Guess what time it is? It's sequel time! I hope you all liked Hear Me Howl. Thank you for all the reviews and support. I can't believe that it got 500 reviews! I've never got that many readers for one story, so thanks a lot!
If you are new to the story, you should read Hear Me Howl first. If you don't, you might not know what the hell I'm talking about. Lol. Reading Hear Me Howl first is very important, so you understand what's going on in this story.
This chapter picks up from the ending of Hear Me Howl. After about two chapters, I am going to skip ahead some years. I don't want to linger on the twins remaining babies for ten chapters. Any questions that were left unanswered in Hear Me Howl will be answered in this story. I believe that this will be it after this story is finished. I don't want to drag it on forever and then it gets boring and I start running out of ideas. I'm not sure how long this story will be, but I will go with the flow. I have some plans, but the entire story is not planned out yet. Enough with my blabbering, on with the story.
I don't own Twilight or the characters!
Marriage? Did Jacob ask me about marriage? Marriage was a subject that frightened me, I didn't like thinking about it. My mind couldn't even wrap around the idea of being married. It was nothing against Jacob, it was me. I was the one who had an issue with marriage.
"Leah." Jacob looked back at me with questioning eyes. He reached across the table and grabbed my free hand. " Are you okay?" Jacob didn't break his gaze as he rubbed my hand.
"I-I can't do it," I spoke in a whisper. Those were the only words that I could speak. Everything else I wanted to say was caught in the back of my throat. My mouth went dry and my hands became clammy.
"You can't what," Jacob asked. His face fell into a worried expression. He knew exactly what I couldn't do; he just wanted me to say it.
"I can't marry you." I couldn't even look up to see what Jacob's facial expression was. I could about guess how he was looking. Defeated. Saddened. Betrayed. He had dedicated his heart to me and I couldn't even marry him.
"Oh, I see." Jacob let go of my head and sat back against his chair. " What's the problem Leah?"
" It's not you-"
"It's me, right? That's what you're about to say aren't you? What's your reason for being with me, if you don't plan on marrying me? We have children together and honestly I don't see myself with anyone else. I thought you felt the same way about me. There I go with assuming once again."
"Jacob lower your voice," I whispered loudly. I could feel people staring at us as Jacob's voice rose.
"I just don't understand why you can't marry me. You love me don't you," Jacob asked slapping his hand down on the table, causing a couple sitting close by to jump.
" Jacob you need to calm down. We can talk about this when we get home."
"I don't think I even want to talk about it Leah. It's fine, I understand that you're frightened by marriage. I wish you could see that I'm not him, I'm not going to do you like he did. I thought we came to an understanding, but I guess I was wrong," Jacob replied taking a sip of his water. The waitress walked up to our table and set our plates in front of us.
"Can I get you anything else," she asked sweetly. I'm was sure she could feel the tension between us.
"No thank you," I replied smiling weakly. She nodded and walked away briskly.
" Jacob can we at least talk about it when we get home," I asked leaning forward. Jacob popped a few shrimp into his mouth before making eye contact with me.
"We have nothing to talk about. You said no and I get it. I don't think you have to explain why you don't want to marry me. I already know your reasons and I respect them," Jacob stated. He diverted his attention back to the food on his plate. We both ate in silence, neither of us bringing up the marriage subject again.
" Where are the twins," I asked Seth as Jacob and I walked through the front door.
"They're sleeping. I already fed them and changed their diapers. I even wiped them down with a wet cloth like mom told me to. I had fun watching them, they didn't cry that much," Seth said clasping his hands together.
"Lucky you. I bet they will cry for us all night. Thanks baby bro, I appreciate it," I patted Seth on the back.
"You two alright," Seth asked looking at Jacob, who had not said anything since we walked in.
"Yea, we're fine. Thanks Seth," Jacob replied. Jacob pushed passed me and Seth and disappeared into the bedroom.
"Something's wrong," Seth said crossing his arms. "What happened?"
"That's great. Congrats sis." Seth smiled and pulled me into a hug.
"And I said no."
"What? Why? I thought you loved him."
I sighed and sat down on the couch. " It's not all about love Seth."
Seth sat next to me. "Well what is it about then. If you love him that much, why won't you marry him?"
"You wouldn't understand. Jacob doesn't even get it. I know he won't talk to me tonight so I might try tomorrow. I wish he would listen to what I have to say. It's not like he's the problem, it's all me. I'm the one afraid of marriage." I buried my head in my hands and rocked my body back and forth.
" Just give him some time Lee. He probably is feeling rejected and feels like you don't love him enough. Rejection can hurt a guy's pride, trust me. I tried to kiss Gloria the other day and she didn't like that," Seth said shaking his head. He glanced back at me and then looked back at his hands.
" You said you were going to bring Gloria over to meet us one day. What happened with that," I asked. Gloria was Francine's sister. Francine raped and beaten badly and left to die, the Cullen's saved her by biting her. The Volturi found out that Francine had special powers, came and took her away and we had not heard anything since then.
"She's been very depressed because of her sister. I feel bad knowing what happened to her, but I know I can't tell her. I wish I could bring her around, but she barely leaves the house anymore," Seth explained.
