A/N: Idea came to while watching a video on youtube my friend linked me to. Since this is heavily based off that video I'll advertise it here for the purpose of giving credit where credit is due. "little clown, TROUBLING CLOWN" by NekoHitomi15. I do use several lines from it, mostly paraphrased. I'm using the idea from the video and giving my own twist on it.
two sides of THE SAME CLOWN
"i haven't seen any of my friends in a while..." Gamzee said, sitting quietly in his dark corner of the meteor. Around him were empty pie tins with the dregs of the last of the sopor slime.
THEY ALL HATE YOU ANYWAY
Flinching away from the voice he said, "i could talk to Karkat..." looking up at his grubtop where it sat to the side.
YOU'D JUST ANNOY HIM AS USUAL
"what if they find me...?" Gamzee said hopefully.
THEY'RE NOT EVEN LOOKING
"why do they leave me alone..."
WHY DON'T YOU ALL LEAVE ME ALONE :o(
"just go away" He hugged his legs into his chest.
NO, ITS YOUR TURN THIS TIME MOTHERFUCKER
"what do you want?" Gamzee begged softly.
DON'T YOU FEEL LIKE MURDERING?
"everyones just come together at last...we've all stopped fighting..."
YOU'RE BROKEN, I JUST WANT TO PLAY :o)
"maybe I should bake a pie..." He said, shaking.
BUT YOU RAN OUT OF SLIME, he replied, cruelly happy.
"i need to help everyone..."
YOU'D JUST FUCK EVERYTHING UP
"why do you always hurt me..." He said, lowering his head to stare at his feet.
I KNOW YOU BETTER THAN ANYONE
"i didn't have anyone else growing up...but I have friends now..." Gamzee sobbed, "just go away..."
I WAS HERE FIRST. I'VE ALWAYS MOTHERFUCKING BEEN HERE.
"...i don't want to die..." he cried softly.
BUT I WANT TO LIVE
what are you going to do to my friends, he thought, fading.
Gamzee grinned evilly. "I'M GOING TO KILL ALL THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS."