Moves

Chapter

Puzzle pieces

"I think I've already lost you, I think you're already gone. I think I'm finally scared now, you think I'm weak, I think you're wrong."

Penelope touched the necklace he'd given her on their first anniversary dating. It was an unconscious gesture but it brought comfort because it represented the time when they worked. She didn't think they worked anymore. These days were the only time in their history that she could remember him saying things just to hurt her. He'd never done that to her before. She'd pushed him that far. Too far.

Derek considered the painting before him. It was one of those quaint little paintings of a country house, not something he would normally ever buy. But Penelope had loved it so he had bought it for their house. It was back in the time were he would never hurt her. Now daggers slipped out of his mouth and he didn't understand why. She needed to get out before he destroyed her.

"Morgan!" Derek turned at the sound of Hotch calling his name but considered making a run for it when he saw the look in his boss's eyes. Hotchner stopped a few feet from him and his eyes were cold. "Meet me in my office." There was a sinking feeling in his stomach as he approached the office.

"You wanted to see me Hotch?" Aaron Hotchner was a man of many talents, one of which was making you feel transparent when he looked at you. When Derek fell under his gaze he felt like all his personal problems were laid out on a mat for the other man to inspect.

"Derek I need you to be honest with me." A sinking feeling was in his gut. "Do you still love Garcia?" His heart burst in his chest.

"Do people really not know?" It was agony. He had tried to show it to everyone, her most of all, everyday. Aaron gave a look that dripped with everything from anger to sorrow to pity to grief. Anger because Derek should know better. Sorrow because these two people he loved were suffering. Pity because a love as big as the one Penelope and Derek shared should be stronger than this and finally grief because he knew the cost of love lost.

"Derek, I beg of you, don't do this. I can see it in your eyes, don't be that guy who insists she deserves better." Flash.

"She does! She doesn't deserve this! I slip up and treat her like she isn't worth my time and she deserves someone who will give her their best all the time!"

She could handle the anger, the words said without thought; those were meaningless in face of life without him. She couldn't imagine her life without Derek Morgan. She couldn't imagine not being Penelope Morgan anymore.

"Penny," she smiled at the name JJ called her. It was a pet name used only when it was just the two of them. "Penny, tell me something. Are you willing to give up?" Her mouth opened to retort something in the neighborhood of 'I'm not the one giving up' but the words died on her lips.

"I don't know J. I…I don't want to hurt anymore. But I can't imagine him gone either."

Aaron Hotchner and Jennifer Jeroe met at a coffee shop that afternoon to discuss their friends and their suffering.

"She's so lost. On one hand she's hurt but on the other she's afraid of losing her best friend." Aaron nodded.

"He's broken. He wants her to be with the man she deserves but can't find that person in himself because he is human with flaws and that won't do." JJ sighed.

"What are we going to do with them Aaron?" Aaron's eyes steeled.

"I think it's time for an intervention."

"Morgan," Hotch gestured for him to come into his office. Morgan climbed the stairs wondering what was up. When he stepped into the room the first thing his eyes locked onto was Penelope.

"Penelope?" The name slipped out unintentionally and he saw her jump. That hurt.

"Sit down Derek." The command came from JJ, who had been standing in the corner with her arms folded against her chest.

"Do you know why you two are here?" It was Aaron who spoke the question but Derek's eyes were still locked on Penelope.

"Baby girl?" Penelope sucked in a breath. It had been a long time since he'd called her that. JJ took the lead.

"She is your baby girl Derek. But you need to realize that she is also your wife. Wives and girl friends are fundamentally different in that she relies on your faith just as much as she relies on everything else. You two have lost the faith in each other that you had!" JJ's eyes were sharp as she glared at the two of them. "I need you two to realize that if you won't fight for this than you don't deserve it!" Penelope sucked in a sharp breath and her eyes froze on her husband's worn face.

"Derek, please don't hurt me anymore." Derek buried his face in his hands and broken sobs could be heard, JJ put a comforting hand on his shoulder.

"Derek what do you need from this?" Derek put his shaking hands around his wife's.

"Baby girl, my Penelope Morgan, I need you to believe in me again. I know I haven't been the husband you deserve but from now on I will do everything I can to make up for that." Penelope had tears running down her face but she was smiling.

"Derek Morgan I could only regret taking your name if you regret giving it to me." The couple embraced and their friends watched as the pieces of their puzzle finally fell back into place.

AN: Not sure if I like this one.