"Go to the gate and dial home and tell them that Sam has been hurt." Jack yelled at Teal'c . As Jack ran towards the gate he looked down to see Sam out cold. He hoped to himself that she would be okay. As they made their way down the ramp Janet waited for Jack to lay Sam down on the bed so that they could take her and see what they needed to do. All of the guys were walking back and forth waiting for news about Sam. As Jack was about to sit down, Janet come out of the operating room. He looked up and could tell that it wasn't good news. They were going to get.
"How bad is she doc?" Jack asked.
"Not looking good Colonel. We lost her two times on the operating table but we managed to stabilize her. She is not out of the woods just yet." Replied Janet.
"Can we see her doc?"
"Not just yet Colonel. We need to make sure she going to be okay before anyone can see her, maybe latter you can."
As the other guys were leaving Jack got up to walk away. Just as he was reaching the door he turned around and asked, "Really how bad is she doc?"
Without looking at the colonel, Janet just shook her head and said, "She is really bad sir. I don't know if she will make it. Sir, go get showered and maybe after you get cleaned up I might let you go see her okay?"
As Jack was taking his shower all he could think about was Sam and how he couldn't live without her by his side He hoped that she was doing okay. As he was walking back to the infirmary, Daniel and Teal'c were there waiting outside hoping that they could go see Sam. Janet came out and looked at the Colonel and said, "She not doing very well. I want her doing better before I let anyone she see her. So boys go get some rest and maybe in the morning I will let you see her." Daniel and Teal'c left and Jack stayed behind hoping that maybe she would let him go see her.
" Doc, can I see her? I know I won't rest if I don't see her and make sure she is doing okay."
"Colonel, she is not doing well. Can I see her Janet? I need to see her."
"Okay, Colonel, just for a minute and that's all okay?" Jack walked in the infirmary and scanned the room searching for Sam.
When he found her he got sick to his stomach. All he could do was look at her and see all the tubes all over her. She looked so small. All Jack wanted to do was to go and kill the guy that did this to Sam. Jack was deep in thought when Janet came up to him and scared him when she stared to talk him.
"Janet how bad is she?"
"She's really bad sir. To be honest, sir, I will be surprised if she makes it sir." All Jack wanted to do was cry and fall to his knees. To know that the woman he loves could die and never know that he loved her was too much. He would never be given a chance to show her the love he felt for her.
"Doc can I sit with her please?" That was all Jack could get out before all his emotions showed.
"Sir I don't think that it is the best thing right now. We need to make sure she will make it through the night. Maybe tomorrow okay?"
Jack was walking out of the infirmary when his emotions hit him full force. Tears were coming down. As he pulled his hand up to wipe the tears away he realized that he hadn't cried in a long time.
The last time he cried was when Charlie died. As Jack was walking to his room all he wanted was to be alone, but Daniel found him and wanted to talk. He didn't want to be alone.
"I am so worried about Sam I hope she will make it, Jack." Daniel said quietly. All Jack could say was "me to Danny me too" and walked in to his room, shut the door, and locked it before Daniel could walk in. Jack sat on his bed and cried and cried. The one woman he loved was in the infirmary fighting for her life. All he wanted to do was run up to the infirmary and sit there. He would hold her hand and never let go.
As Jack was waking up, he realized that he didn't know when he fell asleep. All Jack knew was that all he wanted to do was go see Sam. He walked up to the infirmary but when he got there he could hear Janet yelling, "Tell them I need this and this! Come on Sam you better say with me! You can't leave everyone that loves you. Come, Sam stay with me." All Jack wanted to do was go in there and see what he could do to help.
But the next thing he heard was Janet saying, "Thank God got her back! Lets keep a good eye on her for the next hour or two."
As Janet was leaving Jack walked in and desperately asked "Can I stay with her?"
All Janet could do was say was, "Not now Jack we just about lost her."
" Janet please just let me sit with her."