Wooo another one-shot! This isn't the one I was talking about in my last A/N but this seemed like a pretty good idea when I started writing it. It just kinda happened... it's not even possible since 'Shinichi' didn't have a cellphone for a while in canon, not to mention Ran acts really wimpy and paranoid near the end... details, details...

Also Ran turned out pretty Tsundere... so hooray for my almost depressing attempt at Romance.

Sorry if it starts off kinda slow, I wanted to make it seem kinda real, ya know she calls him more in the beginning but as time goes on even though she still misses him she grows to understand that he'd be there with her if he could... or maybe she realized the truth but didn't want to say~ I'll let you decide which it is, please review.


Messages and Regret: What can never return

""This is Kudo Shinichi, sorry I can't come to the phone right now, I'm in the middle of a very important case. Leave a message after the beep and I'll get back to you as soon as I can."


"Shinichi, where are you? You've been gone for so long... usually you'd have solved a case by now. Is the case really that difficult? Can't you just give up on it, I'm sure the police will figure it out eventually with or without you to help them... oh on another note there's this little boy named Conan that's been living with me, he's really cute, and ever since he showed up my dad's been solving cases left and right, it's like Conan-kun's a good luck charm or something... Sorry I didn't mean to ramble. Hope to see you soon."

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"Seriously Shinichi! Is that case really so important that you can't even come home and visit? I'm sure you're working really hard but you've never been gone this long before so I'm starting to miss you... er I mean if you skip to much school you won't be able to move up a grade you know so you'd better come back soon so you won't be a grade behind me! I've been carefully taking notes so you can copy them when you come back.
I just realized that Conan-kun looks kinda like you when you were a kid, except he has glasses... maybe he's a distant relative of yours or something. He really seems to enjoy detective stuff and mysteries, I bet he'd really love to meet you sometime.
Well... bye I guess."

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"Shinichi! You finally came back but you left almost right away! If it was going to be like that you may as well have not even come back at all!
...Also you seemed really sick. Is that why you didn't want to come back? I thought I heard you scream at one point, just how sick are you? Are you working yourself too hard? Are you eating enough? Make sure you're getting enough sleep too. I know how you tend to neglect your health when you're working on a case!
Conan-kun said that you said to tell the police to hide the fact that you'd been there... but you always used to love the fans and the publicity that came from solving a case... is there some reason why you have to act like you weren't even there? I hope you're not involved in something too dangerous.
Please come back soon."

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"You've never been away on a case this long... what kind of case is it anyway? The only thing you've ever said about it was that it's important. Well what's so important about it anyway?!
I guess... there must be a reason you're not telling me, you probably just don't want me to worry, but don't you know that if you don't tell me anything I'll just imagine the worst? Promise you'll tell me what's going on next time I see you okay?"

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"How long have you been gone now? Months? It feels like it's been a lot longer than that. Haven't you finished with that case yet?
I really miss you."

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"Sorry just forget about that last message okay?"

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"Why didn't you tell me you were coming back?! I was so surprised when I saw you take that helmet off...
It's funny, I'd been starting to think that you were really Conan-kun, that a case had gone wrong and you had to hide yourself so that some criminal wouldn't come after you, but I guess that can't be since Conan-kun had been there when you showed up. Wouldn't it have been silly if that were true though?
You seemed a bit sick again earlier... you even fainted after you solved the case... are you sure it's okay for us to go out to eat later? I could always just go over to your house and cook something, whatever it is you want to say I'm sure it'd be fine to say it there...
Call me back and let me know okay?"

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"Geez, I didn't expect you to just disappear again. You just finished up with that one big case and now you're just leaving for another right away...
We hardly got to spend any time together...
And why didn't you just tell me about it up front instead of getting Conan-kun to do it? Did you think I was going to hit you or something? Well I will as soon as you get back, so you'd better be ready!"

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"Shinichi, it's been months now... haven't you solved that case yet? When are you going to come back?"

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"Fine! Don't answer me! See if I care!"

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"Shinichi. Hattori came here with a letter for you. Something about you messing up on a deduction... he's going to come with us and we're going to go check it out. I figured you'd be upset if I didn't tell you about something like this, I'll text you the address, come check it out if you have time... okay?"

