8Sam's mom looks at Quinn and sighs "Quinn, I don't knot if they are going to let you go. They gave us a hard time and I'm very surprised we got to go see him. I just cant imagine the letting you go. And he is in really bad shape. He doesn't look like he used to. He's all banged up and-"
Quinn stops her "I want to see him. I will sneak in if I have to. Please just let me see him."
Quinn begs and as she says it, a nurse walks in, "Who do you want to see sweetie?"
Lily walks over to the nurse and tells her about Quinn wanting to go to the morgue and see Sam.
The nurse looks at Quinn and frowns, " Oh honey, don't you think that you've been through enough? Seeing his body, all mangled and bloody…that couldn't ever make you feel any better. Just rest in your bed and focus on healing."
But Quinn refuses to listen, looks at them and says sternly "I want to see Sam. I have some things I need to say to him. Please…"
The nurse calls in Judy and Nick and they all agree that if Quinn wants to see him then maybe they should just make her happy and let her go.
"I think Quinn is old enough and responsible enough to decide what she needs" Judy nods as she says.
The nurse tells them that they are going to have to ask security first just to make sure that Quinn won't get in trouble for being in there.
The nurse leaves for five minutes and Quinn starts slowly preparing herself for what she might see next.
She knows that Sam is in horrible condition right now, he's dead…like how good could he really look? But she doesn't care, she needs to see him the way that he died. It was important to her in a way that she could not describe.
The nurse comes back and tells Quinn that security suggests that they come in the morgue with her because Quinn isn't really supposed to be allowed in there with the dead body.
"No. No… I want to be alone with him. Please. They can escort me there and wait outside or something, I don't care. I just want to be alone in the room. Please"
The nurse nods and after figuring some things out the guards agree with Quinn and decide to escort her to the morgue only and they will wait outside while she spends her time with Sam.
As Quinn gets wheeled to the morgue, her whole body starts shaking and she keeps preparing herself for what she is going to see. She twiddles her fingers and takes deep breaths.
She doesn't think she is ready for this, but it is now or never.
The guard pulls up to the door to the morgue and opens the door for Quinn, "His body is covered with a blanket. They ask that you don't remove the cloth and keep it as it is."
Quinn shrugs and pushes the door open and sees a covered body laying on the table and she slowly wheeled herself over to it.
She stands where his face was and slowly grabs the two corners of the blanket and lifts it to see his face.
As she pulls back the blanket and reveals his face, she gasps and falls back into her chair, sobbing.
" Oh my… I-" she sobs and takes short quick breaths. She stands again and looks at his face, bruised, bloody, and as white as a ghost.
As she sobs, she brings her fingers over to his neck looking for a pulse, but she doesn't find one.
It is ridiculous but… A girl can dream right?
She bends down and presses her lips against his, crying hard. And as she pulls herself away, she sits down in her chair trying to calm down.
It was becoming hard for her to breathe but she managed to whisper, "I can't do this without you Sam. I need you!" she searches for his hand and laces her fingers with his and cries.
" I really need you. More than I have ever needed anything. I just don't understand why you had to go…" she sighs shakily and let's her tears fall, rubbing the palm of his hand with her fingers.
"This is the last time I will ever get to be alone with you. Ever." She sniffles and keeps rubbing his hand.
She finally gets enough energy to stand and she runs her hands through his hair. At that moment, a million memories start flooding her mind.
Memories of her and Sam. The best memories she has ever and will ever have. Their first date, first kiss, when she met his family, when he took her to see the ocean for the first time.
They had their bad moments too… their first fight, jealousy, old mistakes..
But in the end, it always got back to the good stuff.
She keeps running her fingers through her hair and giggles thinking of one of the many goofy moments she had with Sam, from a few months back.
" I wonder if you remember the time I had to cut your hair.." she laughs and tells him about what happened.
* FLASHBACK *
Sam was chasing Stacey around the house and they were both laughing like crazy. Quinn was sitting in the middle of the room trying to finish up some of her homework.
Sam caught Stacey and started tickling her. Stacey was laughing so hard, practically screaming.
"Sammy! Stop! I'm gonna choke!" Stacey giggles hysterically.
"Choke on what?"
"MY GUM!" Stacey screams at him and laughs.
There was no way that Quinn could concentrate with all the noise and laughter. But yet she couldn't help but giggle at Stacey and Sam.
But she had finals soon and she needed to get this homework done. "Sam…Please, Quiet down babe." She pleads.
Sam looks at Quinn and giggles, "Oh C'mon. Who needs homework when you could be having fun?!"
Quinn rolled her eyes and looks at him, "I do! Now please, leave your poor sister alone! She is going to choke! And you should be doing your own work, Mr. Carter is going to kill you. This is senior year baby! You need to do the best you can and try your best, that means you have to do your homework."
He gets off Stacey and crawls over to Quinn on his knees and presses his lips to hers.
"Fine, I'll try." He smiles and before he could get up, Stacey jumps on his back, "You're a meanie!" she screams and Sam laughs and tickles her waist and she starts laughing.
Her gum plopping down into Sam's messy head of light blonde hair, "Uh Oh.."
Stacey bit her lip got up and ran away into her room, "I'M SORRY!" she wails.
