Author's Note/Disclaimer: This a a very brief one shot. None of the characters are my own, all belongs to our Queen, JK Rowling.
I Loved You First
He watched her laughing with his enemies and it broke his icy heart. He had only ever wanted to love her; it wasn't his fault that he didn't have the slightest idea as to how it was supposed to be done. She was far too beautiful to even be in his presence and far too kind to even acknowledge it.
Rage filled Severus' heart as he watched Potter lean over and whisper something in her ear. Lily's eyes widened as a gasp escaped her soft lips. She pretended to be scandalized and shoved his shoulder. Severus forced himself to look away. It was too much. He could feel the ripping and tearing of his heart and he could bear it no longer. It isn't fair, he often thought, Potter could never love her as intensely as I do…
And that much was true. James Potter loved plenty of people in his life, his friends, his parents, and his lovely home. Severus, on the other hand, had only ever truly felt love for her. Nothing else occupied any amount of space in his cold heart but her. But when he was around her, he felt his heart swell and make room for all things. He felt like a better person when he was around her. He would have given her the world. But he had ruined everything and she had made her choice.
Severus got up from the table and left the Great Hall, hot tears threatening to leave their ducts. With nothing else to live for, he had no choice but to succumb to Lucius' pressure; he would have to devote himself to the Dark Lord.