Began: July 22, 2011 10:30 pm

Completed: July, 22, 2011 10:53 pm

Happy 4th Anniversary.

It doesn't hurt too much to think about you today.

I'm still listening to the same song I listen to every year.


This day has been different from the rest.

I spent this day in

The hospital

Where your last breath

Was held.

Am I torturing myself by being there?

Maybe I am.

Maybe I just want to remember.

The last time I had my world crumble.

The last time I saw momma that way.

The last time I saw your body warm.

The last time I could touch your skin,

With momma's hand,

That held yours.

I don't want to cry.

The hospital staff I met,

They gave me comfort.

Perhaps that's why I decided to come.

To feel a stranger's sympathy.


Please visit me in my dreams tonight.

If not, then momma's.

If not, then your son's.

I want to hear your voice.

I don't want to cry.

I remember the promise you told us when we were young.

You cannot fulfill that promise.

But I would gave that promise to have you back.

I don't want to cry.

我爱你爸爸. -Chinese

私はあなたの愛パパ. -Japanese

Je t'aime papa. -French

Te quiero papá. -Spanish

I love you papa.

This is for the fourth anniversary.

Never think your father and mother will be there forever. Hold them close everyone.