I ran away into the night. The darkness shrouded me like a thick fog as I ran far away from my house. I could hear the blood pumping through my body, my heartbeat echoing in my head. Once I was as far away as possible, I stopped running and allowed myself to take deep breaths. The "feeling" left my mind, completely.

"Liu…" I trembled slightly. Vivid images filled my head of what I had just done. I had killed my only brother. I was the one who took his life. He was never coming back to me. I let out a soft whimper. Why? Why did I do that? Why did I end him? He was the only one who understood me; The only one who would ever love me with all his heart. I collapsed on the soft ground, lightly sobbing, my face buried in my hands.

"Liu…" I repeated, holding myself. I called out for him, but of course, there was nothing. Just the cold of the night wind. I shivered and got to my feet. Blood and tears drenched me to the bone. I was a monster.

"Liu…" I would never see my brother again. He was gone forever. Tears ran down my cheeks like rain on a window. I glanced around, my vision blurred. I was surprised I was able to cry. My eyelids had been destroyed, so I assumed my tear ducts would also have perished. But, this appeared not to be true, at all.

"Liu…" I crossed the damp street and into the woods nearby. I was alone, now. Just a kid. A thirteen year old kid.

No… Not kid… Damnation…

"Liu…" I silently wandered into the thick trees, my tears glistening in the moonlight. I felt sick and dizzy. My brother, my parents… dead.

"Mommy… Daddy…" I didn't care that I sounded like a six year old. I just wanted them back. Why had I done this? What satisfaction would that bring me?

I felt a small amount of numbing in my mind. The feeling was returning, slowly, like a plague.

"No… Please…" I begged, the numbing beginning to spark inside of me. "Please… not again…" It did not stop. I panted and ran again, running to anywhere, like the feeling was chasing me.

"Please… Stop…!" I became frantic, tears streaming down my cut cheeks. I wanted to scream, but my throat was as dry as sandpaper. What hope did I have now?

The forest was getting denser and denser. My sobs got louder and more desperate.

"Liu! Liu!" Finally, I could take no more. I fell against a tree, panting and crying. I wanted to go home, but there was no family to go home to.

"Please… Please…" I gripped my head in my hands, shaking heavily. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I wanted my family back, but I had destroyed them. I was cursed to be alone forever, by my own hand.

"Why…?" I asked myself, rocking back and forth. The numbing in my mind was becoming a tug.

"No!" I cried, wanting to defy the feeling. It was no use. Trying to prevent it was like chasing a mirage. I continued the sob.

"Liu…" I looked up at the moon "Liu, I'm so sorry… Forgive me…"

My sobs soon turned into sick, twisted laughs, as I left the forest and my heart froze over, black and dead.