Disclaimer: let me put this in this way…. If they were mine, Holmes and Watson would be married.

Alert: probably OOC, I'm not really sure

A/N or N/A: if you see a misspelling please tell me.

My dear Holmes

My dear friend, I know you're hurt. I know you don't want to know a thing about me. But I need you to know how I feel about you.

Since that night on my birthday I know how I really feel about you Holmes, I Love You. I don't know how this happened but I know that it happened.

Sherlock, I married Mary to escape from my feelings for you, but now I know that I can't. No matter how hard I try. No matter how much I try. I just can't get you out of my mind. I'm in love with you Sherlock, and I'm not man enough to tell you this in person but write it on a piece of paper of one of my journals.

Hopefully, you will find this, you will read this and you will understand why I did this, I love you, but it is not appropriate, is not well seeing, and is illegal. Plus I don't know if you feel the same.

I will be visiting you, and it will hurt me and probably it will hurt you but is the best for both of us.

I love you.

Yours now and always,

John H. Watson.