You know I never would have thought that, the person whom I am most thankful to would have also, been the same person whom I hated so much. The same person who had saved me, when I found myself completely confused and lost. So many years ago, when I had lost the most important and beloved people to me, He had been my savior from that horrid hell. He also sent me into another self condemning hell hole.

He was a saint an yet a demon. I another way to put it, I guess would be a fallen angel. An angel whom had unknowingly strayed from the path he was meant to follow and was never or never will be able to return.

As I look back now, I wonder. . . . . . . . . Would things still be the same ? If we had only smiled and laughed a little more often together, instead of taking the time to ridicule each other. There will always be questions like this, but never answers. Simply, because we are all blind fools who can't truly see in front of ourselves even if we tried to;So I'll tell you. Tell you this and maybe you'll be able to find it for me, for us.