Hey Guys I'm so so so sorry that I took so long! But I'm back, well kind of, it might take me a while to update because I'm attempting to write two stories at once. I'm not too good at that, well that along with school it just doesn't work well, i'm trying though. Anyways you should check out my other story, Welcoming the Heat. It takes place at around the same time as this one, but involves Jacob and Nessie.
So you know how I said that Embry was stuck with me, I forgot one little detail which I realized when I looked at the calendar this morning. I leave next week, to go to Boston, to live, and work, and live, away from Embry. Shit! How do I tell Embry this? I leave right before Kristen and Paul get back, but that was okay with them, it leave their house empty for only two days, I don't know what I am going to do though I have to tell Embry that I'm leaving in a week. I do have a life that I have to get on with, how could I have forgotten this?
Oh yeah I remember, I forget everything when I'm around Embry. He blocks everything out of my mind; he manages to make everything seem like it is alright and perfect. I haven't even realized that there is a problem in the world lately. Wow I can't believe just how much Embry makes me think things are perfect. I don't know what it is about him, but I guess that's one of the things that I loved about him, until now. Now I have to keep myself focused long enough to tell him that I am going to be leaving in a week, I don't think he is going to be happy about that.
Who am I kidding; Embry is going to be hurt, and mad. I have to tell him that I am leaving, again. I always end up leaving; I'm such a horrible person I don't know why he insists on falling in love with me? Why would he do something stupid like that!? Don't fall in love with me Embry, oh wait you already did and I'm about to do what I always do. I'm about to leave, I hate myself for this. I need to talk to Sam; he'll know what to do.
I quickly grabbed my keys and ran to my car my brother or his wife would know what to do. They always do though they are probably going to get sick of me always running to them, I'm going to have to start running to someone else, like Jacob. He's got enough problems right now though, like hanging out with Ness, he needs to realize that he can win her heart back.
The drive to Sam and Emily's was quick and before I even knew what I was doing I was knocking on their door. Emily opened the door not long after that.
"Kelly? Are you alright sweetheart?" Emily said looking at me worriedly.
"Emily can I come in and talk to you?" I say looking down at my feet guiltily.
"Of course." Emily says moving to the side so that I can walk into the house .When I walk in the quickly notice that Sam is setting at the table and he looks confused to see me as well.
I sigh and quickly walk into the house, sitting down at the table. I look down at my hands and not at Sam or Emily, I know that what I'm about to say is going to break their hearts too. Even though it may not seem like it, I'm very close to them. When I'm not with Embry I'm with them, I really do hate myself for making the decision to leave, but I can't change what I've already set up as going to happen in the past. Come on Kelly it's time to take a deep breath and be a big girl, you can do it.
"I have to leave in another week…" I said quietly looking down.
"What!? Kelly why is something going on with Embry? I'll kill him!" Sam said shaking slightly.
"No! Sam this has nothing to do with Embry, I have a job waiting for me in Boston. I have to leave; I just don't know how to tell Embry. He is going to be heartbroken. I really don't want to leave him or you guys." I say sadly, finally looking up and at Sam and Emily. You can see that they are upset. They don't want me to go, and I don't want to go.
"You're going to have to tell him Kells. I know it's hard, but maybe you two will be able to work it out. He's a reasonable guy and he really cares about you." Emily said softly, laying her hand on my arm.
"I know Emily I just wish that I didn't have to do this, I can't think of a worse thing to tell him.." I sigh.
"Tell who?" I look up and see Jacob standing in the doorway and smile slightly.
"Hello Jacob. Kelly, Sam and I were just talking I'm sure Kelly or Sam will fill you in unless everyone is coming?" Emily says.
"No it's just me." Jake says sitting down next to me and looking at me worriedly.
"Then one of them will fill you in, I'm going to start cooking." Emily said quickly standing up and starting to cook without another word.
I sigh and look at Sam who nods at me with a small smile.
"Jacob, Kelly has to leave next week. She has a job waiting for her in Boston and she doesn't know how to tell Embry." Sam said reaching across the table and grabbing my hand in his big warm one.