" She'll come through, keep being there for her. She needs someone to lean on right now, continue doing what you're doing." I pulled Seth into a tight embrace.
"Thanks Lee. You and Jake will be alright." Seth kissed my forehead and stood up. " I should get going. I will tell mom you said hi."
"Please don't tell her about the proposal. I'm not ready for her to know about that yet," I said frantically. Seth seemed to be disappointed, but he nodded as he shut the door.
"So you're ashamed," Jacob asked standing in the doorway to the bedroom.
"What are you talking about." Jacob smirked and gripped the door frame.
"Ya know, I really thought this would go differently. I took the time to think through all of this. I asked myself over and over again if you were the one. It only took me one minute to decide that the one was you. I've never felt this way before. I've never felt like I could spend the rest of my life with somebody without ever getting tired of them. I didn't even feel this way about Bella. When I realized that I loved you, I pushed all old thoughts of Bella behind me. I forgot all about the pain she caused me and what she put me through. You know why I did that? Because I found the one girl who made me feel whole, made me feel like I was somebody, and made me feel like the feelings I had for Bella were not real. You were that girl Leah and I thought I was that guy for you." Jacob hung his head in defeat.
" Jake, I'm not saying that you aren't that guy. You put me back toge-"
"You sound like Bella. I put you back together, but you just can't be with me. I don't even want to hear it," Jacob pinched the bridge of his nose.
"See, you won't even listen to me. I'm trying to tell you that I love you to death and it's nothing against you. I'm fucking scared Jake. The last time I got engaged to a guy, he left me for my cousin. Do you know how that feels? Sure Bella left you for Edward, but at least he wasn't like a brother to you. At least he was someone you hated. I loved Sam with all my heart and he just left me in the dust. I gave up on love until I met you and you changed the way I felt about love. I can't believe you think that I don't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't be here now, and I probably wouldn't have kids with you. You just don't know how scared I am of this whole marriage thing. Marriage changes things, it makes things complicated. I like how things are now, I don't want them to change." By the time I was done with my speech, my cheeks were streaked with tears. My voice was breaking up and I could tell I was about to break down.
"When are you going to realize that I'm not Sam," Jacob asked slapping his hands together with each word. " I want this to work Lee, I do. But if you can't get over what Sam did to you, then I don't know how far this is going to go."
"What's that supposed to mean Jacob," I asked wiping my eyes.
"We have to move forward in this relationship. We can't keep moving back," Jacob replied.
"So you're bre-"
"No I'm not dumping you, I'm just saying I want to move forward. I won't give up on you that easily," Jacob said with a smirk. "Come here." Jacob held his arms out, motioning me to walk into them.
I collapsed into Jacob's chest and wrapped my arms around his waist. " I'm not going to make you do anything you aren't comfortable with. I will give you some time to think about this whole marriage thing. But promise me something," Jacob said rocking us back and forth.
" What am I promising."
"Promise me that you will stop comparing me to Sam," Jacob whispered.
"That is something I will work on. Can you promise me something?"
"Don't ever doubt my love for you. I would have booked a long time a go if I didn't love you. Oh and never compare me to Bella again. That was an insult" I replied burying my face further into Jacob's chest.
"Ok. We should probably check and see if the twins are still in one piece. No telling what Seth has done," Jacob said grabbing my hand.
"You're probably right."
"How will we get the boy?"
" I don't know. He is protected by the Cullens and that pack of wolves. I don't know how we will get around either of them," I whispered. I sat back against the cool wall of the cave.
" Isn't he Adahy's son. Adahy was your Alpha correct?"
"Yes he was until I left the pack and started my own. Adahy wasn't organized enough and didn't know what he wanted. I mean look who he has a son with. He has a kid with a half-breed! How stupid does that sound? We have to come up with a plan. I want that boy back where he belongs," I said rubbing my hands together.
"I can help you get him back, I have some connections."
" Who do you know?"
"Some vampires that despise the Cullens. I bet they can get the boy back for you."
"Deal. You contact those connections. I think we've got a plan brewing up. Now I must think of a way to get that Alpha of the La Push pack. He is the one who destroyed my brothers after I left. He doesn't deserve to live. You think you have some people to get him too?"
"Oh you're so good." I leaned in and captured her cold lips. " You don't know how much I'm enjoying this time with you Zafrina."
"You don't know how much I love to spend time with you. You're so exotic, so sexy, and so damn sneaky," Zafrina replied biting my lip.
"I don't think I'm the exotic one."
"Hmmm if only you knew," Zafrina replied.
If only he knew my plans don't correlate with his.
I got the first chapter out. I'm proud of myself for getting this done way before I planned. I didn't plan on having this done until the weekend, but this hit me like a semi. I had to get it out and ready for you all to read.
I hope you guys liked it, it took me a whole day to write, even though it's not that long. I'm trying to make this story a little darker and add more characters to make it more interesting.
So what do you all think about this mystery guy and Zafrina? What is Zafrina up to?
Will Leah be able to let her past go and let Jacob fully in?
We have a long journey ahead of us! I feel like you all will like this story! (At least I hope you do.) I'm going to try to top Hear Me Howl. Let's see how that works. Thanks for all the support!