A/N: Just something that resulted from a late night listening to Treasured Memories from KH 1.

Feel free to sit down with Vanner Fyrwinde and keep the guy company while he vents.

I don't own KH, but Vann is...sort of owned by me.


Damn it.

If only I'd been fast enough...

...

Oh, hey. I, uh, didn't see you there.

Sorry.

I'm just...just going through a really hard time right now.

What, this?

It's a Wayfinder. A really, really good friend of mine... well, she made it for me, back when me and my friends were...

Well, we were all rookies back then.

Yen Sid told me it's been almost 12 years now since those first days.

Honestly? For me it's less; literally, it's been more than half that time.

About 5 or 6 years.

And that's just part of what's just...just so fecking unfair about all this.

I failed.

I failed someone I've pretty much taken in as a sister.

Aqua.

...No she's not actually my sister.

...

But she might as well be.

Oh, you've heard of her? Then you know what happened...to her.

Where she's...stuck...maybe worse...

...God...

Why couldn't I...?

...

...(sniff)...I-I was r-right th-there...

Right fecking there a-and I just...c-couldn't move...

She went in...she dove after Terra...

And...

G-God...

She never came back...

She's been trapped in that horrible place for twelve f#cking years!

All...all be-because I-I...I w-wasn't f-fa-ast enough!

I couldn't save her in time, don't you get it?!

Yeah, sure, don't blame myself, you say.

...

But that's just it! God!

Why...why was I such a doggone coward?!

I could've done it...just dived in after her and grabbed her hand...pulled her out before it was t-too late...

...damn it...

DAMN IT!

...

Sorry. That got away from me, didn't it.

...

...Sis...Sis, I'm so sorry...

I'm just...so, so, so sorry...

But I promise.

No, I swear, I swear I will come find you and bring you home this time.

It's the only way I can atone for what I've done.

I swore to protect my family...and I don't care if it's by blood or not.

A Warrior of Light like me never lets something like that go unpaid.

...

Look...I have to go.

It's late.

But thank you.

(snf)

I just hope I can atone...somehow.