1,165Edited for content. Full version on Y-gallery.
Grayscaled has done an amazing fanart of these two boys on DA, so please check it out, and leave a nice comment because I stalled out for about 2 weeks until I came across it and was completely inspired to finish the story:
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Naruto felt pretty restless, but he tried to keep preoccupied. For a while, he entertained himself by playing with Ollie and his kitty toys, but apparently the cat wasn't in the most social of moods. That, or he was pouting because they'd neglected him tonight and kept shutting him out of the bedroom.
Scratching his stomach, Naruto went back into the room and found Sasuke was still at his desk. He looked serious. Like, Keanu Reeves-trying-to-act serious. It had Naruto wondering what kind of person Sasuke was while at work. Was he this intense when at the office? Probably. It's sort of a part of what drew Naruto to him. There were so many different sides. In private, Sasuke always felt very open and approachable now, but when they'd first met at Starbuck's, Naruto thought for sure he was just another asshole from the city. It's just that... he didn't always know what Sasuke was thinking. What had made it so easy for the both of them was that they'd been completely honest from the beginning, and Naruto couldn't remember a single relationship he'd had where he felt it was so easy to communicate whatever he was thinking and be understood by the other person.
"I can feel you behind me. Are you that bored already?" Sasuke stopped typing and spun the chair around. His hair was still wet in places, but there were other parts that had dried and begun to stick up.
Tilting his head to the side, Naruto couldn't help but laugh at him and was unable to control the big smile he had on his face.
"What's so funny?" Sasuke asked and beckoned him over. Naruto went very willingly. Sasuke took hold of the front of his pant's waistband and tugged him closer. Naruto tried to flatten down the crazier pieces of hair, smoothing the bits at the back.
"Your hair always needs preening after you have a shower," Naruto murmured.
"We can't all wake up with that perfectly sexy bedhead like you do."
"That's true."
Sasuke snapped the waistband against Naruto's stomach. "That's what you get for being conceited."
"Jerk!" Naruto laughed as he rubbed the spot, going backward a few feet to sit on the edge of the bed. "You almost done?"
"I'm almost done, yes. I have these incompetent people from Austin trying to pick my brain about stuff."
"Austin, Texas?"
"Yeah. There's a big festival in March I'll go to for a week. I need to scout for some new talent."
Naruto frowned. "A week?"
"You could come with me."
"Really?" Naruto asked excitedly and then attempted to appear more aloof. "I mean, y'know. Whatever. I'm sure I'd be okay without you for a week."
Sasuke nodded. "Of course."
Naruto couldn't stop grinning, but the moment was interrupted as Sasuke's phone went off, and he picked it up to see who was calling.
"Ah, it's my brother. I have to take this." He got out of the chair and answered the phone with a 'hello' only to walk out of the bedroom and shut the door behind as he went.
Naruto hoped nothing was wrong, and as Sasuke apparently wanted privacy for the phone call, he collapsed onto the bed. Folding his hands on top of his chest, he stared at the ceiling, wondering about Itachi, too. What sort of guy would go to jail when he didn't even commit the crime? Even if it had meant he saved people's jobs? It made Naruto anxious to meet him if that were to ever be possible. He wanted to see Sasuke and Itachi interact.
Sasuke as the little brother. That could be interesting.
"Hmm." He held his hand in front of his face, making an L of his thumb and forefinger. He lay there for probably about 15 to 20 minutes before Sasuke returned, still on the phone, and his expression rather grim. He sat on the bed, only a little ways from Naruto's feet. Naruto had his arms folded underneath his head, watching Sasuke with curiosity. Sasuke grabbed for his ankle and squeezed it. A reassuring gesture.
On the phone, Sasuke asked, "So do you need me to come?" Pause. "Well when is that?" Pause. "What's our attorney advising you to do?" Fairly long pause, and Naruto could almost make out the sound of Itachi's voice. Naruto nudged Sasuke in the butt with his foot, and Sasuke spared him an apologetic look and a smile.
Sasuke listened for a while and then said, "Yes, well, maybe when the details are cleared up we can discuss this later." Pause. "I am busy, yes." Pause and Sasuke shaking his head. "That's none of your business." Pause. "I'm glad a man in your position is still able to laugh." Pause. "That's also none of your business. I'm going to hang up now." Pause. "No you can't talk to him." He looked over his shoulder at Naruto. "Maybe when you're not under house arrest." Pause. "No, we won't be visiting you anytime soon unless you require my presence at the hearing." Pause. "I'm hanging up now, Itachi." He clicked off the phone and threw it to the other side of the bed.
"Well that was an interesting conversation to overhear," said Naruto.
"Wasn't it?" Sasuke sighed and rubbed his forehead. "It's hard to have a criminal for a brother."
"I thought he was innocent?"
"Well, whatever. He's an idiot for getting himself into this situation."
"I think what he's done is admirable," said Naruto.