"Kelly? You're leaving again?" Jacob says sadly before shaking his head, "You know what, never mind. We aren't going to dwell on that. You're going to tell Embry then you two are going to enjoy the last week that you are here, we will all just have to make sure that everything works out from there. We should be able to do that right? Yeah we can, we are going to make this work." Jacob said throwing his warm arm over my shoulder and pulling me into a tight side hug.
"Are you sure that everything is going to work out? I feel like I am going to kill Embry by telling him this and I don't want to hurt him, I really don't." I say quietly.
"You're not going to Kelly; you are the most loving person I know. What is meant to happen is going to happen you and I both know this." Jacob says with a small smile.
"I know. Jacob you know this is why you're my best friend right? You always know what to say, you Sam and Emily. No matter what you guys always know the right things to say." I say with a small smile.
"It's the least I can do for my beautiful little sister. Now when Embry gets here you're going to talk to him." Sam says grinning at me.
"Talk to me about what?" Embry says walking through the door with a small frown.
I frown and hide my face in Jacob's chest, I can't do this. I can't face him. God he is just so beautiful and now I have to leave him. What that hell am I going to say, 'Embry even though I love you, I'm leaving and I don't think I'm ever coming back here again' I can't say that! This is just too hard! I hate my fucking life right now – wow I never thought I was going to say that. Oh well I have to face the music, or I can just hide in Jacob like I am right now, that's a nice safe thing to do. I like safe, no one can hurt you when you're safe, nothing can hurt you when you're safe. There is nothing that can go wrong when you're in you're safe zone. God I need to grow up and face the music…but I'm so safe..
"Kelly come on out sweetie.." Jacob says to me softly, rubbing my back.
"Kelly! Are you alright!? Baby look at me, I'm sorry I didn't mean to do whatever I did. I'm sorry!" Embry exclaimed taking me from Jacob and into his arm.
I quickly wrapped myself around him, hiding my face in his neck. I was going to have to leave this; I was going to have to leave him. I don't know if I can do this. I really don't think that I can do this, how can I leave the person who makes me feel so safe, so happy?
"Embry!" I say against his neck, holding onto him tightly.
"Tell me what's wrong sweetheart? You're scaring me." Embry says softly, kissing the top of my head.
I couldn't look at him; instead I just kept clinging to him. I know that I probably looked pathetic, but I couldn't leave him. I needed my Embry. I had only had him for such a short time and now I had to give him up, this isn't fair. God why do you hate me so!? Why do you do this to me!? Okay I know it's not your fault and I made this decision before this all happened but why? Why did I do something so stupid? Oh right, because I am stupid. God I'm such a fucking idiot. I hate myself sometimes, okay most times.
"I don't want to scare you Embry….C-can you take me home please Embry? Pretty please?" I say, my voice mumbled by his neck which it was still hidden in.
"Of course sweetheart, anything you need you know that I'm going to do anything to make you feel better." Embry said picking me up and starting to carry me out the door.
I calmed slightly when he started walking because I knew we would be alone when I told him that would make things slightly easier. I mean then I wouldn't have to break the news to him with people around, which would be slightly awkward to say the least. I only felt him stop moving for a moment to get my key s from Emily, who I'm guessing had picked them up off the table. Then he carried me out to my car and drove me to my house without saying a work. When we got to the house he picked me up and carried me into the living room so that we could sit on the couch because he is an awesome boyfriend and knows that I want to sit near him, though I'm guessing he also knew that I liked the living room because I'm Kelly and I love couches because you can lay on them and I'm a freak who likes laying on things. Don't judge or I'll do…something I don't really know what but I will come up with something.
"Kelly sweetheart can you tell me what's bothering you now?" Embry said softly so that he wouldn't upset me again.
"Embry I don't want to tell you this but I have to." I said sounding a lot more confident than I felt, though I guess I would considering I've been thinking about what to say the entire time he was carrying me around, yes I really am that pathetic. "Embry you know how my sister and Paul come back in a week? Well I have to be out of the house a week before they come back.."
