Wow wow wow! I've never written something so long in my life!

Where to being...

Well let me start off saying THANK YOU! For ever lurker, follower, favoriter, and reviewer alike! You guys pushed me to keep going and I did my best for all of you! For those wondering the official count with no AN or responses it is 92,700 words. A little over but not much. MY GOD THAT'S A SHIT TON! I'm kindda in awe of myself for achieving that much and I have all of you to thank for it!

So my inspiration on this story...

I was really shaken at the intensity the manga took after Future Lucy was killed. It was like a blow to the chest of my own. And I was so stunned that NOTHING was said on it after everything happened. They win and that's that... I can't imagine my own life if something that insane happened and so that was what prompted this thought.

That's how it started. I wanted to delve into the fears and insecurities of seeing something so precious taken right before you. Yes like I said the intensity became outstanding but then it was just like it's over and ... I still hope some how it will come back and play out but who knows...

When I got past the first few chaps and dove into the humor I so love, things just kindda popped into my head and I ran with it... It was like all the crazy ideas on things came to the forefront of my mind and it went nuts! The nutty part was I didn't even touch on the dragons and where they've been when I actually had the chance to in the story... Only because well... I have to many ideas on that to have picked just one and ran with it... Someday maybe but not this time... But Igneel had to make an appearance and that's why he did... I think that amazing dragon would be where Natsu got his humor not just skillz and enthusiasm so yeh... I had a vision of him setting Lucy on fire and I let my plot bunny run free across my keys!

Then I got to talking to a few ppl about my home life and well a lot of my own story became this one.

If you've ever read my bio on here you will have seen that I relate to Natsu and Lucy on a personal lvl... Funny thing is my husband was that man-child long ago... Ok he still is... And I was the head strong I can do it myself one. And yes I still am... LOL

The short story of us... Best friends through High School. I was a grade ahead. We met his Freshman my Sophomore year. We did EVERYTHING together. If you saw one you saw the other but we never once dated. That wasn't to say I didn't have a crush but yeh... By my senior year of hanging out with this guy and him NEVER making a full move I gave up... Honestly I thought he was either an extremely late bloomer or gay... neither bothered me but seriously come on... I mean we went to prom together the unofficial fuck night for all High School goers in the USA and nothing...

When I moved off to college into my second semester we had a falling out over lack of communication and effort in our friendship. I tried to keep in touch he didn't... Funny story was I never talked to him again until over a year later when I was stuck with two tickets to OzzFest that I couldn't get rid of because it was like days before the show and my girlfriend dropped out on me last minute... -_- So I called everyone I knew and their response was the same, "Did you ask Brett?" Now mind you not all of our friends listened to the same type of music but still several of them did! But no one would go with me...

Ok in hind sight and years later I asked them about that and found out it was like instant set up to get us to talk to one another again cause the guy was a mess after we lost contact I guess... I was too admitantly but instead of getting depressed I got a bit wild and hit some drugs and parties and became quite the tease... NOT a slut but a tease for sure... HEY! Don't judge heavy petting is teasing in my book!

ANYWAY~~ Finally came down to it and I was still stuck with two days before the show and I gave into defeat and called him. After a convo, that my father over heard because he was in the car with me and teased me relentlessly over it the WHOLE time and for days later, he finally convinced me to not sell him both tickets but to only sell him one and go with him. I had stipulations of course.

I'm driving

Piss me off I leave you there

Say something stupid I leave you there

Look at me wrong I leave you there

You see where this is going... SO we went and it was like magic and we had just as much fun as we did as kids to the point that I ended up staying at his house that night just like the old days. (I slept on the couch pervs!) The next morning I woke before him took a shower and left. That was August of that year. Didn't hear back from him until one day in December I get an e-mail referencing an old joke of ours about him performing miricals... Like a four year old joke at this point.

We ended up spending New Years together with the whole gang once again like the good ol days. After that we talked often and hung out every few weeks for the year. Sometimes with our buds sometimes just the two of us. I lived about 60 miles away from him so it was only an hour drive but we'd stay at each others homes when we would visit ( I lived alone he lived with his sis) and all was like it was back in the day... Eat pizza, play games, watch movies, and drink now and again.

It was odd because just as he made his way back into my life I had gotten out of a relationship that swore me off men for a while. So it was nice to have my bff back. Then one day my world turned upside down in November the weekend before Thanksgiving...

Now this is where true inspiration comes in...

We had taken to sleeping in the same room sometimes the same bed when we stayed at one another's place for the weekend. This had been going on for months but really it was like six times total it had happened. I woke up one morning and he was curled up against me spooning.

