Chp 36 - Epilogue
A/N: This is the last chapter of the story. I know it took forever to get these last 2 chapters up, and I'm sorry. What's important though is now they are up, and you all can enjoy them! I'll update my other stories as time persists. Have a good one! Enjoy! And remember to review! :D
I sat by the hospital bed in which Kurama lay. He's been out for a week now. Nothing kept me distracted. All I thought about was my feelings for Kurama and the events of the last three years. I was forced to kill a Mamoru whom I could have fixed, and while it hurt, I managed to stay okay in the end. Things were never going to be the same again. Chibi Usa has been set free, and I liked to tell myself she was with Mamo-chan, wherever he may be. The thought comforted me. I kissed Kurama's hand and left the room.
I made my way to Koenma's office, and I asked for a portal to a lake I've seen in the books. I loved it even more in person, and I just knew I would have to show Kurama when I got the chance. Mountains surrounded me, the clouds close enough to feel I could touch them. The single piece of land slimmed as it reached an island in the very center, and large rocks sat around the island, and they were big enough to sit on them as well. Long, skinny trees of all kind stood around the area, adding to the mysterious cloudy look. I made my way to one of the rocks and made myself comfortable before pulling my knees up to my chest and watching the water. Many tiny fish floated underneath me, and I smiled as I let them nibble at my fingers. It tickled slightly.
I had asked Koenma not to tell anyone where I was as I wanted to be alone. I needed the time to think, and I was tired of being cooped up in that stupid house. Memories of all my years as a scout played in my head slowly leading up to now. It felt like tears would escape my eyes, but they wouldn't. I sighed heavily and spoke to the fish, playing with them. I heard a meow from behind me and said a hello to Luna. "I asked him to not let anyone through."
"Don't get mad at him. I insisted he let me go to you in case you needed a friend. Don't worry though. No one else is coming."
"That's what he said the first time."
Luna moved to sit beside me on the rock and rubbed against me. I assumed she intended to console me. Admittedly, it helped. "You have grown up so much, Usagi-Chan. It's hard to believe really. Remember the day we first met? You saved me from those annoying kids, and I thought you were the laziest, most childish person in the world. You cried and complained about everything; you were scared of everything, and you hated doing anything but sleep and eat. When you found us that day, and as I watched you the last few weeks, I realized you aren't that 14 year old girl anymore. You're a junior in high school, and while you still have your moments, you do know how to take charge and contain yourself. I just want you to know that we are all very proud of you, even Mamoru and Chibi Usa, and we all want you to be happy."
I smiled and scratched Luna's ears. She purred. "Luna, I'm happy to have everyone back. So much has changed the last few years, and I knew if I wanted you guys back I would have to toughen up and get through it all. I've made some wonderful friends, so much so that I consider them family. Despite losing Mamoru and Chibi Usa though, I think I'm okay."
"You're so strong and independent now. Do you love Kurama?"
"I don't know. Maybe. I feel like I could. I just don't want to rush into anything. I just lost Mamoru, the man I love whom I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with, is now dead."
"Usagi, it's been a month now. I get you're still confused and figuring things out. You're young. You have your whole life to do that… sort of. Stop worrying about it and just let things happen. Mamoru is watching over you, and he wants you to be happy."
"I know. I can feel him watching me, and it is nice." Luna eyeballed a fish and jumped in the water at it. She played with it, and I laughed at the fish frantically trying to get around Luna and escape. "What are you going to do now that everything is over?" She asked between fish swipes with her paw.
"I don't know. I can't go home, so I figured I would stick around with Koenma and help him with his stuff. I mean it isn't like we have anymore enemies that suck out energy and steal hearts right?"
Luna jumped back onto the rock and into my arms; she licked my cheek in appreciation, and I squeezed her gently. "Kurama will be okay you know?"
"I know. I still have my faith. He's just having an extra long dream. I wonder if he is dreaming about donuts and me." I practically felt the hearts popping from my eyes.
Luna laughed. "And there she is. I'm glad some parts of you will never change."
"It's already been four hours. We should probably head back. Thanks for talking to me Luna. I've missed our conversations."
"Of course Usagi. You're my best friend. That's one of many reasons why I am here." She chuckled. I picked her up and carried her through the portal to Koenma's office. After thanking him, we made our way back to the living room. For the first time since I started living there, no one was around. "I wonder where everyone is?" I shrugged at Luna's question. I carried her to my room, and we got comfortable on my bed.
"I think it is nap time. If anything changes, they'll get me." I yawned and peacefully fell asleep.
"Usako," I found Mamoru standing behind me, and I gasped.
"Mamo-Chan, what are you doing here? Am I dreaming?"
He stepped closer to me, smiling, and gently brushed some of my hair back. "You were always so beautiful. I am glad to see you are happy."
"I miss you, Mamoru. I miss you so much." Tears streamed down my face as I threw my arms around his waist, hugging him tight. I feared if I let go, he would disappear.
