Dani was quiet for the duration of the drive to Nico's place.
What is she thinking? Surely she has just gotten a lot of information to process but she is never this quiet?! It's driving me nuts!
There is just so much…so many questions…I need answers.
Nico pulled into the parking garage of his apartment complex, drove to his parking spot and killed the engine. He glanced over at Dani then got out of the car. He opened the door behind the driver's door to retrieve Dani's bag then walked around to the back passenger's door to add their dinner bag to the bag he was already carrying. He then noted that Dani hadn't moved.
He closed the door with his foot then set both bags on the ground, opening Dani's door.
"You okay?" Nico asked, slightly concerned.
"Yeah, yeah. Sorry, just zoned out" Dani said getting out of the car.
Dani reached for her bag but Nico slung it over his shoulder and picked up the food, motioning her towards the elevator, rather than letting her carry anything.
Nico punched in the code for the security system adjoining the elevator, the doors opened and they stepped in.
He then entered another code and the elevator rose to their floor.
Again Nico motioned Dani out of the elevator and they moved down the hallway to the closer of the two doors in the hallway. Nico took out a key and opened the door to his apartment.
Dani stepped inside and looked around, it was just how she had imagined it, sleek, modern, and orderly, just very Nico.
"Nice" Dani said appreciatively.
"Thank you" Nico said, moving to the kitchen island to set down their food.
He set Dani's bag on the floor next to the counter.
"Dinner first?" Nico asked, already reaching for some plates, glasses, and a bottle of wine from the fridge.
"Sure" Dani said finishing looking around the room and seating herself at the island.
Nico dished up the food, poured the wine, and sat down next to Dani.
"You've been quiet" Nico mused.
"Just thinking" Dani replied between bites, still very much lost in thought.
"About?" Nico asked. Uh oh…
"Anything and everything, I have so many questions, and too few answers" Dani said not looking at Nico.
"Do I hold the answers?" Nico asked, knowing the answer all too well.
"Most likely" Dani smiled a small smile, turning to look at Nico with sad eyes. "Not that I'll ever know".
"I told you I would explain and I will. You just have to give me a chance Dani." Nico said very earnestly.
"I'm trying Nico, but you don't make it easy" Dani replied sadly.
"I'm going to simplify it. You can ask me anything. I will tell you anything you want to know. You have until you leave here, whenever it is you choose to do so, to ask me whatever you want and I will give you the answers. I owe you that much. I want to give you that." Nico said turning to face Dani.
"But you'll just be vague. I will never know the real you." Dani said letting out a sigh.
"No, I don't want that. I will give you straight answers; I am an open book within these walls. Ask and I will answer. I want to tell you everything, explain everything, but I don't know how to do that Dani. So you have to ask the questions. I don't know how to be open; I need you to help to accomplish that. If you want to know me, know the truth, than you have to ask." Nico said still looking at Dani, intensely now.
"You'll give me answers? Real answers?" Dani asked, amazed. She turned her body to face him.
"Yes. I will give you real answers. I want you to know me Dani." Nico said.
"Okay, then I want answers. I want all of them." Dani said hopping down off the stool.
"Where are you going?" Nico said. What the…
"Nowhere. Not until I get what I came for" Dani said taking off her shoes.
"Then what are you doing?" Nico asked, puzzled by Dani's behavior.
"Getting comfortable, I plan on being here awhile and since I don't need these as an equalizer I might as well enjoy taking them off." Dani said rejoining Nico at the bar.
"You're amazing" Nico said, smiling at Dani in awe.
"Now let's see if you're amazing" Dani said smiling back at Nico.
"I'm not always the good guy" Nico warned Dani.
"I know, but the truth can never be wrong. Even when it is hell, it is honest, and that's all I ask for." Dani said earnestly.
"Just remember that when you get all your answers. And promise to let me get through all of it okay?" Nico stated.
"I meant what I said I am in for the long haul. I will hear you out." Dani nodded.
"Now let's finish eating and then we can take this discussion into the living room. Sound good?" Nico asked Dani.
"Okay, so long as the wine comes with us" Dani said smiling, resuming her meal.
"Of course" Nico replied, going back to eating as well.
They ate in a charged silence contemplating what was to come.
He has a lot to get off his chest. I need to hear it though, whether as a friend or as a…well let's just see where this goes. I need him to be honest and I just need to accept him. So long as I get the answers I so desperately need though I am confident it will all work out.
She trusts me enough to take off those shoes, that says a lot more then she thinks. But this is going to be all or nothing. I can't hide anything. If I want this to work I am going to have to tell her everything. Can she accept it? Will she be able to look at me the same way again?