"You would." Sasuke crawled over to him on all fours. "So."
"So?" Naruto snorted. "Is everything okay?"
"Yes. He was only bored probably, but he wanted to talk about how the judge moved up the date of his next hearing."
"Is that a good thing?"
"They don't want the prosecutor to have any more time than necessary to start digging around into my brother's actual involvement in the scandal. I guess his attorney thinks they have a better chance of acquittal. My brother was in pretty good standing in Seattle, so the press has been raising doubts about whether or not he's a scapegoat."
"Which he is..."
"True, but it's easier for the No. 2 to go down than the No. 1, and there's a chance with Itachi's acquittal that the whole issue will blow over and the investors who lost money will be compensated."
"Sounds complicated," said Naruto. He cupped Sasuke's cheek. "Are you stressed?"
"A little."
"Do you want a hug?"
"If you're offering."
"C'mere then." Sasuke lay on top of him and rested between Naruto's legs.
"Right. I think I'm done with work for tonight. What do you want to do?"
"Just lying here is fine." Naruto's face was smushed into Sasuke's neck. "Hey, roll over."
"But I'm so comfortable."
"Mah. Roll over."
Sasuke groaned with the effort and rolled to the side and onto his back. Naruto got up and shuffled down between Sasuke's legs, his cheek resting on Sasuke's stomach. His skin smelled of Ivory soap.
"It's been a long weekend, hasn't it?" asked Sasuke as he began to run his fingers through Naruto's hair.
"It's not even over. Tomorrow's only Sunday."
"Indeed it is."
Naruto moved up onto his forearms, the tip of his nose touching Sasuke's stomach. He kissed his lower abs, not minding the trail of dark hair that peeked out above the waistband of his plaid lounge pants.
"What are you doing?" Sasuke tugged at his fringe, drawing his attention.
"Hm? What's it look like?" Naruto kissed lower and put his hands on Sasuke's hips, skimming his fingers along the top of the waistband. He folded it and licked a wet path that started to cut horizontally across Sasuke's pubic bone.
"Are you having fun down there?" Sasuke teased.
"It's different."
Sasuke let out a surprised laugh. "You don't have to force yourself."
"I'm not." He tugged more at the waistband. "Men are so hairy though, aren't they?"
"I'm sure some women are, as well. The French ones specifically."
"Ha, I wouldn't know for sure, but I've heard the rumors. I'm sure European men have interesting tastes." He lifted his gaze and spoke in a hushed tone of voice, "You'd know all about that, wouldn't you?"
"Whichever way you're implying that, it happened almost half a year ago."
Naruto shrugged. He licked to Sasuke's navel and down again. "I know I've said you're perfect before." He ghosted the palm of his left hand over the outline of Sasuke's penis, "But even your dick is like the perfect shape. Has anyone ever told you that?"
"Naruto…"
Slowly, Naruto looked up and met his eyes. "Hm?"
"Are you… flirting with me?"
"I'm merely paying you a compliment. It's a nice size, a nice shape. The head is almost… pretty if you can even say that about a dude's stuff." He gave another tug at the waistband, bringing it down another couple of inches, revealing a hint of the base of Sasuke's cock. He kissed it gently before licking from there up to Sasuke's navel again. He did it a few more times before Sasuke reached for his hair and pulled him up.
"You weren't lying when you said you had quite a bit of stamina, were you?" asked Sasuke as he placed several kisses near the corners of Naruto's mouth.
"It's been more than an hour, hasn't it?"
Sasuke dragged his thumb over Naruto's bottom lip. "You're insatiable," he said.
Naruto grinned. "I have a healthy sexual appetite if that's what you mean. Say, I was wondering. You've slept with a lot of guys, right?"
Sasuke narrowed his eyes.
"Er, what I meant to say," Naruto kissed underneath his chin as an apology, "You've topped a lot of guys but not a lot have topped you, right?"
"No. I suppose not. A few. I don't bottom for everyone."
"So…" Naruto's fingers squeezed at Sasuke's hip. "That's something, right?"
Sasuke's eyebrows shot up almost comically. "You're considering something in particular?"
"…Obviously."
Sasuke shifted underneath him, and the movement shirked his pants down even further. "This is an activity I am very open to."
"Hm." Naruto smirked. "Just how open are you?"
"That's the question, isn't it."
"Heh."
"You're serious?" Sasuke placed his hand on the side of Naruto's face.
"I think I'd be more comfortable if it was like that for the first time?"
"No, I agree. I just didn't think you'd be interested so soon."
Naruto settled his weight on top of him, moving up his body, lining up their groins and rocking his hips. He pushed Sasuke's hair behind his ears. "Are you sureyou're okay with this? If you don't really like it this way -"
"It's not that I don't like it. Like I said, it doesn't happen often."
Naruto bit his lip anxiously. "And if I'm the one doing it?"
