Just a short drabble of Amelie feeling sorry for herself. Not much of a story, but I thought it was worth posting.

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters or Morganville, but I do own this story.

I'm so confused. I don't know what is happening, nor do I know why it is happening to me. We were meant to be together, but now he is gone. I ruined it because I could not see what was right in front of me. I missed my chance because I thought he was to good for me and I wasn't safe to be around. Now I have to live forever without him by my side. We are immortal and don't expect anything to happen, but it does. Where do we go when we die, I don't even know. I have not considered it because we are supposed to be immortal.

Life sucks and can be cruel. I've seen a lot of it, but this is the worse. I never even told him how I felt, though I think he knew. I didn't think I had ever felt true love, but I now realize that I did. I loved Sam, even though I never said it out loud. I really don't know why I didn't. He was always there when I needed him and I could always count on him to take my side. Now who will fill his place? I need a partner to talk to and someone who will always be there.

Now I ask myself, why am I mourning? I didn't get where I am by following my heart because the heart just gets a person, or a vampire, into trouble. I need to just shove this all away and move on. Come on, I'm the Founder of Morganville and the feared Ice Queen! I need a distraction to help me hide my sadness in public.

A distraction is hard to find because many don't want to be near the all-powerful Founder. So I turned to the one vampire who stood up to me time and time again, Oliver. That is how our relationship began, as just a distraction. Oliver is just a pawn in my game, or is he?

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