This Animal I have Become

Disclaimer: I do not own the song Animal I Have Become. 3 Days Grace owns it. I also don't own any of the Sonic characters. Sega does. I do own this story. Fell free to take if you like but give me credit if re-posted elsewhere. If you don't, I will think of something to do to you later. Scared? You should be. Be scared of the "animal I have become". Now sit back, shut the hell up, and enjoy a look at what's going on in the mind of Tails as he deals with his "human" way of thinking and his animalistic desire to kill as they start to fight each other for control. Obviously the animalistic need for killing desire is currently winning the war. Told from Tails' POV.

I have been through too much hell. I can't run away from it. It constantly hangs over me. 22 years of it.

I can't escape this hell

I've done so many things to try and forget about it. I've lost count of the things I've tried to make it disappear.

So many times I've tried

No matter what I do, it is still there. Trapped inside of me. I feel like I'm in a cage. Fuck, I can't escape this cage.

But I'm still caged inside

I need help. Someone to help me get through this. This is turning into a fucking nightmare. I need help.

Somebody get me through this nightmare

I'm losing control of myself. It's slowly taking over. This hell is starting to control my life. I can't stop it.

I can't control myself

My friends can see that something is going on. Do they know my secret? So what? I don't fucking care.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me

They can't help me change this. There is no god damned way this can be stopped. Not now. Not ever.

No one will ever change this animal I have become

I'm not a homicidal animal. I'm starting to believe this is the real me. I need help to stop this thinking.

Help me believe it's not the real me

I need help. I need to stop this. It may be too late, but I still need help to try and stop this.

Somebody help me tame this animal

Fuck. I need a cigarette and a drink. I can hear it in the back of my mind. Constantly hanging over me.

This animal, this animal

Bullshit. That's what this is. There's no escaping my desires. How can I get rid of myself? Fucking impossible.

I can't escape myself

My friends always ask me how I'm doing. I tell them I'm OK even though I'm NOT OK. Why worry them?

So many times I've lied

This shit is making me mad. I thought I was over the aggression. I guess not. Getting enraged.

But there's still rage inside

I can't do this on my own anymore. I need help with this nightmare. I need somebody to be here with me.

Somebody get me through this nightmare

The desires are getting stronger. I can't hold it off much longer. It's taking control of me. I feel it growing stronger.

I can't control myself

Do my friends see what's going on? I don't fucking know. They might. They might not.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me

They can't help me. No one can. No one can change this hell of mine. No damned way.

No one will ever change this animal I have become

Still, I need someone to help me see that this isn't really who I am. It's not really me.

Help me believe it's not the real me

I gotta try and control this. I need help. I can't do it on my own. Fucking bullshit. A losing battle.

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become

I can't do it alone anymore. I don't know who I really am anymore. Am I really this animal?

Help me believe it's not the real me

Damn it all to hell. I can't take this anymore. I can't do it alone. I can't control it anymore.

Somebody help me tame this animal

I really do need someone right now. Someone to help me get through this. Fuck this nightmare.

Somebody help me through this nightmare

My control is slipping away. Soon this animal will be in control. Killing innocent lives.

I can't control myself

This can't be real. Am I asleep? Someone wake me up before it's too late. Before the nightmare wins.

Somebody wake me from this nightmare

Things are getting worse. I'm losing weight and very hungry. Too afraid to leave house.

I can't escape this hell

I can feel it in my mind. Calling out to me. Telling me what I am. A constant reminder.

This animal, this animal

Fuck it all. I need another cigarette and drink. The voice is getting louder. Constantly reminding.

This animal, this animal

It won't leave me alone. I'm going insane. I want to die. Get it over with. The madness.

This animal, this animal

I can't take it anymore. The constant reminder. I already know what I am. Stop telling me.

This animal

Sonic came over. He knows. He tells me it's fine. He says he can help me. I tell him so what. I can't be helped.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me

He says it can be stopped. He obviously doesn't know then. I can't be helped. No one can help me. It's too late.

No one will ever change this animal I have become

He says he believes in me. He wants to be there for me. Help me get through this. Ignorant asshole.

Help me believe it's not the real me

He comes over and hugs me. He really and truly believes he can stop this. Too bad for him. Heh heh...

Somebody help me tame this animal I have become

I suddenly grab Sonic by his head and twist it to the left really hard. I'm not doing this. I would never hurt Sonic.

Help me believe it's not the real me

I look down on Sonic's crumpled body. Fuck. I need to stop this. I just killed by best friend. I gotta do something.

Somebody help me tame this animal

There's only one thing to do. I jump off of the cliff I'm standing on with one final thought before the impact hits.

This animal I have become

SPLAT!

END