Sasuke sucked at the same lip and replied, "Then I'll enjoy it."
Naruto slid his mouth slowly across Sasuke's cheek and to his ear. Sasuke's body heated up underneath him like a furnace. "So you're okay with me being insideyou?"
Sasuke's breath hitched. "…Yes."
Naruto nudged the soft part of his ear with his nose. "Hmm…?"
Sasuke put his arms around Naruto's waist, his hands slipping under the waistband to grope his ass. "Is this where I say I want to feel you inside me… Naruto?"
"Ah yeah." He bit Sasuke's earlobe. "That's what I wanted to hear. Your voice is so damn sexy, especially when it's saying dirty things."
Sasuke squeezed him again. "I'll have to remember that."
"We can definitely try to make this something neither of us will forget." He rubbed himself against Sasuke. "It's a good thing we got that entire 12-pack of condoms."
"Hn. Not even you have that kind of stamina."
"Try me." Naruto bent his head and sucked at the side of Sasuke's neck.
Sasuke let out a low moan, his hands running up the length of Naruto's back. "I think I will. As ready as you seem to be, would a drink help you relax?"
"Of what?"
"That wine you so valiantly fought for Friday night."
"Sounds good." He smiled lop-sidedly. "That'll show him. I did say there would be a heinous amount of assfucking, didn't I?"
Sasuke smirked and started to get up. "That you did. I'll be back in a minute."
As he waited, Naruto sat cross-legged on the bed, his elbows on his knees as he stared at the background image on Sasuke's laptop. Left by himself, he grew nervous and started to lose some of his confidence. They'd already done so much, starting with the dressing room and moving to the floor of the living room to Sasuke's bathtub. Lightly, he pet the bedcover with his hand as Sasuke walked in through the door and kicked it closed with his foot.
"You look like you're thinking hard," Sasuke commented as he came around the side of the bed and handed Naruto a glass of red wine.
Naruto took it gratefully and sipped. It was just the right mix between being too sweet or too dry; the taste was subtle and didn't burn the back of his throat. He sighed as Sasuke took a seat in his desk chair.
"I'm glad after all the trouble we went through to get this we're finally drinking it," said Naruto as he took another sip, holding the stem between his fingers and shifting it around in circles.
"Mm. So what were you thinking about while I was gone?"
"Nervous."
"Ah. Is that what happens when I leave you alone for a few minutes? The doubts grow? I thought you were about to maul me."
Naruto chuckled. "I might have, yeah. I know this may sound stupid, but, like," he rubbed the back of his head, watching the way the wine swirled around in the glass, "I really want it to mean something? At the risk of sounding - "
"Gay?"
Naruto glared. "Excuse me for wanting it to be special."
Sasuke looked like he wanted to laugh but was holding it in. He set his glass to the side on the desk and waved his hand. "I'm not laughing at you."
"Bastard."
"No, it's just..." He sighed and got up, inching over to the bed where he set his knee on top of it and leaned forward on his arms. "This is what I like about you, Naruto."
Naruto met his gaze and Sasuke took hold of his chin and kissed him.
"You like kissing me?" Naruto asked, smirking.
"That, too. Do you know how many people there are in the world who are so fake and insincere? Do you know how many times I've surrounded myself with such people?"
Naruto shrugged. "Probably a lot it sounds like."
Sasuke grabbed Naruto's glass and put it on the side table. Gently, he pushed Naruto flat onto the bed and lay on top of him. Naruto's arms went around his waist.
"What should I tell you?" asked Sasuke as he feathered Naruto's bangs to the side. "I want you to know how I feel. I want you to be sure."
Naruto kissed his lips, gliding his fingers up and down on Sasuke's back. "Tell me something no one knows about you?"
"Ah." Sasuke frowned and smoothed out one of Naruto's eyebrows with a thumb. "Anything in particular?"
"Something meaningful. That you've never told anyone else."
Sasuke pressed his face into the side of his neck, breath creating a warm spot on his skin. "You might not like what I have to say."
"It's not going to be more of Sasuke's international sexual adventures, is it?" He crossed his arms over Sasuke's back, feeling the way the other man's body shook as he laughed. "I wasn't trying to be funny, y'know."
"I know. Okay." Sasuke rolled off onto Naruto's right, where he folded against his side and put a hand on Naruto's chest. "Something no one knows about me? That's tough. There is one thing I've never told anyone about, but..."
"But? Hmm. You look conflicted. Is it because it's that bad or you'd prefer I don't know?"
"There's a reason no one knows, Naruto," he answered abruptly as he propped his head with his hand. "Are you sure you want to hear this?"
Naruto rubbed his lips together. "Yeah. I do."
"Alright. I was 19. I'd come out about a year before, around high school graduation. My mom was pretty okay with it. My brother had known for a while. He didn't care. My dad was... a bit different. He sort of didn't understand. I think he blamed himself." He circled a finger around Naruto's belly button and then covered it with his palm. Naruto put his hand on top of Sasuke's.
