It has been 6 years since I left mystic falls.

6 years since I left everyone I loved.

6 years when I realised I had fallen in love with Damon Salvatore.

See, the day I left mystic falls was the day my world came crashing down.

I found out Bonnie and Jer' were moving to Australia.

Alaric was leaving because everything in that place reminded him of Jenna.

and when I caught Stefan in bed with Katherine.

6 YEARS AGO.

I had to get away from my house for a while. I felt angry and upset about Jeremy and Bonnie leaving. How was I meant to continue on living without how I decided to drive over to the boarding and find Stefen.

I walked into the boarding house, wondering where the Salvatore's were since the parlour was empty. That's when I heard laughter coming from Stefan's room.

Just when I was about to knock, I hear a girl voice. Not just any voice but Katherine's.

"Hahaha! Oh c'mon Stefan, Elena's at school, Damon's at the grill, it's just you and me."

"Okay fine, but only if you play nice"

"I can make any promises..."

I didn't get to hear the end of their conversation because I was running down the stairs to the door.

Before I could get to my car I ran into someone. And that someone was Damon.

"Elena? Elena what's wrong!" I hadn't realised until then that I was crying.

I couldn't say anything. I couldn't think properly. But in that moment I felt safe.

"C'mon Elena, lets take you home."

The car ride was quiet. Damon tried to find out what was wrong but I said nothing. When he finally gave up he turned on the radio and tried to find a decent song on The song. He decided to settle on was "She Will Be Loved" by Marroon 5. I was surprised by his choice because it was my favourite song. "How did you know this is my favourite song?"

"So your finally going to talk?" He sighed when I didn't say anything else.

"Well Elena it may surprise you, but this is my favourite song"

And in that moment he started bolting out the lyrics "SHE WIIIILLLL BE LOOVVVEEDD!" I couldn't help it but smile.

"Now there that beautiful smile I've been searching for"

I just laughed and joined in.

When we reached my house we were both laughing our heads off.

"Well Miss Elena I never knew you could sing"

"Well Mr. Salvatore I still can't believe you knew all the words to that song."

"Hey it's a classic! Everyone's knows all the words to that song" he gave me one of his signature smirks that I secretly loved.

I just rolled my eyes and walked to the door.

"Hey Damon. Thankyou."

"For what?"

"For distracting me" I smiled and looked up into those sharp Blue eyes. God they were beautiful.

"Anytime" and this time his smile was genuine.

Before I realised what I was doing, I leaned forward and kissed him.

And then i felt him kissing me back.

It was the most amazing kiss I have ever experienced.

His lips tasted like honey, you could just melt into it.

At first it was tender but then it turned into a more hungry kiss.

Before it could got any further I broke apart.

"I-I-I...I have to go." I said quickly slamming the door in his face.

I ran upstairs to my room and locked my windows.

Oh my god! What was I doing! I had kissed Damon Salvatore, my boyfrie-... ex-boyfriends brother, and the thing is I liked it, no I loved it. I felt safe. I felt home... and I'm in love with him. I love him. I love his blue eyes, his black hair, the way he smiles, the way he laughs, the way he could make me smile even at my worst peak.

But no. I couldn't do this. I couldn't be with him. for all he knows I'm still with Stefen. I has probably messed his head up. He probably hates me for it. He probably thinks... he probably thinks im like Katherine. Going after both brothers. Oh my god what have I done. I had to leave. I couldn't face him again.

So I started to pack. I got as many things as my suitcase would hold.

When I had nearly finished I heard a tap at the window.

I knew it was I walked over and unlocked it, and continuing packing.

"Going somewhere?" he asked. I couldn't look at him. I knew if I did I would start crying.

"Yes. I... I have to get out of here. I cant stay." I could hear my voice tremble.

"Elena... is this about what happened earlier today with you and me?."

I turned around only realising then how close he was to me.

"No... yes... maybe!, I just need some time to think."

"Think about what Elena?"

"EVERYTHING! You, me, and Jeremy leaving. Alaric leaving. There nothing here for me anymore." I could feel the tears run down my face.

"What about Stefen? What about me?"I could hear the hurt in his voice. God why did I have to love him!

"Well apparently Stefen's with Katherine now and…" I looked up at him to see tears in his eyes.

'Damon… it cant... I cant do this" and with that I picked up my suitcase and walked out the door, never forgetting the look of betrayal on his face.

And on that day I knew a piece of my heart had stayed behind along with everything else.