Alone

Alone...

Five letters I've never felt more in my life,
Since this position began, from the start, filled with strife,
It hadn't always been this way,
I faintly remember a time that I was able to smile, able to openly feel...but today...

Alone...

Five letters I've never felt more in my soul,
Even more as I look out my office door, at my employees' party, to my mind, nearly out of control.
They've formed a close-knit family...and it's easy to see...
That because of what I've become, they've grown on...without me...

Alone...

Without the rules and laws that I always enforce on them,
Chaos and confusion would reign, worse than they are now, that's why we have our system!
I've tried to explain to them this, tried to explain why this is best...
But I can't get through most of the time...see angry, hateful stares...that wrenches a deep ache in my chest.

Alone...

That annoying redhead's never serious, always causing trouble,
And when you add in Ronald's calamities, the overtime caused is double.
How can I ever get anyone to see...
That the very thing I must live by...is inside slowly killing me...?

Alone...

I've heard the comments, my own co-workers saying that I have no emotions nor heart,
How can they say that...? How can they, when my very life is tearing me apart!
I turn away quickly...I won't let anyone see my tears...
I won't let anyone hear me cry in loneliness...weakness...even after these years...

Why...why must I always be...alone...?