March 23, 2012,
It was so nice of him to share his most painful memory with a boy he barely knew. I don't know if I could have ever shared my own with anybody. I had been on this team for seven years and I still haven't told them the truth about myself. Well really only about six years with Emily on the team and a little less than that with Rossi. But still, it's hard to believe that I haven't told any of them. I know they would understand but it scares me. I have lived my whole life scared that people will find me disgusting, worthless and a whore, but on the inside I know I'm not any of those things. I did tricks to keep myself alive, to make sure I had food, water and a place to sleep at night. I'm surely not worthless, I mean look at where I am now; I am with the freaking goddamn Federal Bureau of Investigation. And I am NOT disgusting. I don't dress like a whore anymore, I'm engaged and I have a three year old son with my fiance. I have built myself a life that nobody can take away from me no matter how hard they try and I just wish I could try harder to tell the team my biggest secret.
- Yours Truly
Jennifer "JJ"Jareau (Shelby Merrick)