"That's not a hard fix Kelly you can come stay at my mom's, I'll move out and get my own place or something." Embry said.
"I've already got what's going to happen worked out Embry…" I say quietly losing my confidence, I can't tell him this. God this is going to be hard.
"What is your plan Kelly? It can't be that bad."
"I'm moving to Boston Embry. I've had this planned out since before I came back from Germany, I was coming here then I had a job lined up in Boston that I was going to and I have to go. I don't have a choice; I leave in a week Embry. I have to leave La Push…" I say looking at my hands.
Embry was silent for a long time before he started shaking, "W-w-what!? You can't leave! Kelly you can't leave me!"
I blink shocked, I've never seen Embry so upset over something normally he'll be upset but then it rolls off his back. I figured this would be another one of those times, I apparently was wrong.
"I'm sorry, Embry I don't have a choice. I already said I would take this job. I can't back out now they are counting on me to be there…" I say quietly, for some reason I know that he is going to hear me. Embry has like super hearing or something, it's quite strange actually.
"You just can't don't you get it! I can't lose you! You're my fucking soul mate! I need you to breathe Kelly!" Embry said shaking even more.
"What are you talking about Embry; you're not making sense…" I say completely confused.
"You know how I told you that I believe those fucking legends and you laughed at me the one night we stayed up just talking?! I believe them because they are true! I'm a shape shifter and I have the ability to imprint and I did! On you! I can't lose you Kelly! I need you more than I need anything in the world I can't lose you!" Embry shouted somewhat desperately, yet he was still shaking.
"Embry, I don't want to leave you but I have to, it's just something that has to happen. I'm sorry, I already said I would do it, I'm really sorry, I love you, you know that. I don't want to leave you, but I have to. I have to leave you." I said sadly, unable to look him in the eyes.
"You don't understand! Kelly you're my fucking imprint! I'm a goddamn wolf and you're my life! I fucking need you around, the idea of you leaving is killing me, I don't know what I'm going to do when you're gone, it's going to kill me" Embry said, shaking even more and walking towards the door.
Wolf? Imprint? As in the legends that Jacob told me when I first moved here all those years ago, he can't be serious. They are all just jokes, craziness. I can't be that important to him, there is no way, desperation does make people do crazy things…
"Embry, I know you don't want to lose me, but you really wont. I'll still come back, I have to. I can't stand to lose you forever again, and I can't lose Jacob, or Kristen, or Paul, or Sam and Emily. I can't lose anyone that lives here so I'm bound to come back I just have to leave for a little while so you just have to let me go. "I say quietly, I really don't want make him more upset, it's killing me to see him like this already.
"NO! You can't leave, not again please Kelly…" Embry says shaking even more, looking at me desperately.
"I'm sorry, I have to Embry. I love you, but I have to go." I say quietly begging him with my eyes to understand, he has too. I mean he knows that I love him, I've made that clear, he just has to understand that no matter how much I don't want to go, I have to. At least just for a little while, I will be back.
Embry let out a strangled cry and ran towards the door at my words, causing me to get up and chase after him. He was shaking, more than I had ever seen anyone shake before, he was almost trembling. It looked like he was running towards the woods so I chased him, all of the sudden though. He wasn't there, what was there however a giant wolf, a grey wolf with black spots was. Embry just fucking turned into a wolf.
Oh my god I'm going crazy, maybe it's a good thing I'm leaving. La Push is making me go crazy, now even I believe Embry's stupid story about how the legends are true. I mean I think that I just saw my boyfriend turn into a giant wolf, that's not strange at all. Oh well, I think I should just go home. I can't handle this I really can't. Holy shit! The wolf is looking at me, well more like staring at me and he has the eyes. Holy shit! Those are Embry's eyes.
This is too much I don't think that I can't handle this…
"Kelly!" Who's voice is that? Wait what does it matter, it doesn't.
My boyfriend is a wolf….
That was the last thought that I had before everything went black.
There you go!
I'm going to do something different this time, I want you all to review and tell me what you think is going to happen next!
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