Quinn's jaw drops and she looks up at Sam's hair, "Oh dear…"
Sam looks at Stacey confused and looks back at Quinn with a lost look on his face, "What? What happened?" he shags up his hair with his hand, trying to fix any problem that Stacey could've created, but he only gets the gum even more tangled in his hair.
"No! Sam! Don't touch your hair!" Quinn warns.
Sam feels the gum and gasps, "Oh…My… Stacey!" he groans and looks at Quinn.
"How bad is it?" he asks panicking. She can't help but laugh and look at him.
"So bad! I'm going to have to cut your hair babe!" she laughs and walks over to him. Sam looks at her with a raised eyebrow.
"How is this funny?! This is horrible. I'm gonna kill her. And tomorrow when I go to school I'm going to look so stupid!" he groans and Quinn grabs his hands and pulls him to her.
"You will not look stupid! You will look cute like always, I'll fix it." She laughs and drags him to the bathroom, grabs a pair of scissors and looks at his hair.
"Oh wow, where do I begin?" Quinn jokes, Sam looks at himself in the mirror and laughs." Oh God I don't want to look!" he covers his eyes and laughs.
Quinn snaps away at the strands of hair with gum stuck in them and looks at him in the mirror.
"Oh…I'm going to need to make this look better somehow.." she giggles and cuts some more hair and runs her fingers through it and shags up his hair. "There! All better.." she giggles.
Sam opens his eyes and laughs, "Thank God I have a girlfriend because I would not impress any girls with this hair! I look ridiculous!"
His hair was all uneven lengths, it didn't look too bad but it was noticeable. Quinn turns him around so he's facing her.
"Yeah I'm going to have a hard time kissing a guy with that hair.." she laughs and he immediately frowns,
"What?! No fair!"
Quinn laughs hard and pulls him in for a kiss, "I'm kidding of course. It makes you look…dorky. But you're my dork." She giggles and kisses him again.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
By now Quinn was crying hard, but she keeps running her fingers through the uneven strands of his hair.
"And the next day, everyone stared at you and it was hilarious. I bet you remember it. How could you not?! You kept complaining about your hair for the next 2 weeks!"
She laughs and cries at the same time, "There are so many perfect memories that I will never forget. Ever."
She cups his cheeks, his cold, colorless cheeks. "I'm always going to keep the memories in my heart. Always. They'll be safe here." She sobs softly and looks up at him.
"Which reminds me, I wanted to sing one last song to you, with only us around."
She wipes her tears and clears her throat and starts to hum the beginning of the song.
She's already crying before she even starts, but she pulls it together quickly enough and starts singing.
"I remember tears streaming down your face. When I said, "I'll never let you go.When all those shadows almost killed your light. I remember you said, 'Don't leave me here alone' But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight"
Quinn takes a deep breath before she continues.
"Just close your eyes,
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound.
Don't you dare look out your window, darling,
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when the music's gone.
Gone"
Tears are streaming down her face but she still manages to finish the song,
"Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound.
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La, La La
La La, La La
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh, Oooh
La La ,La La
Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound..."
Quinn was grabbing his hand and squeezing tightly. "I hope you are here Sam. In spirit or soul or something! I need you to just be here. I need you to know that no matter what happens, I will never forget you. Our memories will be safe and sound in my mind and in my heart. I know that you were always there to keep me safe. You would never let me do anything dangerous, you just always kept me safe. And I loved that about you. But now your.."
She pauses and takes a deep breath before she continues,
"Gone…but that doesn't mean our memories will die too."
She looks at his body realizing that she can't stay here, talking to his dead body forever. She knows that deep down inside that she needs to let go.
"I don't want to let go Sam. I don't want to let go! I don't know where to go from here, what to do, I-"
She cries hard and continues, "What am I supposed to do without someone who was my whole life? My best friend, my boyfriend. The person I spent almost every second of every day with?"
Quinn starts to feel really cold and she looks around to see is someone has come in and opened a door or something, but she sees nothing.
She feels a cold touch on her cheek and starts looking around. "What was…" she looks up and around seeing words start to form on the blank computer screen.
She walks closer to the screen and reads slowly,
"Quinn, never forget me but let me go. You'll never be alone. I love you so much. Please don't cry anymore. – Sam"
Quinn reads it over and over again and starts to freak out" Wha- What?! Sam? Sam? What? How? Sam!" she starts crying and runs her fingertips over the words on the screen.
"Don't go Sam, don't leave."
After a few minutes of waiting for anymore signs from Sam, she gets up and nods slowly, "This is it… this is the end."
She stands and presses a light kiss to his forehead, "I love you Sam Evans. I love you, I love you and I'll love you forever and ever. I will never stop. You are my everything. I never want to say goodbye, I never can. But…for now, at this moment and time, I need to."
She sobs hard before whispering slowly, "Goodbye Sam"
She chokes on her sobs and hugs his lifeless cold body, "I love you."
I really hope that you guys like it! I am sorry that i havet updated in a while! i have been so exhausted and busy lately but i really wanted to get this done for you guys! I really love it when you guys send reviews, so maybe if you sent more than i would update quicker ;) I dont know if this is long enough... so just let me know! Flood my email with reviews! it would make me happy! Tell me what you like, don't like etc!
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Songs I have used:
Safe an Sound by Taylor Swift.