"So, after I came out and went to college for a year and a half, I went through a phase where I was trying to find myself, you know. Find my place in the gay community. I'd played it pretty straight in high school for the sake of my parents. When I turned 18, I was free to do whatever. It's when I got into the music scene and went to a lot of the gay bars and clubs. I became more interested in that than finishing school." He looked up at Naruto.
"It's hard to imagine a you that's not as confident as you are now," Naruto said thoughtfully.
"I was always confident. Always cocky." Sasuke smirked, gaze drifting to the ceiling. "I was partying and staying out late."
"Had a few boyfriends...," added Naruto.
"Not boyfriends, but I learned the ropes pretty fast, yeah. So I'd gone to this one particular gig that night and afterward had gone to a club with some friends of mine. It was about 2 a.m., and I was pretty tired. I hadn't slept a lot the past week, so I decided to leave early. And I left alone."
Naruto noticed the way Sasuke's brow furrowed but kept quiet and listened.
"And as I was walking down an alley toward a bus stop, I got jumped by a group of thugs who knew where I'd come from, so they called me the usual names like 'dirty faggot' and 'cocksucker'. I fought them off for a while. I'm pretty sure I broke the jaw of one and the nose of another and kicked a third guy in the crotch, but there were four of them. I saw people pass by on the sidewalk, but these guys beat the shit out of me and left me there. It was 20 minutes before someone found me and wanted to call an ambulance, but I said I was fine and just took the next bus with my face and shirt all bloody and my one eye swollen."
Naruto sat up and gaped at him, feeling like he was so angry his head was about to explode. "Jesus Christ, Sasuke! What do you mean you just took a goddam bus? Didn't you think about going to the hospital? And why were people walking by? Why didn't anyone help you, and what the fuck were those guys doing jumping you randomly like that? Please tell me they're in jail somewhere."
Sasuke looked slightly taken aback by his reaction, but then he regained himself, features becoming open and patient again. "It happens. I'd heard of it happening to people, and I thought I could take care of myself. I didn't get a good look at their faces, and, at that time, they would've gotten away with it. Maybe community service, and had I gone to the hospital, my parents would've found out. I already felt guilty about them and me coming out, so I figured I had it coming and I dealt with it."
"What the fuck, Sasuke? I mean, like, how bad did they hurt you? Did they break anything? Did you have a concussion? What if they'd left and you'd died right there in some dirty alley? You fucking bastard!" Naruto crawled on top of him and straddled his waist, his hands on either side of Sasuke's head.
"I'm the fucking bastard?" Sasuke's mouth quirked.
"Take this seriously, would you?" Naruto yelled. "I'm ready to punch a hole through your wall right now!"
"What good would that do? I'd make you pay for the damages."
"Yeah, well you're the one with the damage. Brain damage, dammit! Sasuke!" He crushed Sasuke into a hug. "You stupid, stupid jerk! Why would you do something so reckless?" He sat up again and put his hands on Sasuke's chest.
Sasuke grabbed his wrists. "Naruto..."
"No! I'm really mad at you!"
Sasuke let out a sigh and pulled him back down against his chest, wrapping his arms around him and squeezing Naruto tight. "I knew you'd get mad."
"Of course I'd get mad! I'm mad at them, and I'm mad at you, and I'm mad at your parents, and I'm mad at the world we live in!"
Naruto buried his face into Sasuke's neck. He just needed a minute. He needed to feel Sasuke's skin against his and feel him breathing.
"Sorry. I really didn't want to tell you that."
"No," said Naruto. "I'm glad you did. It's fine. I just... it's not what I was expecting, though I guess I should have. I'm happy you told me." He kissed Sasuke's throat and underneath his chin. "Thank you."
"Don't start crying on me."
"I'm not!" He said stubbornly even though his voice cracked.
"Aren't you supposed to be comforting me?" asked Sasuke as he rubbed his hands over Naruto's back and sides.
"No. You got on a damn bus instead of going to the hospital, so you were obviously FINE."
Sasuke chuckled.
"Don't laugh!" Naruto lifted his head and glared.
"I'm not. I'm not." He pushed Naruto's head down again and ran his fingers through his hair. "Ah, Naruto. You get so upset for everyone, don't you?"
"No. I just... I wish the world was more fair and, why can't we all be equals? Why do we have to make life miserable for other people all the time for no real reason? I wish I could get a hold of every one of those people and knock some sense into them."
"So I observed when we bought the wine."
"That guy was out of line! He had no business talking to you like that!"
"Hm." Sasuke pressed his lips to the top of Naruto's head. "You can't fight everybody all the time. Some people aren't worth it."
"I want to be able to. I really do."
