I paced back and forth through my living room. Barney was the last person I wanted to see. Okay well maybe that was a big fat lie, but that's what I told myself. The truth was that I wanted to see him so badly, more than anything else, but I wanted to see a completely different Barney. The Barney who was far from married. The Barney who never came over "just to talk", no, I wanted the Barney who would be coming over to play battleship, or accept some crazy challenge, or watch a newly discovered Robin Sparkles video. That Barney was gone. Everything had changed.

My heart sank when I heard the knock on my door that I had been anticipating for ten minutes now.

Barney walked in without greeting me, looking down, and making his way over to the couch.

"Barney, what's going on?" I asked, not sure if I wanted to know the answer.

He looked up at me. "Why don't you tell me." I wasn't sure why I felt guilty, seeing him talk to me that way. Like I've done something wrong, fills me with automatic, un-called for guilt.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I said walking to the kitchen.

"Cut the crap, Robin. Lily told me." I turned around to see him staring coldly at me so close that I wasn't sure to be scared or aroused. "I can't believe you! You're in love with me? Robin, I thought we we're done with all of that. I thought that we could just be friends and forget our past."

"Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you, but unlike you my feelings don't just disappear overnight." I said as coldly as I could manage. I was actually pretty impressed with how well it came out.

"Overnight?" Now he was the one pacing. "You think that I got over you overnight?" He said turning to me, with finally what seemed to be something other than hatred. "Robin, you have no idea."

"You're right, I don't. I'm sorry that I picked Kevin. I did it because I was scared. I was scared of getting hurt by you. It was a mistake, I know that. It's just… I didn't love him like I loved you."

His face softened. "Robin, you know I could never hurt you." He said with more warmth than I'd seen in him in months, taking a step closer to me.

"You already have." I replied, trying to hide the tears that were beginning to surface. I ran out of my own apartment, through the hallway and into the rain. I didn't know where to go, what to do. So I just walked down the street, wondering how it came to this.

I didn't get very far before I felt a hand on my shoulder. My body was filled with warmth at the touch, which only meant one thing. It had to be Barney.

"Robin, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been so upset. I didn't mean to hurt you." I spun around to face him, trying so hard not to get lost in those beautiful, blue eyes of his.

"It's fine. I'm fine."

"No, you're not. Come back inside. I need to make sure that you are okay."

"I told you, I'm okay. I'll go back, just, I don't want you to come with me."

"I'm not leaving you like this."

"Like what?"

"You've been crying, and if I left then…" his voice trailed off.

"Then what?" I said, starting to break down again. "What would happen?"

"I care about you, you're one of my best friends."

"Is that all?" When he said nothing, I repeated myself.

I took a step closer to him, so close that our bodies were almost touching. "Is that all that I am to you?"

And then he kissed me.