It was odd but I didn't care cause seriously my boi (yes I spelled it like that for a reason) Aaron and me would end up cuddled constantly when we got back after drinking and not finding a guy either of us liked (Aaron more than myself cause I still hated men). Aaron is gay so it was like sleeping next to a warm cuddle girlfriend! Anyway... So spooning... It was the first time there had been any type of physical contact between us when in the bed. We were like Natsu and Lucy during the day though... Constantly hanging on one another or dragging one someplace... shit like that but at night there was always the wall you didn't cross when sharing the bed...

I let it slide though because I think it's human nature to want something to cuddle with. Once again after a year of hanging out and nothing and him showing no interest in the female gender I figured him for not the late bloomer but Gay... Not to mention this was my bff! I'd trust my life with him... That was until his hand twitched and I shit you not it was like OMFG WTF ARE YOU DOING in my mind... He didn't know I was awake yet and I didn't know he was awake yet... Because I didn't know he was awake I tried to calm down at the fact that my BFF WAS GROPING MY TIT! Seriously I thought?! Prepared to just get up and let the fool sleep he surprised me once again when he squeezed...

Lightening strike me if I'm lying but I whipped my head around and came face to face with a grinning fool of a man that was CLEARLY wide awake and knowing what he was doing...

"What are you doing?" I had asked... He was Still grinning mind you! He says, "What do you think I'm doing?"

WHAT... THE... FUCK!

So I took a deep breath and rolled my eyes... He was prolly trying to be funny... Yeh so I thought... "What am I gonna do with you?" I had mumbled mostly to me but obviously in the quiet of the room being inches away he heard me... Besides that the guy's got super hearing I swear it!

"What do you want to do?" accentuated with a twitch of the hand that was still attached to me.

WAS THIS FUCK FOR REAL!?

Five years of friendship crashed into my mind at once and sent me reeling away from him and running to my bathroom for a much needed escape and shower...

I seriously flipped my shit... This is the guy I figured out I loved... Yes I could say I loved him and had it been before we had lost touch and I was forced to move on with my life this wouldn't have bothered me as much... But now when I came to terms that my friendship would be just that and that was 100% great in my mind he did this... after my hour long shower I decided to pretend nothing happened... We went on with the day like planned hit a movie and grabbed some food before he headed home that afternoon to finish some paper due Mon morning.

Of course no sooner was he out of my driveway did I flip out and start balling. I didn't know what to do and the worst part was he was supposed to come back in a few weeks to go with me to my work x-mas party... I called my two girls over and cried hysterics as I told them what happened while those devils smiled the whole while and tried to calm me down... All the while saying I should have gone for it...

So I ditched them and called my other home girl/ sister like friend... Her response was astonished and I was like FINALLY! some one on my side... Yeh NO... She was like a sick proud astonished at the fact that he finally grew a pair... Ditch number two...

I turned to the internet... Now I'm dating myself here but it was back when messengers were still used and FB was Zukermans wet dream... ANYWAY... I jump on and msg one of both our really good friends... This guys is Brett's bestie since like fourth grade and he's like the brother I never had... (Only child other than step sibs that consist of two bros near my age and a sis that is like 10 years older so yeh once again no help) So I sob my story to my bud/bro and he laughs... Having much the same response as the last person in amazement then tell me it shouldn't be a big deal... Everyone seen this comin...

This is my BEST FRIEND I'm talking about and every one says no biggy... I was like WTF am I the only one that sees issue here?!

The afternoon turns to evening and this all keeps going like this no matter who I talk to... He gets online and I go into invisible mode forgetting he was one of the few set to see me when I'm invisible... DUH! Once again I don't say shit about it all... and when he tried to steer the convo that way I just turned it to something diff...

My issue in all this... This was the one person I could trust with my deepest secrets and I had been forced to move on from him once. I would rather be his friend and be happy than have him turn into another one of the "bastards" I had dumped along the way losing him forever. I held our friendship so tightly that I wanted nothing to ruin it. And no one seemed to get that...

Then one day my dad calls me... He's an over the road trucker and so he gets bored and calls on occasion... He asks what I had done over the weekend and I internally freaked... Well he's my dad so he noticed even if it was over the phone... He instantly went to "You got drunk and finally gave it up to that boy didn't you?!" Laughing the whole time... Yes my father is where my terrible mind and language issues stem from...