"I know," Sasuke replied softly and brushed his fingers tenderly across the back of Naruto's neck. "I'm fine. I learned from the experience. Whether you agree or not, I'm happy I didn't tell my parents about it. They would've worried. And then they died a year later. I'd like to think that even if Dad didn't agree entirely with my lifestyle, he at least, at the end, knew I could take care of myself."
Naruto started to feel tears sliding along his cheek. Embarrassed, he buried his head underneath Sasuke's chin and tried to keep from sniffling. Sasuke continued petting his head. He didn't say much after that but just let Naruto calm himself. Sasuke didn't act like he needed reassurance, so Naruto didn't try to lecture him on how he didn't deserve such a thing to happen to him. Sasuke was very smart, so he probably knew.
"What about you?" Sasuke asked after about 15 minutes of them lying in each other's arms. "Anything you want to share?"
"There aren't many things people don't know about me," he mumbled, wiping at his eyes and cheeks furiously.
"Especially Kiba?"
"Yeah, he knows just about everything."
"Anything he doesn't know?"
Naruto exhaled deeply. "Yeah. But it sounds a bit silly compared to what you told me."
"I doubt that."
Naruto sat up and shook his head. Sasuke reached and fished a bit of eye goo out of the corner of Naruto's eye with his thumb.
"I need a drink first," said Naruto as he sat on the edge of the bed and nursed his wine.
"That bad, huh?" asked Sasuke.
"Heh. We'll see." He glanced over his shoulder. "Do you want yours?"
"Sure." Naruto stood and picked his up off the desk, then brought it over to him. Sasuke took it with a quiet word of thanks, eyeing him closely as Naruto decided to take a seat in the desk chair.
"Separation," observed Sasuke coolly. "Do we need space between us for you to tell me this story?"
Naruto squinted and pulled his legs underneath him. "I don't want you to think I need comfort, I guess. So, yeah, I'm putting some metaphorical and literal space between us, I suppose. Stop being so perceptive. No need to continuously brag or point out you're the smart one." He said this with a smile.
Sasuke took one of the pillows and hugged it to his stomach. "I don't know what to do when you're so far away though."
Smirking, Naruto switched the wine glass to the other hand. "You'll survive."
"You're just saying that because I told you I was left for dead in an alley and then took a bus home."
"True. I'm not too worried about you."
"Right, that's why you cried on top of me for ten minutes."
"I had something in my eye!"
"Mm. Yeah. Your tears."
"Shut up, you!" Absently, Naruto knocked the wireless mouse around where it sat on the desk, making the laptop screen jar to life. "Okay," he touched his chin with his forefinger. "There's one thing I can tell you that I never told Kiba about."
"Alright." Sasuke nodded for him to continue.
"On the phone, I told you Mom died when I was 12, but we didn't really go into it. I mean. I didn't want to go into it. I don't talk about it a lot. Kiba knows a couple things, but that's because he was around when I was acting out in school after she got pretty sick." He bit into his lip and swiveled the chair so he wasn't facing Sasuke. "Like, there came a point where hospice came in to help Dad take care of her, and y'know, she was so with it, even at the end, Sasuke." He met his eyes briefly and looked away again. "I didn't really get any of it. And I was mad at her sometimes. I didn't mean to be, but I was scared, and I remember that was the only time my Dad ever backhanded me was when I snapped at Mom." He swiveled the seat again and took a large gulp of wine.
Naruto continued, "I was thinking about her tonight, I guess. Like after we got out of Kiba's car, and I don't know where it came from other than having you and Kiba together like that and you two getting along, it felt like we were a family and stuff..."
"I wondered, but I didn't want to push you," Sasuke said quietly.
Naruto waved his hand. "How could you know? I get sullen, like Kiba said, when I drink. It happens. It's my fault 'cause I... didn't deal with it well as a kid. So, it got bad at the end, and her organs started failing one after the other because the cancer spread. She'd had multiple surgeries and had chemo and lost her pretty hair... but I mean, her eyes, they were... so alert and always so full of love. It was... hard to see her sometimes. Um, Dad and I were in the hospital, and outside of Mom's room, where she was hooked up to a bunch of tubes, life support. I didn't get it then, other than it was keeping her alive and breathing andwith us still. And Dad said: 'You know. Mom wouldn't want to live like this, she and I talked about it'."
Naruto gripped the chair handle and looked at Sasuke for a long while. He looked back at Naruto, holding his gaze. "I'm sure you can imagine how that went. I did kiss Mom goodbye, but I couldn't be there when they unplugged her so I ran out of the room, where one of our family friend's took me in for the night."
"I'm so sorry, Naruto."