"I was allowed to enter you dream and tell you something. I know you're worried about falling in love with Kurama, and I know a part of you feels guilty about it because of me. I wanted to tell you not to feel guilty about anything. Kurama is a good man, and if I can't be the one to take care of you on Earth, I would much rather it be him." It felt like someone dumped a bucket of water on my and washed away all my thoughts and worries. He really knew me better than anyone else.
Tears fell faster now, and I looked up to meet his gorgeous eyes, "I don't want to betray you. I feel if I fall for someone else, you're going to think I never loved you."
"I know you love me, and you always will. I am in your heart, as you are in mine. I look forward to the day we can meet again. Besides, we never die right? We will just be reincarnated someday, and we will live our lives together the correct way."
I smiled and stood on my tip toes, leaning up to kiss Mamoru on the lips. The kiss was sweet and soft, and his lips felt familiar against mine. Shortly after, we broke the kiss, and beamed happily at each other. "I will always love you Mamo-Chan. If I ever have kids someday, I already know what to name them."
"What would that be?"
"If it is a boy, I will name him Mamoru. If it is a girl, I will name her Usagi. Your memory will live on through me, and you're right. I will always love you, and I want you to always know that." His smile grew sweeter, if that was even possible, and he kissed me once more, this time it was just a peck.
"I must go now. You are being awakened. I love you, Usako."
"I love you too, Mamoru."
"Usagi… Usagi!" My eyes fluttered open, and I saw Rei standing above me, shaking me by the shoulder. "Thank goodness. I didn't think you were going to wake up again." She laughed. I sat up in my bed and realized my eyes were wet. Was I crying in real life? "Why are you crying? Did you have a bad dream?"
I shook my head and smiled at her, "No I didn't. Mamoru visited my dream. I'm 98% sure it was really him, too."
"What did he say?"
"He just reassured me about Kurama, and he told me he knows he loves me, and he wants me to be happy. He also said that we never die, and when we are reincarnated into our next life, we will live our lives the correct way. I felt a wave crash over me when he spoke to me you know? I could breathe and worry less afterwards."
She hugged me and left her head on my shoulder. I leaned into her. "I'm glad. I know how hard it is on you. It's hard on all of us. We all love you."
"I know Rei-chan. I love you guys too. I think I'll go see Kurama now."
"Actually, I need you to come with me. Kurama can wait a few more minutes." I gave her a look of confusion; however, she merely pulled me up by my hand and dragged me behind her to wherever she wanted me to go.
"Rei, where are we going?"
"Just wait, you'll see."
We got to her room, and she tied a blindfold on me. "Rei! What are you doing?"
"Shhhh, just trust me okay? Now. I'm going to change your clothes and do your hair. Just relax and be quiet."
"Be quiet, I said." She interrupted me.
"I really want to—"
"Quiet! Or I will tie your mouth shut!" She barked. I finally stopped talking and did as she instructed. Hours later, I think, she finally had me walking again. She had to guide me though as I remained blindfolded. We exited the house, and I could tell grass was underneath our feet as we walked. Hours later, I think, we finally stopped. "Okay, are you ready!?"
"I've been ready." I retorted.
Moments later, I felt the blindfold slide off, and I opened my mouth in surprise with my widened eyes. The scenery in front of me was beautiful. We stood outside still, a few miles from the house. A wooden stage was set up a few feet from me, and many short tables big enough to seat about four people settled in front of the stage. The tables were already set up for dinner, and silver tablecloths covered the tables and chairs respectively. Hanging, somehow, were strings of white lights. The sun set in the distance, giving the area a glow, helping its beauty shine even more. It's so beautiful. Off to the side, were all my friends: the inner senshi, outer senshi, Yusuke, Kuwabara, Hiei, Koenma, his blue ogre, and there was Kurama. I performed a double take. Kurama. "Kurama!" I shrieked and ran at him, throwing my arms around his shoulder. He made a "umph" sound, but put his arms around my waist and swung me slowly. "When did you wake up? I'm so glad you are awake! How did you get here? Should you even be out of bed? What are all the decorations for?" Questions flew from my mouth until he put a finger to my lips, shushing me.
"I can't answer your questions if you won't breath and allow me a moment to do so. I woke up a few hours ago, but I wanted to surprise you. Clearly, you are. The decorations are a celebration for you. Your senshi friends say it is because you have grown up, but in reality, it is because Akira is finally dead, and we can all live in peace." He pecked my lips and smiled my favorite smile.
I stuck my tongue out at my Senshi friends and slowly inched my way toward the food table. "I can never turn down food…. I call first dibs!" I yelled and ran to the table to begin my plate.
