Chapter 4: Guilt

Hey guys! I'm so sorry I took YEARS to update this fanfic. The last time I wrote it I was 14. Now, I'm gonna be 17, heading my life towards a diploma in a subject that I don't even like… Anyway, hope you guys don't hate me lol. Thanks for the reviews and here's the next chapter.


The night seemed to drag. The moon and stars hung upon the sky, as if with no intention of waking the sun up. The only sound breaking the silence in the forest was the crickets singing their tune.

Kahlan laid in Cara's arms, not saying a word. There was nothing much to say anyway. They were both in love even though they were not supposed to. But to them, love is something that couldn't be forced. Maybe that was why Kahlan wasn't able to love Richard despite being with him for so long.

"You asleep?" Cara's voice interrupted Kahlan's thoughts. For the first time, Cara sounded… soft.

"No… I can't bear to sleep," Kahlan replied, snuggling closer to her lover.

Cara looked at her. "Is something wrong?" she asked.

Kahlan shook her head. "Nope," she said. "I just don't want to waste the night sleeping when I can actually enjoy your presence."

Cara could feel her cheek flushing red. Thank God for the darkness of the night for blanketing her facial expressions from Kahlan.

"It feels so wrong, Kahlan," Cara mumbled. "I'm sure Richard is suffering without you while here you are, cuddling next to me. I betrayed him…"

"Hey," Kahlan sighed, sitting up and putting her arm around the Mord-Sith. "I'm in love with you. And you're in love with me. Without you, I don't think I would ever know what true love feels like. It's not wrong to love."

"But it's wrong to betray…" Cara muttered. She pulled away from Kahlan's arm and stood up, leaning on a tree. "Richard saved me, by the trenches. And look how I repaid him by stealing his girlfriend."

Kahlan felt a sting of guilt in her heart when Cara said that. However, she chose to ignore it. "Cara," she whispered, standing up and placing Cara's hand on her chest. "You feel that heart beating?"

Cara furrowed her eyebrows but she nodded to acknowledge her.

"That heart was long dead, you know, upon seeing all the violence that we had to go through, having to stay with Richard even though I don't love him like he loves me. But somehow, you managed to kick start my heart. I'm alive because of you. And I'm willing to fight for this love, babe. So all I'm asking for is to be brave. Don't be afraid to love me. I'm sure Richard will understand."

Cara stared at the Mother Confessor, contemplating to stay loyal to Richard or Kahlan. Gosh, why did I have to love her. She makes me melt like butter.

Kahlan caressed Cara's soft cheek. For once, her facial expression softened. Kahlan liked it better that way. Slowly, she drew herself closer to Cara's lips. She could almost smell the sweetness of Cara's breath. Finally, their lips meet and it was as if fireworks exploded in their mouths.

Both of them could feel the tingle on their spine as the goosebumps made their way up their skin. Kahlan gripped on Cara's tight leather suit, not willing to let go, at least not so soon. Cara, on the other hand, had her fingers in Kahlan's silky black hair. They wanted time to freeze, so that they could be stuck in that heavenly position forever.

"What are you two doing?"

As they broke apart from each other, they saw a man standing before them.


"What are you doing here?" Cara almost shouted in frustration.

"I was looking for you," Leo said. "What did you think I was going to do when you left me just like that?"

"I don't know, kill yourself?" Cara scoffed. "Because that would be a huge favour."

Kahlan stared at him, jealousy rising in her. "Maybe you should just leave."

Leo frowned. "I'm not leaving without my girl." He smirked at Cara.

Cara reached for her agiels but Kahlan stopped her. "One more time you call me that, I'll kick you in your balls so hard you'll have no descendents to pass your dick personalities to," Cara spat, fuming.

That did not wipe off Leo's smirk though. "Well, no offence to you Mother Confessor, but I'm pretty sure I can do Cara better than you can. Besides, guys just are better at sex than women. It's the way of things."

That was followed by a hard and stinging sensation on his chest because Cara finally struck him with her agiels. "Well, you can just fuck yourself," Cara raged and smacked him in the face, hard. He fell to the ground, unconscious. Cara gave him one last kick before pulling Kahlan away.

"Are you sure you really want this kind of life? Where everyone just insults you like that just because you choose to be with a girl? With me?" Cara asked.

"The only regret I will have is if I had never tasted your sweet, soft lips," Kahlan whispered.

A smile formed on Cara's face.

That marks the end of this chapter. I'm writing this during my term break so if the hiatus begins again, it means that my break has ended. But hope you like that chapter though!

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