Naruto smiled at him faintly. "She died a few hours later. It took a while. I know Dad stayed the entire time. When our friends took me home, I went straight to bed and cried. I locked the door and wouldn't let them come in, and I finally fell asleep. In the morning, Dad came and told me Mom had passed and went on about how peaceful and happy she seemed when it happened. I called him a liar and I ran right out of the room and out of the house... and I just ran... for a long time. I told Dad I hated him. I said all sorts of nasty things, and I ran away. I got pretty far. And I was gone a good day before the police found me. I never told anyone about that 'cause I felt pretty ashamed. Dad was there, but... I never told Kiba. Or anyone. At least the part about what I said to Dad, that I wasn't brave enough to stay until the end, that I ran away because I blamed Dad for Mom's death. I just didn't get it... the thought of pulling her off life support when... with her eyes she recognized me, even if she couldn't talk anymore. I knew she was in a lot of pain, too. Sasuke, I was so terrible toward her and Dad, and I ... didn't make anything easy for him. I didn't speak to him for months afterward. I ran away a couple more times after that, and I said I wanted to live somewhere else... And," He sighed and bowed his head, rubbing his temple. "It was rough. I think about her a lot. I get sad sometimes. I know there are lots of kids who've lost parents... you've lost your parents... and I'm whining about this."
Naruto didn't know when, nor did he hear Sasuke get up, but suddenly the glass was lifted from his hand. Sasuke put his hands on top of Naruto's head, and Naruto wrapped his arms around Sasuke's waist, pulling him in until his face pressed to the other man's stomach. He closed his eyes.
"I think that was all very understandable," said Sasuke. "You were a lot younger than me, and you had to watch your Mom be sick. And I'm sure we both wonder 'why'..."
Naruto nodded against Sasuke's stomach, tears falling on his bare skin.
"My parents died in an accident, and I blamed myself, wondering what I could have done to keep them from being there at that place, at that time. There have always been instances I thought I could've prevented it, but at some point, it gets a little easier."
"Yeah..." He pressed his fingers into Sasuke's back. "But I miss her so much, Sasuke."
Sasuke forced him to look up and knelt on the floor, holding Naruto's face in his hands. He brushed the tears away with his thumb and kissed him.
"I know you do." Sasuke kissed him again when Naruto searched out his mouth. "And I'll be here if you need me. When you want to talk about it."
"Sorry," Naruto said, wiping his nose.
"Don't be sorry."
Naruto sniffled, laughing at himself. He rubbed at the side of his face. "I feel so stupid."
"Well, you are stupid. But not for telling me all that."
He laughed again. "Asshole."
"Hn. I think we just had a moment."
"Yeah," Naruto said and sighed, stretching out his arms as Sasuke backed away, giving him room. "That's what I'd call a shared moment, for sure." He grinned at Sasuke. "Don't take this the wrong way, but... holy crap am I so fucking glad I went to Starbuck's that day and met you."
"Why would I take it the wrong way?"
"Because if you knew how much having you around right now meant to me I'd be afraid it'd freak you out."
"Ah. I see. But you're wrong. If you feel half as much for me as I feel for you, I think I could be very happy."
"I wish we were at the L-word stage." Naruto smiled and rubbed his neck.
"Mm."
"There should be another word for it."
"You fancy me."
"I do. I fancy you. I fancy you very, very much."
Sasuke laughed. "Good to know we're on the same page."
"Yeah." He bit his lip. "I'm pretty happy we are. Say something nice."
Sasuke took a step over to him and placed his hand on Naruto's cheek. "Naruto. I'm very happy to have you as a boyfriend."
The smile on Naruto's face almost hurt. He blushed hard and glanced away. "Mm. You, too. You're the best boyfriend I've ever had."
Sasuke gave him a playful knock to the head. "Idiot."
Naruto grabbed his hand and swung it between them. "How's this then? No one's ever made me as content as you do, and I don't want you goin' anywhere for a long time. Or ever. You're not allowed to leave my sight. Sound like a deal?"
Sasuke smirked. "Yeah. You have yourself a deal."
They were in the kitchen. Sasuke was making himself some green tea and some hot cocoa for Naruto to help them relax. The tea kettle whistled, and Naruto watched from where he leaned against the counter as Sasuke poured the hot water into each mug.
"Come over here slacker," he told Naruto and held out a spoon. "Stir your hot chocolate."
"Pssht. What kind of service is this?" Naruto said jokingly and stepped over to Sasuke's side to stir his own drink.
Sasuke bobbed his tea bag into the water a couple of times and then let it sink. "Mom used to make me tea as a kid. Not all the time, but on rainy days. I thought it was pretty special. A very adult thing to do."
"Mm." Naruto bumped into him. "And here I am drinking hot chocolate like a kid."
Sasuke kissed him on the cheek. "All because you wanted to swap our angsty childhood stories."
Naruto laughed. "I know, right? I feel like soon we should make an appearance on Oprah. Or, well, if she still had a show. I guess she doesn't anymore."
"Now we'd have to take it to Ellen," said Sasuke, turning so that his elbow was on the counter. "But maybe we'd get a new flatscreen out of it."
