12A/N: Hi all my loyal readers. I'm really sorry for the long wait. all i really have to say is that I did not know where I was heading with the fic. I lost my mojo. I do Hope that you enjoy this Chapter.
Diclaimer: I do not any of the character or Twilight. all rights belong to Stephanie Meyer.
An epiphany:
The weeks following that day were quite uneventful. I was right in assuming that things between Jake and me had become awkward. Whenever we happened to pass one another in the hallways, I always ended up stumbling over nothing and Jake would suddenly become very busy.
Things with Edward had not progressed any further, than what happened on the couch. I was distancing myself from the feelings I had towards him. I could not become the whore or slut that Jake so easily used to describe me.
His relationship with lockness slut had only been getting better and better, or so I've heard whenever I stay over at the Cullen's house. The pain of seeing the two of them together is still new and raw. No matter if I've closed the Jacob Black chapter of my life, the good parts of the chapter will always stay with me.
We were all sitting in the cafeteria when I had an epiphany
"Guys I need to get away."
"What? Bella no! You can't leave. That will mean that Jacob won." Alice exclaimed.
"It's not about winning or losing Alice! It's about how Everytime I see him being all lovey dovey with your sister, I am reminded of what I have lost. The way Jake used to caress my check, look at me with adoration and love." I sighed
I just needed some space, I needed to distance myself further from Edward and these on-going feelings I have towards him. I need my space away from Jake as well, I needed to be away so that I can move on and let him be happy. I need to get the images running around my head of a little dark haired boy and girl and Jake in a tux waiting at the end of first beach for me.
I turned my head away from Alice and towards Jacob's table. He had his arms wrapped around her almost lovingly and easy smile on his face. I need to get where he is, to the place where a smile is easy to put on and not forced. Oh God I miss him.
I watched in pained torture as a piece of hair glided in front of her eyes, and how unthinking Jacob raised his fingers and lovingly replaced it behind her ear. This was torture; I have heard where people make reference to school being Hell. I never understood it until now, looking at the both of them together was as if I was trapped in Hell.
"Bella, just stop. You're torturing yourself." Jasper whispered to me.
"Jas, please. Just please make it go away. I just want it all to go away." I begged my older brother.
I never did hear his response, because what happened next had the whole student body enraptured.
Emmett and Edward were storming off towards Jacob; I guess they had enough of my lack of attitude or whatever.
"BLACK!" Emmett called out.
Jake placed the girl on the chair next to him and got up slowly to face Emmett and Edward. "What is it you want Swan, Cullen? You two going to get married and need me to be a witness?" He was stalling.
Jake knew what my brother's intentions were; nobody hurts a Swan and gets away with it. Those two idiots made it up in the first place. The rule was mainly focused around me. God id it going to bite him in the ass now.
"No, actually not Black. We just boned your sisters, fucked them over and thought we might come rub it in your face. You know goad a little. That seem fair to you Edward?" Emmett jibbed
"It seems only particularly fair, as it seems Black here likes fuck over people's sisters." Edward responded, every single word dripping with anger.
Jacob did not get a chance to respond, I could see the anger rolling off of his shoulders. No-body made a jibe at or towards his sisters. That was a low blow. Jacob was just about to respond when both Emmett and Edward pulled back their fists and hit him. Edward to the body and Emmett to his face. Jacob did not even have time to let out a grunt of pain before Edward and Emmett gave him one final blow that had Jake lying on the floor moaning in pain.
"JAKE!" I hadn't realised that while the fight was going on I had moved unconsciously to stand by Edward and Emmett.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS?" I screamed. Before I had a chance to even reach him, his new girlfriend had already done that for me.
"OH MY GOD, JAKE BABY! I'm so sorry my brother is an idiot."
"Edward, why the fuck did you do this? He didn't do anything to you!" she cried while rocking Jake in her lap. She glanced up and saw me struggling in his arms, not sure whether to go to Jake despite what he may say or do, or because I just want to run away from all the drama surround my life.
It was while she was glaring at me and running her fingers through Jake's newly cut hair that he moaned out my name. It was as if somebody had pressed mute because the whole cafeteria went dead quite. Waiting and watching to witness what kind of new drama is going to unfold. Waiting to see, if I was going to run back to Jake after everything that he had done or was I going to leave him the capable hands of his new girlfriend.
The seconds ticked by and my mind was running a marathon of questions through my mind. What does this mean? Can I just be at his beck and call? What about his girlfriend? Do I really want to do this? What about Edward? My family?
Everyone was waiting on baited breath for me to make the ultimate decision. My heart started racing my breath coming out in short spurts. I can't do this. I can't, this is too much too soon.
"No", the word was out before I could draw it back in. just one simple word that will set my future on a different course.
"I can't Jake." I stepped out of Edward's choke hold and kneeled down in front of him, making eye contact with him. "Too much has happened, I just can't anymore."
I leaned forward and lightly kissed him on the lips, this time it was good-by for real. "I'll always love you."
With that said I turned around and walked in my new future. A possible new future with family, friends and a possibility with Edward.
A/N. So I don't now if you guys noticed but this chapter has a very ending feel to it. Well that is because it is the end. I do applogise for not having enough Bella and Edward interaction. This fic ultimately started of as a Jake and Bella and just pregressed into and Bella and Edward fic. I was not planning on ending here, but the ending just happened. I felt like I was dragging the fic out.
I do hope you guys enjoyed reading this fic and this chapter. Please leave a review. Its really easy now :)
oh before I forget I am going to put an epilogue up, just put me on story alert and then you'll know when I update the final chapter.
Love Jo