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"Why'd I have to fall asleep all of a sudden like that?! Did you at least go to a hospital before getting back to that case?
I... I really wanted to hear that 'deduction' of yours..."

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"Hello?
Ah... it's just the answering machine again. Why would I even expect you to pick up your phone.
Anyway, it's been a while so I'm just checking in, how are you? I know you're not going to tell me anything about it but is the case going well? Hope to see you soon."

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"Hey Shinichi,
You'll never guess what happened today!
Dad and I were arguing over a strawberry and then a cat came out of nowhere and ate it. Turns out that cat belonged to a rich English woman and when she found out that Dad is a detective she invited us to England for a few days! She asked us so fast that I had no idea what she was saying but somehow Conan-kun understood, apparently he speaks fluent English -who knew?-, anyway so I'm going to England in a few weeks any particular souvenirs you want me to get you?"

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"Shinichi...
Why didn't you tell me you were also going to be in England!? God, I feel like such an idiot now!
Ugh... Just call me back, we need to talk."

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"Hey, um... I haven't seen you since that time in London... what're you up too?
Still working on that case I guess, I hope it you solve it soon. There's something I want to talk with you about."

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"That thing I want to talk to you about... I'll tell you next time I see you in person, okay?"

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"Oh, it's been a while since I got your voice-mail, you've been answering your phone more often lately.
Just call me back when you get this message... there's a case involved."

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"Shinichi have you finished that case you've been away on yet? You've been gone for so long... I really miss you, you know."

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"Sorry, I missed your call... and I guess now you're missing mine.
You said you wanted to meet me at your house right? I'm coming over now...
I hope I'm not too late."

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"Shinichi you liar!
I don't care if you don't want to tell me the real reason you've been gone for so long but don't just make up some ridiculous lie!
I don't ever want to see you again!"

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"I was a bit skeptical at first but all that stuff you said is true isn't it...
You were Conan-kun... you've been secretly fighting against a black-clothed organization. You had to keep it a secret because anyone who knew would be in danger but now that you aren't Conan-kun anymore it's dangerous anyway...
It's a lot to take in all at once but... I believe you. It all makes sense if you're telling the truth
.
Good luck, keep fighting!"

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"Good luck Shinichi, don't do anything too dangerous.
You aren't allowed to die while I'm still waiting on you okay?
"

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"It's been a while since I last called hasn't it? I guess it doesn't really feel like it has. Somehow I knew you weren't going to pick up this time either but I just felt like calling anyway.
Just call me back when you get the chance okay? There's something I need to tell you."

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"Shinichi, I'm scared.
There's this man, I think he's following me... he's wearing all black. I think he might be related to that case you mentioned.
What should I do?"

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"Come on, Shinichi, pick up the phone!
I'm not kidding, this guy's been following me for a while now... I think I saw him yesterday too, and who knows how long he's been tailing me without me even realizing.
I'm seriously getting scared here, why won't you answer, I really need to know what I should do about him! If he's involved in that case you mentioned then he'll kill me if I go to the police won't he?"

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"Help! Shinichi!
The guy in black... I think he know's I've noticed him...
Oh crap he has a gun! No! Shinichi please. Help!
bang
...click."

Beep... beep... beep..."

A tear threatened to fall as Shinichi put the phone down. He'd already listened to the voice mails nearly a hundred times over -if only to hear his voice again and keep his memory of her as clear as if she were still with him- he still got emotional every time.

Why did it have to end that way? Why did he have to be so stupid? He wondered, thinking that if only he'd done something different things could have ended more happily. Maybe if he'd told her his secret instead of guarding it so closely, or maybe if he'd payed more attention to how deeply involved she'd been since the beginning...

Who was he kidding, even if a chance had ever presented itself the words he'd left unsaid would have remained that way if only out of fear of the very change he now desired. Even if she'd hated him after learning his secret she might have at least been able to say alive... not that it mattered, it was impossible to change the past after all. The current result of his actions wasn't going to change.

He was just going to have to make sure the Black Organization would pay greatly for what they'd done. It was the only purpose that he had left in life.