Lemons

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Dear Diary,

Today I received a lemon, this lemon had a hard end and it was yellow. I think it means something else, though. I found it hanging on my door with a string. When I walked down stairs there was a tree. It is the middle of winter, in our tropical paradise so you can imagine my surprise when I walked down and I saw a tree. It is beautiful there were cherry blossoms, hence making it a cherry blossom tree. There was a note hanging off of a branch.

When I read it, I was amazed at what it said in a way because I have been looking for something some sort of clue to what I should do. It makes me upset with myself sometimes because, now that the world has killed itself off, I feel alone with myself, like I'm not Maximum Ride anymore.

I have begun to lose myself. Slowly the days begin to feel like years like nothing I do works anymore. Ever since the world ended I feel detached like I'm watching myself live my life. I can tell people are watching me but I just don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I feel like I should do the jump without my wings, but that would be giving up.

When I read the note it changed me. It was from Fang. I went out on a whim allowing him back into me so easily, but maybe that's because I love him, I think. I haven't seen Dylan in fact no one has, even though he did help in the end.

Angel, I don't know what I'm going to do with her anymore I don't know if I should trust her. It just feels so surreal. Everything I do know didn't happen, everything stopped. I should be happy for Ella and Iggy though. They seem to love each other. They do everything together.

Nudge, Gazzy, and Angel, they found some other kids to play with. In a way they are kind of normal. We now live how we want, we don't have to worry about being captured and experimented on, life feels good. Or at least I think it does.

Anyway I should feel joy with the note, because Fang has been detached lately. I haven't seen much of him, he's always busy, which I should be skeptical about but I'm not. He wants to meet me at sunset at the palm tree. The place where I truly let myself fall back to him.

Fang's eyes were so dark, like the night sky. I couldn't see the gold specks, but I knew they were there. He had a light shining off himself, giving the impression that he knew something that I, in fact didn't.

We had a gorgeous dinner. Just the two of as having a picnic, I could have stayed like that forever. Sitting in his lap, with my head against his chest.

That was when he turned my I felt him grab for something, it was a box. I know that because of the light from the Chinese lanterns hanging from the branches. He pulled me to my feet, and kissed me on the nose.

I remember, not knowing, having a guess but it was all hazy. Fang then in one swift motion bent down, getting on one knee and pulled out a ring, saying words I think I knew he would my whole life.