Set fire to the rain

(Disclaimer: All named characters by Stephenie Meyer.)

I let it fall, my heart
And as it fell, you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they were strong, but my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms without falling to your feet

Song by Adele

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My existence was a shell…love pried it open and swallowed me whole.

Run… set fire to the rain.

She was never mine, I knew this. But my heart did not. And now it burns as the rain pours. Drops, assaulting me like daggers over and over again. I close my eyes and I welcome it to numb the heat that is slowly consuming what is left of my soul, my heart. Disguising the poison tears that cannot exist. Poison tears that I pray would end me in this form… right now. But even they torture me…laugh and burn me to my core. SHE IS NOT YOURS! They mock.

Run… set fire to the rain.

I shift to the vile form I am… I hate… and even this I cannot control. Let them all laugh…and damn them all. See me, hear me, feel and taste my misery. I am the Alpha…this monster is me. Even the bitter wind does not break my rampant pace. It knows my agony. It is my equal.

Run… set fire to the rain

I pound the soaked grounds with rage to get as far away as I can from my wrath… my salvation...my Bella. I swallow thorns when her name betrays my thoughts. She is not mine. I know this. I shake it off...never say it again. She does not exist. We…do not exist.

Run… set fire to the rain.

I cling to no hope… to no one. I am alone. I AM THE ALPHA. I have no choice. I am… resigned. Oh god, she breaks my soul. The man, the beast…both defeated.

Run… set fire to the rain.

One last time, just let me say it, scream it and let me burst into flames as thunder strikes the creature that is my sin. I halt and shift back to my shame. I fall to my knees naked. I howl my only pain. I need to breathe… and set fire to the rain.

"Kwopkalawo'li my Bella!"

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A/N: Kwopkalawo'li (I love you in Quileute). Jacob whispers this to Bella in New Moon.