Moving on... I started balling to him and poured my heart out with no one left to turn to. (Before you ask I share a similar story to Lucy in the fact of Mom died years ago caused issue with Dad and self but we made it work when I got older... That's why I didn't turn to mom in all this.) My dad listened in such silence I swore we lost connection at some point... But no... I mean I even told him what Brett had done unashamed because I'm an adult and yeh I told you about my dad already...

Finally after it was all out all the fears of loss, the possible death of our friendship, my world crashing around me, the worry about it only being an easy opportunity for physicality and everything he sighed so deeply the cell picked it up.. (once again this was like 10 years ago) For the first time ever my father gave me real advice... He asked me several questions to ask myself...

Has he ever hurt you physically?

Mentally so hard you want nothing to do with him?

Is he respectful of you?

Do you care for him?

Do you trust him?

When the answers were Hell no, Fuck no, Yes, Of course, and With my life... he sighed again and said "Give the guy a chance."

And there it was... I finally let that convo happen when he did show up for my party and I was so drunk I had to ask him if we even had it or I was dreaming the next morning but we did and we were officially a couple...

He still lived an hour's drive away but we made it work... It was like an instant change though from our behavior... He was suddenly clingy and cuddly all the time. Stole kisses constantly and didn't even ask when he curled up in bed holding me at night... Held my hand all the time and didn't flinch about the intimacy in front of our friends only two weeks later... Mind you that was only the second weekend we seen one another since being an official couple. Needless to say the transition was WAY easy for him his hidden perv for me blossoming into a visible one...

Me not so much... I thought it was all moving way to fast and reverted back to being like a fifteen year old school girl again trying to pull away and not blush... So when the first time we had sex came about only 1 month... or really three interactions later, into our relationship I once more flipped out and he calmed me down... Mind you I wasn't a prude... Like I said I had a wild phase but it was just so odd for me still...We had been on 1 official date... most our time had been spent with friends not alone... But he was the one who told me it was like we were dating all along...

Yep... there it is... inspiration... Five years later... because I prolonged the wedding thinking that hell would befall us the moment we said I do... we were married and still are and come September we'll be married 5 years but will have been bff's for 15... We got married the same month we met and damn near to the day... In our home town and even had the teacher that had brought us together (unknowingly of course) there... Yeh there's ups and downs but I'm more happy than I could have ever guessed... and while he's still an idiot most days I wouldn't change him...

Wanna know the funny part? What caused all this? I had been tossing the idea of moving to FL up and we live in MI... He got scared of losing me... While I found out years later he had harbored some deep deep deep feelings for me like I did him he was always scared of chasing me off with the idea cause I was dating guys that were nothing like him... yeh I dated those guys so I wouldn't be reminded of what I couldn't have...

Oh! Not to mention too he even basically moved into my home... He came to stay the weekend and just never really left... FOUR months later we cleaned out his apt and officially said he lived with me...

LMFAO... Ahhh the stupid things we go through... So there it is... in an odd way this story is my story as told through Natsu and Lucy... And yes we have our crazy group of friends that have been that same group since High School and they were our wedding party... 15 years and nothings changed... well a lot has but it's nothing I'd take back... We still have the same friends and now our kids have play dates... we still play video games and watch anime, but we do it as a family... and we still have pizza and get drunk but it's after the baby goes to bed... Yup nothing and everything changed but we made one funny fucking story along the way... One day I'll have to tell you all about how we met... LMFAO!

BTW hubby is the one that thought of half of Happy's random shit he says in his outburst... Thing is he can even make it sound almost logical... It's nuts!

So you can see why I fell so deeply for NaLu and am a total shipper! And I'm sure you can spot out SO much of the story in my personal one... Yes this started as a way to vent my own thoughts and have a sound board to bounce on but then it turned into a tale of passion for me. I literally tossed myself in this story and I don't regret it... The thought of loss can do crazy things to people as well as bring them closer than ever thought. And while I know this is crazy to put yourself in the shoes of characters I still can't seem to care. We need things in the world to lean on at times and to help remind us of things we've been through and if something makes you happy then fuck it enjoy it! Ahhh now I'm ranting... LOL

But seriously... You guys have given me something to look forward too each day when I'm bored and given me some confidence in my writing once more. And while I'm sad this is over I'm also quite happy because this was EPIC! I really hope you did enjoy the journey with me! But for now I'm off to vacation in the mind of Happy because it really has grown on me... I love seafood so I get the shell fish and he takes that fish fish LOL Some one has to keep him company while Natsu and Lucy are off on their honeymoon, ne? ;)

I'll see ya around!

~Gemi