This is just a short rambling of luka set before uraboku.

He reflects his existence, love for yuuki and his decesion to betray the opasts.

In case you wonder what the last line means its just a reference to lucifer having fallen, the demons (Duras) consider him their brother since they fell with him but luka says he is his child, because he is similar to lucifer in having betrayed his family and is selfish.

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Disclaimer:I do not own uraboku

what is the purpose of my existance?

what is this irrational impulse to question the authority of the opasts?

I do not own the human emotion of mistrust or fear yet why do I falter in my faith of their actions?

I am not human, no matter how hard I may yearn or wish to be,

I should be repulsed by the very thougt of being mortal,

I should believe that to be so controlled by emotion is a repulsing and unhonourable way to spend ones creation.

but yet I find myself enthralled,..raptured by her, I would gladly let her tear my skin, break my bones, let my crimson blood flow,

All in the hope of seeing that clandestine smile of hers.

I laugh at myself, my life holds contradictions within contradictions.

Should I fall to my knees and bow my head in shame and appeal to be forgiven?

No I would rather be punished for my weakness, I do not deserve forgiveness but I must face the bitter truth,

My truth of what a wretched betrayl I have committed against my brethren and to the king.

I am of the demon king's progeny, the selfish blood courses through my veins.

Burn me and brand me with the scar of betrayl - brand me zess

but my heart no longer loves or worships the Almighty,..it was taken by a mortal, your forbidden creations hidden from us, but I was tempted and let myself desire her,..desire for her soul...desire for her love.

I worship her, love her alone...she is the bane of my existence, yes she is the reason and the reason is her.

There is one truth and promise that I can put my faith in, that I will never,...no matter the situation or time,..ever betray my dearest and sweetest yuuki.

It is here that I falter and my contradictions lie...I want her to live her life, the one you gifted to them not us, a life free of restraints, a life of choice.

I want her to forget me and love others, but yet I wish to take her and chain her to my heart let her pull till it bleeds but forever keep her.

What kind of creature am I?

Am I so twisted and tortured that I am devoid of any logical reasoning?

No...I am merely my brothers child.