Thanks for the reviews! I've been working on a way to end this for a while and I finally settled on something I liked, especially the ending! Lucky for you guys it involves two more chapters and an epilogue. Here's chapter 12!


I followed Abby around the block to a nearby park until she finally stopped walking and took a seat on one of the swings.

"So you and Tony huh?" She asked as I took the swing beside her.

I decided to indulge her. If she wanted to talk about Tony, we'd talk about Tony. We would take the conversation at her pace.

"Yes we're together. He found me in Boston. Actually he was dating my friend Jane at the time." I admitted with a light chuckle.

"Yeah? So this Jane gets to know you're alive but not us? I used to be your best friend you know." She snapped kicking her feet off the ground to swing.

"I know Abby, and I'm sorry." I apologized.

"Sorry? Kate I thought you were dead. We all did." She shouted back getting higher and higher in the air.

"I know I hurt you, all of you, but I had no choice. Ari was after me and the only way to protect you all was to leave." I knew she was going to be the hardest; she was always the one who felt the most.

Finally she slowed down before coming to a complete stop. "Why did you come back?"

Her question was so abrupt it caught me off guard. "Tony found me, I couldn't hide anymore."

"So? Why did you come back here?" She pushed.

"I missed you, I missed all of you." I told her truthfully.

"Exactly, you were only thinking about yourself." She stood up and began pacing in front of me.

"Abby, I get that you're mad but-" I started only to get interrupted.

"No you don't. You don't know how many nights I fell asleep crying over you, how many nights I still do. You were my best friend and you're supposed to be dead." She yelled at me throwing her hands up in the air.

I got up and went over to her, grabbing her arms and holding them down at her sides. I looked her in the eyes before telling her, "But I'm not."

She held my gaze for a minute before replying, "Maybe you should be."

She broke free of my grasp, running back the way she came.

"Abby, wait!" I hollered after her, getting enough of her attention to make her stop. This was what I was afraid of.

She turned around to look at me and I could see that she was beginning to cry. "Just, go back to where ever it is you came from. I buried you, you're dead to me."

I stayed there frozen as I watched her run around the corner to Gibbs' house. Her words felt like a knife stab in the heart. My coming here was a mistake. I ended up hurting her more by coming back. I wonder if the others felt the same way? It would have been better if I just stayed in Boston. I shouldn't have let Tony persuade me otherwise. I couldn't let my love for him, for all of them, cloud my judgment. I knew they were alive and well thanks to Ducky, they all thought I was dead. She had a right to be mad at me. It wouldn't be long now for the rest of them to get over the shock of seeing me again to realize they were just as angry as she was.

After a while I saw Tony running towards the park only to find me laying down on my back crying on the park bench.

"Shh baby it's okay." He scooped me in his arms, rocking me back and forth as I cried into his shoulder.

"Abby hates me." I mumbled into his arms, soaking his shirt.

"No she doesn't. She's hurting, she just needs time." He assured me kissing my head.

I told him about our conversation. "She wishes I was dead."

"No she doesn't." He repeated.

"She told me she did." I reminded him.

"But she didn't mean it. She's just needs some time to process it all." He pulled me up and began walking us back to the others his hand in mine.

By the time we got back to Gibbs and Jenny's house the rest of the team was gone. We said our goodbyes too and went home as well, promising to try another group get together soon. One that we all knew wasn't going to happen. At least not as soon as we talked about.

We drove back to his place in silence which continued the rest of the day while we stayed in watching movies. By the time it was night again I had a plan set and ready to put in motion. I waited for him to fall asleep before crawling out of bed in search of pen and paper.


I'm sorry. I'm going back to Boston, please don't follow me. I don't want to hurt you, any of you, this is just something I need to do. I need time to think this through. I'll call you as soon as I do.

I love you,


I left the note on his nightstand where he was sure to find it in the morning before leaving. I never should have come back. I realized Abby was right, I was only thinking of myself. Now I just ended up hurting them all over again.


I know this was full of angst and drama. All of them wanted Kate back so bad they didn't care how it happened, but I do believe Abby would be the one to take Kate's death the hardest.

I hope to have the story finished sometime in April, I promise not to drag it out any longer. Thanks for reading, please review!