free to be in the Uchiha complex!" I told her angrily.
"Think of it as a present since he came back willingly,"
"After killing so many fucking people from the village. Yeah real willing,"
"What was that Naruto,"
I huffed angrily, "Nothing. Can I go now?"
"Of course, see Uchiha to the complex,"
"That's an order from the Hokage. Remove his handcuffs when you get to his building," she told me sternly. I growled to myself while hoisting Sasuke up from the chair with his nose and lip still bleeding profusely.
"Get his nose and lip fixed before you go. I think Sakura is on call right now,"
I nod as I push him out of the office towards the hospital where I know Sakura is. Sasuke doesn't attempt to say anything to me as we walk through Konoha with people looking at us oddly obviously not expecting me to be anywhere within 10 feet of Sasuke after how I slapped him in front of pretty much the entire village.
Once we both got to the hospital one of the nurses pointed me in the direction of Sakura who was taking care of another patient. She finished with them and smiled when she saw me but faltered when she was who was with me. I knew how this must be for Sakura since she probably still "loved" him. But she had no idea how it felt for me at the moment.
"Sasuke…wow. Never thought I would ever see you back in Konoha," she told him, her voice shaking slightly. Sasuke "Hned" at her as she sat him down on one of the examination tables and took a look at his nose and made a face.
"Who did this? They sure did a number on your nose. Totally misplaced and broke it," she told him. Sasuke narrowed his eyes towards me as Sakura looked over at me and I looked in another direction. She sighed and cracked it back into place, not even getting a groan out of Sasuke.
I stepped out of the examination room and waited on the side of the door until she finished because being in the same room with that bastard was just make my blood boil. Sakura stepped out the room and looked at me leaning against the wall. She stood in front of me and made me connect my eyes to her as she looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
"What?" I questioned her without the extra gusto in my voice. She lowered her eyebrow and all I saw was pure sadness in her eyes as she looked back into mine which made it even worse.
"I had no idea," she said barely above a whisper. I shook my head laughing bitterly.
"It makes sense…why you didn't give up. Why you became so depressed when you couldn't bring him back. Why you just didn't seem normal for the longest time,"
"It doesn't matter. The Sasuke I knew is long gone and dead. I don't even know who's in that room right now,"
"Just fix him so I can take him home and I can go home…please,"
"Okay," she told me and walked back into the room to fix his nose and patch up his lip.
I banged my head on the wall and felt my heart clench at how I just wanted so bad to hug Sasuke but at the same time kill the bastard for putting me through so much pain. It made sense for Sakura to tell me that she had no idea of our relationship; he wanted to keep it a big secret. He didn't see the point in burdening the rest of our friends with such trivial information. He also didn't see the point in making a big deal out of it.
I was pulled out of my daze as Sasuke stepped outside almost as if in a trance with his nose patched up with some white stuff on it to align it and his lip with a butterfly stitch on it to help close the gap. I thanked Sakura and shoved him along to his complex so that I could get rid of him and get back to my wallowing in self-pity. Something very un-Naruto like. But it isn't as if I was allowing anybody to see any of this. Not at all.
Finally arriving at his house Sasuke turned to look at me putting his arms out so that I could release the handcuffs around his wrists. I didn't even think about it as I did a hand seal and they came off falling to the ground in between us. Sasuke looked up into my eyes then as they did and I felt the hatred sweep over me instantly.
"Don't you dare say my name," I told him hoarsely, almost as if my voice wasn't even working. Sasuke closed his mouth and continued to look at me not knowing what to even say.
"I want you back," he stated simply which made me scoff at how confident he was about that.
"And what exactly makes you think that you can have me back?"
"You still love me,"
"That ship sailed when you left,"
"I can see it in your eyes. You hate me, but at the exact same time…there is a little light that says otherwise,"
"You flatter yourself…FAR too much,"
"I don't call it flattery. I call it the truth," he told me seriously.
"Fuck off. I'll come back in 2 days to check on you like Tsunade ordered," I told him turning around to leave the complex.