"I bet we'd get even more if we told her we're boyfriends."
Sasuke started to smile. "Say that again?"
"We're boyfriends?" Naruto grinned. He leaned sideways on the counter and clinked his mug with Sasuke's. "Is that nearly as weird for you as it is for me?"
"Not as weird as your hot chocolate moustache." He wiped his finger across Naruto's top lip and licked it off. "Feeling better?"
"Yeah. Less emotionally vulnerable and all that."
Sasuke nodded. "I'm glad."
"This gets easier, right?" asked Naruto.
"What do you mean?"
He shrugged. "I dunno. Is it just me or has this weekend been pretty emotionally exhausting?"
Sasuke took in a deep breath. "It has, I guess. Does it get easier? It depends. Some things will. It's a new relationship and a different type of one for you. For your Dad. For your friends. Although Kiba seemed pretty good about it."
Naruto put his head on Sasuke's shoulder. "I have good people in my life, and for that, I'm really grateful."
There was a pause before Sasuke asked, "Am I included in that, as well?"
Naruto searched him to see if that was a genuine question. He took hold of Sasuke's mug and set it aside. Putting a hand to his boyfriend's chest, he pushed him against the edge of the counter. "Get up here."
Sasuke raised an eyebrow. "Bossy, aren't you?"
Naruto smirked. "You said you like it when I get all butch on you, now got up here." He gave him another push until Sasuke hopped onto the counter. Naruto squeezed between his legs, hands on Sasuke's thighs. "You know how I feel about you, right?"
"I have some idea that you find me tolerable," answered Sasuke as he slid Naruto's hair behind an ear and, with his thumb, traced the curve of Naruto's jaw.
Naruto moved his hands behind Sasuke, loosely grabbing at his ass while Sasuke eyed him curiously.
"I've never known someone I genuinely wanted to be with every second of the day," said Naruto. "Or, like how being with you makes me feel incredibly calm inside. As guys go, I guess I'm a bit of a romantic. I always got more out of being with someone long-term than I did dating around, but I've absolutely neverfelt this way with a girlfriend."
"What way is that?" Sasuke asked, his expression perfectly serious.
"Hm. What will you give me if I tell you?" Naruto smiled and moved his hands back to Sasuke's thighs.
"My ass." Sasuke smirked.
"Really?"
Sasuke leaned forward. "Really. If you want it. It's yours to have."
"Hm." Naruto dabbed his lips with his tongue. "I'd hate to turn down such a generous offer."
Sasuke took hold of the sides of his face, lifted his chin and kissed him in a leisurely manner. Naruto's hands snuck around to his ass again, guiding him toward the edge of the counter until Sasuke wound his legs around his waist.
When they stopped kissing, Sasuke asked, "How do I make you feel, Naruto?" He kissed the tip of Naruto's ear and sarcastically added, "Besides horny."
Naruto chuckled. "I'm pretty sure that you and I were supposed to meet. I think maybe, not that I've ever thought about other lives or whatever, we surely passed each other in at least some of them, and each time, you were always important to me."
"You sound sure of this," observed Sasuke.
"I don't think I've ever been more sure of anything in my life."
"Hm."
"So what now? Do I throw you over my shoulder and carry you off to the bedroom?"
"You're probably too weak to manage that," Sasuke said with a smile.
"Oh ho, is that a challenge, Uchiha?" With a grunt, he lifted Sasuke off of the counter, with Sasuke too surprised to react right away apparently.
He got as far as the kitchen threshold before Sasuke asked incredulously, "Are you really doing this?"
Naruto gave Sasuke's ass a slap since it was right next to his face. "It's how the cavemen did it all those years, right?"
"I'm thinking: not exactly. By the way, this is a rather lovely view. Your pants are low enough that I can see your ass crack."
"Good for you," said Naruto. "Usually I'd charge people for something like that."
"Mm. And what are your hourly rates?"
"You couldn't afford me," said Naruto as he entered the bedroom and threw Sasuke onto the bed.
Sasuke landed with a bounce onto his ass. "I don't know about that. I'm pretty sure I have some loose change around here somewhere."
"Ha ha." Naruto perched on the foot of the bed, grabbed for Sasuke's ankles, and yanked him forward. He crawled over him on hands and knees, staring down at Sasuke, who looked incredibly amused by the whole situation. At least until Naruto, in a quick, unexpected move, hooked his arms underneath Sasuke's knees and pushed forward, bending him not quite in half but close. With his hands planted on the blankets, Naruto can't say he minded the look of astonishment on Sasuke's face.
Naruto nuzzled his neck and kissed his skin. "Don't look so shocked, Sasuke," he said in a voice that rumbled. "I'm used to being the aggressive one in the bedroom."
Sasuke wet his lips, his voice as husky as Naruto's. "Is that so?"
Naruto nibbled his ear. "That's so." He grabbed Sasuke's legs and forced them around his waist, letting his weight fully fall on top of him. "I'll make you move how I want you to."