Rei yelled at me, "Hold up you pig! You are supposed to be your newly-grown up self and share that food!" She ran behind me and gathered food as fast as I did. Everyone sweat dropped, waiting until we finished grabbing our dinner and eventually joining us. I sat at a table with Kurama, Rei, and Koenma. Luna and Artemis were at our feet waiting for food to fall. I felt bad for them though and got them a plate of fish each. The night was lovely, despite my many arguments with Rei and Hiei. I couldn't have asked for a better family.
I stood and tapped my glass gently, "Guys, can I get your attention momentarily please?"
"Such proper language…" Rei mumbled. I glared at her but ignored it.
"As you all know, Akira is dead. That kind of sucks because now I have to decide what to do with my life. Of course I will finish high school, and with Ami's help, continue passing and keeping my grades up," I joked. "I have talked it over with Koenma though, and I am going to stay at the house with the two butt scratchers, lover boy, and the idiot. "You boys have done so much for me, and I will spend the rest of my life repaying that debt. Especially you Koenma. Without you, I wouldn't be where I am now with my best friends. As for my Senshi, you all have been there for me since I first met each of you, even you Rei. I know it has been 3 years since you disappeared, so there probably isn't much left for you at home, so Koenma is offering to let you stay with us at the mansion so long as you join the Spirit Detective team and make my life less miserable….just kidding about the miserable part. I couldn't ask for better friends, and whatever you decide to do, I'm always here if you need a friend just like you are for me."
I left everyone alone to think about the offer but turned my attention to Kurama after sitting back down. "Koenma, Rei, would you please give me a moment with Kurama?" They nodded respectfully and left the table. Kurama smiled at me, but I could see the pain I had caused him in his eyes. I slid my chair closer to him and grabbed his hands. "I said a lot of hurtful things during that battle. I owe you an apology."
"Don't b—." Before he could finish, I mimicked his earlier trick and put a finger to his lips to shush him.
"Let me finish. I owe you an apology, and I know I don't deserve your forgiveness. I also owe you the truth. Mamoru visited me in my dream last night. It was a good visit, and I felt much relief after talking to him." I moved closer to him, close enough so that he could feel my warmth against him. "Mamoru will always be a part of me and hold a piece of my heart; however, I think I may be in love with you. We're both young and have our whole lives ahead of us, but I would really like to see where we end up." His smile grew wider and more genuine at my words.
"Are you sure? I don't want you to do anything you're uncomfortable with. I really just want you happy." Instead of answering, I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his in a passionate kiss. He responded by placing his hands on my waist and pulling my closer while my arms went around his neck.
"Get a room you guys." Yusuke said in disgust, walking up to our table. Kurama and I separated immediately, both of us blushing. "It's getting late, so we are probably going to wrap this party up soon."
I stood and offered to help clean the place up. Yusuke argued my idea at first but soon welcomed it when he realized everyone else had left, not willing to help with the cleanup. Kurama stayed behind and helped us as well. We spent the time making jokes and talking, and for the first time in a long time, I felt relaxed with myself. Hours later, when we finally returned to the house, everyone had one more surprise for me. They dragged me upstairs and showed me the countless rooms which had been added onto the mansion. "Wow, you guys are all staying here with us?"
"Well, we can't go home either. We just got back together, and even if we did leave, what would we do?" Makoto grinned. Minako, Ami, and Rei agreed. I turned to Haruka, Michiru, and Hotaru. Setsuna had to return to her duty of guarding the gate of time.
Haruka and Michiru smiled at me, "We will have rooms here, but I'm afraid we will be traveling for a while. Hotaru has chosen to remain here."
I moved closer to Hotaru and poked her teasingly, "Aww I get it. She couldn't stand not being here with Hiei."
Hotaru blushed and shrugged me off. "It isn't just that…"
Everyone laughed. "I'm sure glad we'll have more girls in the house. Now that the one on our team is taken, I'm going to need someone else to flirt with." Kuwabara announced. Yusuke cheered in agreement. I punched them both and took my friends up to their rooms.
"Here are you rooms then. Mine is the yellow door just down there. It's getting late, so I'm going to bed. Good night guys."
I had just closed the door to my room when someone knocked. I found Kurama waiting on the other side, let him in, and locked my door behind him. I pulled him to my bed, and we cuddled up next to each other. Neither of us spoke. We simply lay there until we fell asleep, both of us content with the others' company.
The next morning, Yusuke knocked on the door, "Love birds! Wake up! Koenma needs us for a mission!"
I yawned, making my way out of the bed. It was only seven in the morning. Kurama kissed my good morning and left for his room to get ready. As I busied myself getting ready, I couldn't help but think how content and lucky I was. I had some great friends, and I knew they weren't going anywhere anytime soon. I know for sure Kurama isn't going anywhere anytime soon. I'm not sure what's in store for any of us in the future. All I know is everyone is happy. Before going to see Koenma, we said our goodbyes to Haruka and Michiru, and we slowly made our way to his office, laughing and teasing each other as always. Life may not be the perfection we expected, but it was definitely wonderful still. We planned to make the best of it.