"I still love you if that matters," he yelled at me. I faltered in my step and soon kept walking, knowing that exactly what he wanted me to do.
I walked slowly trying to get the image of Sasuke out of my head. It wasn't fair. How come he got to come back with no problems? Tsunade practically fed him his house arrest like he was a baby. It wasn't fucking fair and I was going to get down to the bottom of it.
Walking into her office without waiting for anybody to tell me it was okay to enter I saw her sitting there looking at the door, seeming almost as if she was waiting for me to enter. I paced the room and then looked at her angrily.
"You spoon fed him his sentence. That's not even a PUNISHMENT for him," I told her angrily. Tsunade sighed and motioned towards the seat in front of her. I took it grudgingly and waited for her to speak.
"This isn't about punishment. When Sasuke left he left a confused kid and now he's back and he came willingly, he's not a threat to anybody. Whether or not this has something to do with you two's past it is not going to affect my decision,"
I breathed slowly and tried not to lose my mind. It wouldn't surprise me if Tsunade knew what was going on between us two before he left. She was the Hokage after all, she probably knew even before WE did. It still didn't hurt though how much I wanted him to be put in jail so that way I wouldn't have to see him.
"Naruto…I'm sorry about how things turned out. I knew what was going between the both of you. I can say that I truly believe you should give him another chance,"
I scoffed and stood laughing to myself as she said that. I looked back at her and felt all the emotions push together which resulted in me spilling tears over my eyes, something I had been holding back since the moment I saw him.
"It's not fair! He broke my heart. He left me. And I'm the one that's supposed to give him another chance? He broke all of his promises to me. He left me alone. And I'm supposed to forgive him?"
"Naruto, he needed answers,"
"Then he could have said that," I told her, walking out of her office and slamming the door behind me. I knew it was unnecessary but at the moment I just didn't particularly care.
I ran towards my house not caring that tears were steadily streaming from my eyes and I probably didn't look like my usual self. Well then again, I wasn't expecting to see a blast from my past just somehow show up as if everything was good and dandy between us.
Once getting inside my house I went straight to my bed and fell on top of it trying to get myself to stop crying. It wasn't like me. I couldn't let this bastard affect me like he was doing so well. I allowed myself to drift to sleep unaware that my dreams were just as bad as reality.
I ran towards Sasuke as he flipped me over and onto my back. The breath was steadily knocked out of me as he was soon over me with a kunai thrust at my throat. I laughed seeing that he had indeed won again, nothing unusual.
Sasuke relaxed on top of me and straddled my waist in the process while putting the kunai down. I looked up at him and couldn't believe that anything could be this beautiful. Reaching my hand up, I brushed a strand of hair out of his face and looked at him while he silently gazed back down at me.
"What?" he asked me as I let my hand trail down to his waist and rest there. I didn't say anything to him as I leaned up and captured his lips in a soft kiss. He closed his eyes and leaned into me, raking his hands through my hair.
Separating from him I leaned my forehead against his while I held him against my chest. He nuzzled my neck softly as I smiled down at him. He looked into my eyes then and grabbed my cheeks in between his hands.
"I love you," he told me with all the truth being held in his eyes.
"I love you too,"
"I'll love you for so long that forever may not be long enough to express my love for you. This I promise," he told me still holding my face in his hands. I smiled and kissed him again feeling every contour of his body against mine. It was a bit sad how I knew his body better than I knew my own.
It was in this moment that I knew I wouldn't be able to live without this person in front of me. This person that knew what it was like to be thrown to the side. This person that hurt the same way I hurt. I knew then that he had a part of me, and that if he ever left I would surely die.
I woke up with a start realizing the dream that I had just had. My heart wrenched in pain at the vivid memory that I had repressed for so long. I jackknifed into myself at the pain that assaulted me at the memory. The memory of what happened that day.
The day right before he left.
Well there you have the first installment to Jar of Hearts. I hope you all like it. There will be more so enjoy =]