Sasuke used Naruto's hair to yank him down until their lips touched. "That may be how it went with all of those women you've slept with, but keep in mind that just because you're the one doing the fucking, doesn't mean I'm incapable of making you beg for it."
"Sasuke," he whined against the other man's lips and gave him a rough kiss. "I'll be happy to beg for anything you're willing to give me. So, just where did you put that 12-pack of condoms?"
Sasuke withdrew his legs from around him, a light flush covering his chest and cheeks. Naruto followed the way Sasuke's hand traced a path down the middle of his own stomach, stopping when it reached the waistband.
"Surely they're not in your pants?" asked Naruto, grinning. "Should I do a search?"
Sasuke laughed and, with some effort, sat upright. He touched Naruto's shoulder and traced over the muscles of his arm, down to his wrist. "I'll get everything we need. Give me a second."
Sasuke got off of the bed and went into the bathroom, where Naruto could hear him opening one of the drawers. When he came back in, he threw a couple of condoms and a couple bottles of lube onto the bed. Naruto picked up the lube and read the labels.
"Ah, this is something I didn't have to use very often," said Naruto, scratching the back of his head.
"Well, welcome to your first lesson. Lube is your new best friend."
"Heh."
"This one," Sasuke pointed to the Astroglide, "is water-based. It's perfectly fine but you have to re-apply it frequently. The other," he picked up the one called Wet Platinum, "is silicone based. It's messier, but it lasts longer."
Naruto looked at him. "Which do you prefer?"
Sasuke handed him the Wet Platinum and smirked. "I don't mind if it gets messy."
Naruto bit into his lip. "So how does this work?"
Sasuke took the bottle of lube they wouldn't be using and put it on one of the side tables. "Like you said this morning, you stick your dick in my ass and fuck me with it."
"Sasuke," he said, his brow furrowing. "You don't bottom very often, and I was reading on the Internet that - "
"You did research?" asked Sasuke.
"Of course I did. I've never fucked a guy in the ass before."
Sasuke came toward him on his knees and put a hand on his shoulder, gently kissing him. Naruto felt a hand trail down his chest and stomach before it sneaked under the waistband of his pants and underwear. The fingers wrapped around him started to pump. He sucked in a sharp breath as Sasuke leaned against him and sucked behind his ear as his hand continued to stroke the way he liked it. Naruto's arm went around Sasuke to pull him closer.
"Let's work on getting you hard first," Sasuke said against his ear, "Then you put on a condom. We'll go from there."
A few minutes passed and, slowly, Naruto pulled out, holding onto the condom. He got off of the bed and went into the bathroom to toss it into the trash bin. Taking one of the washrags from off of the counter, he ran some warm water over it. He cleaned himself off first and then grabbed another rag to take out to Sasuke. Sasuke was still on his back, his hand resting on his stomach, and the other arm covering his eyes.
Silently, he went about cleaning him up - his thighs, his cock and balls, and the bit of lube that glistened on his crack still.
"Doing okay?" he asked Sasuke when he hadn't said much of anything for a while. "It doesn't hurt, does it?" He crawled to him, gazing at Sasuke with concern, and removed Sasuke's arm from over his eyes. "Sasuke?"
Sasuke's arms immediately went around him and pulled him down into an embrace. "Naruto..."
"Hm?" Naruto kissed his throat, his cheeks, and around his collar bone.
"I am... fucking exhausted."
"I should say so. You came really hard twice."
Putting a hand on his chest, Sasuke pushed him up, searching his face, and then dragged him into a slow kiss that carried on for several minutes, Naruto's hand stroking Sasuke's side all the while and eventually perching at the sharp jut of his hip.
"I fu~cked you," he sing-songed.
Sasuke covered his face. "Shut up, you idiot. My ass is well aware of it."
"Mm."
Sasuke moved his hand. "How was it... for you?"
Naruto rubbed his lips together, thinking. "...I didn't think it was terribly different. I couldn't think about anything really... except you. It felt... pretty natural, I guess? More so than I expected?"
"See. You'd probably fuck anything, you damn hetero Neanderthal."
Naruto chuckled and pressed his lips to Sasuke's temple. "Not true... now I don't wanna fuck anything but your tight ass."
"If you do that, it won't be so tight anymore."
Naruto laughed against him. "Holy shit, Sasuke, I cannot believe that just happened."
"Hn."
"What happens next?"
Sasuke stifled a yawn with his hand. "We sleep. Three orgasms in one night is my limit."
"Fair enough," Naruto shrugged and collapsed onto his stomach at Sasuke's side.
Sasuke grabbed hold of his hand, looking over at him with affection. Naruto smiled.
"So this was fate, huh, Naruto?" Sasuke asked, grinning tiredly.
"Yeah," said Naruto, squeezing the hand in his. "I think so."