Hi All,

I abandoned this story years ago. It's been nearly a decade since I began writing it. I know I'm not obligated to explain anything to you, but rediscovering this has been somewhat cathartic and I wanted to put my thoughts out into the universe.

Why have I stopped updating? There are numerous reasons.

First, I wrote this when I was about Sadie's age in the story. Very immature, but passionate about my interests. However, I also found myself flitting from interest to interest-and fandom to fandom-with a cyclical pattern of extreme avidness (and fangirl-ness) to a sudden fizzing out of said excitement. In a way, I outgrew Kane Chronicles and Heroes of Olympus (Although PJO will always have a special place in my heart). When I began this story, Anubis had not yet chosen Walt for his host (this was the last of the books I read before my interest in the series waned). When this development happened, my headstrong self lost quite a bit of motivation because my story was no longer predicated on a canon narrative (lol even back then I was already so particular and somewhat OC about many things).

Second, life gets in the way. I was young, as I mentioned, and was beginning to experience the more complex challenges and responsibilities of being a teenager. I stopped writing and even drawing for a long time. I can't say I've ever returned to it, at least not on the same level of passion and industriousness I cultivated at the age I published this. However, it may interest you to know that I majored in writing in University, and graduated with high marks.

Third, which is definitely rather depressing-I've forgotten nearly everything about the Kane Chronicles. When I reread this just now, I had trouble remembering the references. Even if I wanted to update this story, I'm too out of touch to even attempt to write a fifth chapter as a genuine fan.

This is primarily why I made the bittersweet decision to take this story down. There are several more pertinent reasons:

First, it makes me uncomfortable. The way I wrote about sex and libido came from a very ignorant and naive place. The interactions between Sadie and Anubis are not only inappropriate (in my hindsight, of course) but also highly unrealistic and somewhat shallow. I feel like I projected much of my desires to be a grown-up onto my writing of Sadie, and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

Second, she was fourteen in this story and again, having experienced a few more years of life, I can in no way allow content that features sexual interactions between a minor and an ancient God, to continue to exist and possibly influence impressionable young girls who were much like me at that age. I'm in my twenties now and it feels so, well, yucky to be sexualizing someone this young. This is something I wish I could tell my fourteen-year-old-self.

I felt very sad having read your lovely comments asking me to update, because this is an artifact of my happier youth, and a remnant of the kind of excitement and passion I once felt about various things in my life. Not to be too nihilistic, of course, but we all tend to lose that stroke of naivete and blind joy at some point in our lives.

I may get hate comments about my decision to even do this, but I wanted to give closure to anyone who may have been eagerly following this story. I once again thank you deeply for your kind and supportive comments. For those who may choose to spew vitriol in the comments-I do not care if you think portraying minors in sexual activities, especially with much older characters, is fine as long as it's consensual. My personal beliefs and realizations about the matter are set, and so is my decision.

Third, this story no longer reflects my writing style, my values, and my genuine identity as a writer and reader of literature. It is, I acknowledge, an artifact of my journey as a writer, but I just don't feel comfortable having it on the internet anymore. Bottom line.

Again, I apologize, and I'm forever grateful for those encouraging comments. Hope you are all staying safe during this pandemic.